Not to long ago I thought I�d never feel
All the happiness I felt before my heart needed to heal
I thought I�d never be happy, that sadness was all I�d see
But you�ve shown me it�s not my only destiny
You�ve shown me that I have choice when it comes to Fate
That I don�t have to hurt and I don�t have to hate
You�ve shown me what it�s like to feel true happiness again
And you�ve proven to me I haven�t died within
Not to long ago I thought I�d never feel
For happiness to come to me I�d have to rely on pills
But now I know that there�s a better way
To make happiness fill my each and everyday
I look up as you walk past
You're scent so strong, I can't surpass
This chance I have to catch your eye
Just one glimpse as you walk by
A chance to talk, one chance to see
What could happen between you and me
Friends or lovers, it's your pick
Hit or miss, will we click?
I am no longer the same I feel inferior to you now
I�ve changed�being with you I can�t allow
I�m not good enough for you that�s how I feel
I took a chance and with the consequences I must deal
I�m no longer the same I feel inferior to you now
I can�t be with you, I don�t know how
Will it be the same or will it be less?
Me being with someone made this mess
I�m scared of what you think of me and how it will feel
Will you still think of it as making love or will it make you ill?
Will you be thinking of another while we�re together undercover?
Or will you think of me as a slut ?
Just someone you sleep with when you�re in a rut
Will you look at me with loving eyes?
Or with a secret look of hate and despise?
Can you kiss me without being sad?
Can you make love to me without getting mad?
I feel as if I�ve cheated on my one and only
Now I feel that much more lonely
Even though we�re not together
My love, nothing can dissever
I know this makes no sense to you
But I love you and that will stay true
I still feel as if you I don�t disserve
Even asking for you has some nerve
These questions I need answered I�ll understand, just tell me how you feel
I really need to know so I can deal
Alone I sit and here I must admit.... is where I should be
Melody in the background....Anger hidden once,
Now again found.
Chaotic thoughts.... where I should be where I've saught
Numbness creeps over me, pop another one for a higher degree
Alone in silence....is where I should be
Lean, fall, screaming inside
Tears fall, it all collides......
And this is it.....where I should be
Anything to escape the chaos, I thought
But when I look back, it's all I've ever saught...
IT'S WHERE I SHOULD BE
In the middle of Chaos!
Eyes like the moon apon a midnight sky
her skin smooth...the gentle touch.
If she only knew how much they lust.
Our Little Asian Girl
With hair that shimmers as the light caresses it
Oh to be the razor that once crossed her wrists.
Or even the tears that once graced her precious lips
Our Little Asian Girl
If only she knew how the wind pawned over her
And how the sun refused to shine without the presence of her
She cries inside....she thinks she's alone
If only she knew the mockingbird sang, for her, his song
She wills all the world to die with each breath she takes
Little does she know, more life is given with each smile she makes.
Our Little Asian Girl
With each tear she cries, somewhere a piece of the universe dies...
She has no clue her effect on our lives,
Her beauty, her grace...will be our demise...
You're it, our little asian girl....
D: Tori <3
Anger, deceit, disappointment...
Why?
Tricked once again
I feel used, my body beaten...abused.
I hate the way he makes me feel
Whe she's not around it all seems so real
The he slips...
My reality...not relaity at all
Just another piece in his game to make us fall
Believe him "he's so sweet"
He'll love you forever, you'll never weap.
But no one is perfect everyone lies.
Some dressed up as sweet innocent guys.
Breathing heavily, awaiting your touch
Caressing your body, I love you so much
We've delayed our lust for way too long
Now we give in, not worried about right or wrong
I look in your eyes, the want you can see
I've longed for this night, as you've longed for me
Turn on the radio and turn down the lights
You kiss me softly and I 'give up' the fight
You whisper you love me as I'm lowered to the floor
And I'm just worried you'll think I'm a whore
This thought flees as you pull me close
I can see in your eyes you're not like most
The gentleness you use as you guide me over you
Surprisingly, I stay calm...we both know what to do
Your lips move from passion to hunger and need
Your touch, once a gentle caress is now a want to please....