| The Problems of Knowing by Michelle |
| They think I don't know. They think I don't see the looks, the touches, but I do. I'm not blind or ignorant. I see that they're lovers, even if the others don't. I wonder why they hide. Perhaps fear of discovery, but that would be Xander. I doubt Spike cares. I want to tell Xander he can be brave without consequence, but I'm not supposed to know. Until he's ready, I do what I'm trained to do. I watch, and I hope Spike doesn't hurt Xander's delicate heart. And I ignore the hurt of knowing I'm not supposed to know. return to archive |