catch me :: if :: i fall


Friday, July 29, 2005

:: Faltar a mi querido ::

Hmmm dunno why I feel sooo hungry today.. Ate rice before work, then ate hamburger, with 2 garlic rolls. Then after work I had tofu, and now at home I�m eating bread with cheese. And I feel like eating more of those delicious cheese sticks.

Saw Alvin Ho few days back at Suntec. Hmm he looks the same, just that his hair needs help. Said that he�s going to Holland to get his degree in Design and leaving in September. After we talked.. you know what I saw� before I turn to walk away, I saw him checking me out! You know the top to toe gaze.. Shit.. maybe my skirt was too short..

I�ll cut down on wearing my skirts.


I�ve got nothing much to say.


Been working a lot, enjoying it. Been spending a lot too, NOT enjoying it

Missing someone; not Mr Goat.

Someone who said �Muniera es muy bonita.� *giggles* I wonder when I�ll see him again. I like talking to him.. BUT after a while, I feel like pulling my hair out.

I dunno if he likes me. I�ve seen him look at me with that kind of look.. He�s nice to me. Very, sweet, gentle. He actually picked me to accompany him out of some other people to help him out. He was like looking at me, smiled and said �Muni, come..� and he smiled some more. I do miss working with him. Every time when I go to work, I will always check out his name and see where he�ll be. I tried to avoid him, but somehow I can�t. I need to talk to him, see his face, see him blush..

Am I on the rebound?


Moon


Thursday, July 21, 2005

:: Pretty Flower ::

It's getting pretty weird lately. This colleague of mine, ok he began to ask me abt my.. errm what I do besides esplanade. Then he asked abt what I graduate from, my sec sch, asked if I can cook.

Now� when a guy ask a girl that� ok I didnt look too much into it.. until after the conversation continues.. its lengthy buy u can scroll till the end to see why I�m feeling weird abt it.

[Him] : hey, ask u ah, u know how to cook?
[Me] : yes
[Me] : maggi
[Him] : alamak.... okies icic..
[Me] : ok la I know its terrible. I cannot cook. men dun like it
[Him] : not terrible la, alot of girls also duno how to cook
[Me] : I know, I will try to lean
[Him] : not that men DUN like it...
[Him] : that has never been the criteria
[Me] : as they saying goes; the only way to please a man is thru his stomach
[Him] : yea yea....but I guess its more of a bonus to men if the girl can cook. if girl cant cook, so b it...its still alrite
[Me] : awww u�re so sweet
[Him] : aiya, we have to be realistic at this age n time
[Me] : heh but some guys still want to come home to have home cooked meals
[Him] : yes, of cos, me too... but its something we(guys) have to accept
[Me] : at least u can accept it
[Me] : some guys just cant
[Me] : maybe too pampered, mamas boy
[Him] : I dun wan my wife to be a housewife all her life man
[Me] : ah good cos if a guy were to ask me to quit my job and be at home, I�ll kick his balls man
[Me] : BUT
[Him] : whahahaha kick balls...
[Me] : that�s what most malay guys want..
[Me] : cos i know for sure, majority la
[Him] : then u marry chinese guy lor
[Me] : their mums will ask them to tell the wives to stay home, cook, clean house, make babies, u know that crap
[Me] : sigh the question is...
[Me] : IF I can find a guy, let alone chinese.. my first bf was a chinese guy
[Him] : yaya, hey, issit die die the guy have to convert to islam if marry malay girl?
[Me] : yup
[Him] : wah lao......quite sian right like dat...
[Me] : u mean?
[Him] : lets say for ppl like me, I will never convert but if got see malay girl I like how sia...


Ok I shall stop there.. soooo wat do you think??

He has been close to me past few days. The last time round, he even asked people where I was, ran over (i was told he ran) to my place, sat beside me, close enough to smell him, and we talk..

A guy in production told me I�m pretty.

And Sid just told me that he�s upset when I told him I�m dating someone. I met him up during Baybeats cos he was performing. He didn�t recognize me. He said I lost weight and I look even prettier.

Hmm I see an improvement here. I�m now pretty and no longer cute. Is that good?


MoonFlower


Tuesday, July 19, 2005

:: Am I Pretty? ::

Someone told me I�ve got nice eyes.. not the bottom pair mind you.. but my eyes� hmmm do I?

Past few days someone told me that I�m pretty too. Am i? How come I�m pretty now? And not previously?

Oh ya.. and someone else asked me if I lived in Holland Village. I said no and asked him why. And he told me that I look like one. And I asked him what makes him think that I look like a person who lived in Holland Village. And he pointed to from my head to my toes.

Now what the heck does that mean?

He�s my sugar.. though he calls me baby. Nvm long story. Anyways I asked him if he think that I�m materialistic.. and he said I am. Lucky he�s my baby. If not I would have whacked him.

Heh.

Really enjoying my working.. even though I work from 7am (on certain days) till 11pm. I still look forward to going to work and meeting the people there. I must be nuts. Or is it because of someone?

It was Tris's birthday yesterday. 18th July. He smsed me in the morning, telling me to �Have a wonderful day ahead of you dearest.�

So is that a reminder sms? I mean a reminder of his birthday.. not a reminder for me to have a wonderful day ahead..

Hmm oh I didn�t mention that he gave me a huge lovebite did I? Well he did, and I actually noticed that he did that after I told him that there was this guy who wanted to send me home and he�s cute, etc. And he told me about the girls from his Velvet gig. How the girls were all running up to him, wanting to hug him and saying how good he looked and that he's got a nice arse. So I asked if he asked for the girl's number. He said he didn�t have too, cos she gave it to him and she's attached and her bf's there. So I just was like.. ahh good for you la. And he asked if I'm jealous. I told him no I�m not cos he's not mine in the first place. (And then I forgot what happened next)

Hmm I recall writing this part somewhere.. But its not in the entries� nvm I shall search for it because I cant be bothered to write.. haha.


MoonFlower


Monday, July 4, 2005

:: Need to be FREE.. of him ::

Yea yea I know I�ve been neglecting my poor website. I�ve been REAL busy the past month.. with.. well tons of things.

Been trying to make peace with my soul. Rediscovering myself, wondering why some guys do what they do. Thinking if they actually meant what they say. Missing someone.. you know that kind of stuff. Yea. *Sigh*

My super duper best friend Anna recommend me to read this book titled �He�s just not that into you.� Read it in a day and well, I realized just that. He�s just not that into me.

Yea I know Anna will be like I told you so.. But u know when someone is IN LOVE, they don�t see the obvious. Sorry la. Fine I should have listened to you.

I have to admit. No matter what happens or what had happened, I still do like him. But well I now understand that he do not like me as much as I do like him. I think I will clarify with him on that and well, just dump him after that.

Oh ya I forgot to update for a freaking month; a lot of things happened, new revelations, I duno why I kept seeing butterflies these days. I read somewhere that butterflies bring good omen. Is it true? Pls tell me.

My one month of absence has not gone to waste. I do write down the �happenings�. It�s just that I do not have to time to type it all out. Yea maybe now that I�m much calmer, I cld spend a few hrs in front of my dear dying pc to type it all out.

Anna says that my tagboard is dead? Is it true ppl? Will have it fixed soon. Then again no one leaves any messages there anymore for me expect for my beloved Anna.

I�m going to leave this as it is for now and continue to type in the rest. Have a Great month everyone.

And Anna I�m sorry about the results. I hope I was there to help you thru it. We�ll talk later tonight ok. Love ya.


Dead and Empty Inside.




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