The first of a new month. Time has lost its appeal. Remember the days when the first of the month meant giving someone a pinch and a punch. Now all it means is that time is passing, and day by day, we are all getting older. All on the crashing and burning charriot that drives us to the end of our lives, and the end of the road. Lol, and a drunken slob is the one in control of the horses reins. How pathetically sad.

Does god, buddah or any religious icon actually exsist? If they did, then why is it that so many people don't find proof enough to believe in it. But then, for me to believe that I am living in a dream means that I have to believe in some higher "being". There has to be something that had dreamt up this life. Who ever said it was a life of missery? Poor sod. Probably never even knew what he or she was getting themselves into. I think they could've done a better job than this. Hehe and to have so many people hate him/her. But then, its their own fault. "Show us o lord, show us the error of our way." Preach, nag, worship. Load of rubbish if you ask me, but then no one did.

Why would you ask me? You all have you're own beliefs and no matter how fucked up other people think you are, most of you wont give a stuff about what other people say. Which makes me wanna say "Good on you," and although I'm not going to say it verbaly, you can deal with it being written. If you can't, then that's not my problem.

Problems in paradise. Not necissarily my problems, and this isn't exactly paradise. Sow where the hell did that come from? I said not necissarily my problems, but that doesnt mean there aren't problems. And although they're not mine, doesn't mean I'm so blind as to not see them. Tension is a great killer. One of many, the greatest being temptation. To see a sign saying "Do Not Press" only makes one want to press it all that much more. And imagine, if temptation got the better of them so they press it, it is a mechanism for a neuclear bomb. Not only do they destroy themselves, but all withing range. Of course, you can take this literally or metaphorically, its entirely up to you. But take it literally, and then you don't entirely understand what I'm talking about.

Tension and temptation go hand in hand with one another, temptation is just the more dominant. Speaking in code terms here, sorry for that. Actually, no I'm not. Its not meant for you to be able to understand it.

Should I clarrify, or let you use your brains to decode it? Can your brain handle it? I can think of some, who may understand it. But then I can think of a great many more who would stumble over their own feet many times before understanding anything. For them, maybe I should speak in lamest terms, but then, they should know I hate doing that. And since they believe that I may "dislike" them, I really can't be bothered.

If a person can't understand, I don't hold it against them, but I don't explain it.

"And so I leave you, to find your own feet, to find your own way."