unfaithful*
As I sit here outside on the patio. Staring out into nothing. A black cloud forms in the skies above. The wind blows through my hair. I hear a knock at the door. Is it you. I hear footsteps along the carpet. Coming closer and closer to me. The door opens as you step out, sitting in the chair next to me. You stare out at the city to where I am looking. You don�t speak you look over at me�I glance at you. Looking away. Sorry is all you can say. Sorry for what though I think. For leaving me�for breaking my heart�for breaking your promises. I believed in you. I trusted you�I loved you. A tear rolls down my soft cheek. You brush your thumb over it, it disappears. The feel of your touch�I have to hold back that feeling.
You said you�d always be there. Loving me unconditionally�my heart aches from the sadness�your unfaithfulness. What did I do wrong? Did I not give you enough? Please tell me why? You say you still love me. You always will. You can�t explain your unfaithful actions. You put your head down in shame. I look up at you with tears in my eyes. I simply ask you why. Why did you have to go to someone else? You could have told me�talked to me. I love you, I love you, you keep saying. But can I believe you really mean it? I�ll do anything you say. You can�t turn back time. Not knowing what I�m thinking, I pray to God that if it was possible I would turn back time. But it�s not. And I�m left here with a broken heart.
Why aren�t I taking you back into my arms as soon as you say I�m sorry? It�s not that easy. My heart feels as if you took it out of me and stepped on it over and over. As I continue sitting there staring at nothing. I think of all the times you were faithful to me. Our nights alone�the endless nights of love, and passion. My heart aches again as the thoughts flood my mind. Please hear me out you say. As I come back to reality. I see you closer to me. I just want to reach out and touch you. I want you to hold me in your arms like you had done once before. But I can�t let myself lose control. I have to stay strong.
As tears weld up in my eyes. I have to excuse myself. I walk back inside the house, hoping you won�t follow me. But you still do. I go and sit on the leather couch, burying my face in my hands as I cry. You come and sit next to me. You take a tissue from the box on the coffee table and wipe my eyes. Why are you doing this? I can�t hold back. I need you. I want you. I look up at you. Your gorgeous blue eyes stare back at me. I�m hooked. You lean in and kiss me. The feel of your soft lips on mine is incredible. As you deepen the kiss. I pull away. You ask what�I say, �you were unfaithful to me.�
THE END.