A moment of silence please...the 10th marked the death of my Grandfather...the bravest man I've met in my life.
Okay...Rest in peace Grandfather!
Ummm okay where was I.. *Takes another shot* That's the stuff!
Now uhh okay onto some stuff I hardly talk about.. luv.. What is it? Why do I feel things? Ah well... I dunno what to do anymore I'm so confused soundwave! What would you do?!?! When megatron backstabbed you what did you do before? Take over as leader probably... Ah well.. I guess the gal I feel stuff for doesn't feel the same way or nothin, so perhaps it's time I took the hint n' give up.. Time will tell.. I'll sleep on it. I'm all out of options as what I should do... I've got finals to worry about, money problems for x-mas gifts to ponder over and family matters to deal with...something has to give and there must be an escape. Ah well, in time in time... I can't wait until break..I'm gonna sleep all day and plot evil at night...just like I do now! hehehe.. Well I dunno what else to say soundwave...Happy holidays everyone..hope you get what you want for axe-mas. Remember friends, whenever I die, whoever digs me up first gets the computer out of my cold dead hands.
I'm so confused on a lot of things... I'm such a jerk all the time.. I know I'm a bad person and I dunno why people tolerate me at all.. maybe it's just the vodka talkin' but maybe Chris did well to abandon me when he did. I dunno, I'm never talking to him again.. He didn't even go to my birthday party for the past few years so it doesn't matter. How can Eric stand me? How did Sarah ever love me? How did my left hand ever love me...well hehe it had no choice did it?
Well I thank everyone that's still my friend, or are they? Hard to tell these days with me being a jerk all the time n' all...Oh well deal with it people.. I'm not here to make friends or please anyone... I'm living this life for myself and there ain't nobody gonna tell me what to do! Okay this ring of fire song repeated 20 times now...im going mad from it. This song free falling by tom petty is pretty much the truth. I didn't deserve to have Sarah as a girlfriend back then... But meh, it happens, people manage to tolerate me.
Preston, I know we've been enemies in the past kind of, and I'm sorry for the stuff Chris and I did to you.. I know you forgave me, but I'm just saying now and forever that I'm sorry.
Eric, Sorry that I allowed you to be the third wheel for a while..and sorry about all the fights we had.. yer a trooper to tolerate a real prick like me.
Sarah, well Sorry for everything..thanks for showing me what love was, even if it were for a glimpse.
Mark, Thanks for being there to do stuff where words weren't something that needed to be exchanged.
Dave (offy), Thanx for doin stuff with me whenever we had nothing else to do in this bum town.
Elliot, thanx for the chats online and all for now.. lets chill sometime.
Happy Holidays everyone, and remember... Donate to the empire of the drunk republic and help me build the 3rd death star...and I'll spare you when it's complete hehehehe!!!
DIE DIE DIE!!! (Good song)
-Matt
Time: 12:36 A.M
Mood: Happy-Drunk
Song: Ring of Fire
Character: My Dad