Insequities
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      I have never been that scared. I faced them; I actually faced my parents. It has been an hour since we left Japan behind, but my heart is still beating faster than normal. Japan is out of sight, its gone, and I think a part of me is also gone. Yes, I think I lost a piece of my endless hope and optimism. Ace would never have believed it.
      I see Kai looking at me. I know they�re worried; they always have been, but none more than Kai. Since Ace�s disappearance (and probable death as Cell pointed out in Japan) Kai has taken on more. She has taken the role of mother, friend, and now, back bone. I wonder if she�s taking on too much? I know she doesn�t want to bother us with her troubles, she�s a selfless person and I don�t think she realizes how much she means to us all.
      Garret is trying to get into my mind, but I�ve blocked him out, some things he doesn�t have to know. I know he loves me, as much as a bird can love a person, and I don�t know what I would have done through it all if it had not been for him. I just hope I am giving him as much as he�s giving to me.
      I can feel Ruse staring at the back of my head. Poor boy, I know that he likes me but he doesn�t understand that I can�t like him in the same way; it�s an age thing. I�ll admit that the attention he gives is flattering, well when he isn�t pulling the damn pranks on me but that�s simply it, it�s only flattering.
      I remember when it was me who was pinning for members of the team. First Genesis, then Renegade� but something happened. I don�t know, I still think Renegade is a total babe but now that seems less important to me. Now I have begun to see Cell, the tight assed leader, in a new light. I just hope that he didn�t sense that when he read my thoughts.
      Its funny how things have changed in a matter of weeks. Two weeks ago I was worried that my training sessions wouldn�t go as planned and that I would miss my favorite T.V. show. But now I�m worried that the team is falling apart and that when I will be needed my powers won�t be enough to save the people I care about the most.
      The others don�t understand that. Cell has an undeniable control, as does Kai. Genesis�s powers have reached their peek point and are of constant use while Ruse has just begun to develop his abilities. Ace was always coming into her own with new uses for her powers while, even without his powers; Renegade is a force to be reckoned with.
      Genesis says that my powers still have yet to develop, but that that could happen any day now. Yet Garret says that the reason that they haven�t developed was because I�m not ready for them too. Maybe he�s right.
      I wonder what the others are thinking. Would they be wondering the same things as I am? Are they curious as too the Gorgon�s whereabouts? Do they want to know what happened to Ace? And do they want to put that question behind them? So many questions and right now we have so few answers. Oh well, I guess they can wait for another day, and for a time when we are ready to face the consequences that will come with knowing the answers.
      Tomorrow is another day, one that will bring us one step closer to our dreams. Well� maybe I have lost a bit of my optimism, but I still have plenty left. 1