Continue to Part 12
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When I finally come to with one Hell of a headache, I peer uncertainly at my
surroundings. I remember making it to the lab and seeing the car that I assumed
that Heero had stolen parked outside. My first obstacle was the key code and I
was almost done hacking into the first one when I received a blow to the back of
the head that sent me sprawling. Idiot that I am I hadn�t been paying enough
attention and look where that got me.
A short scuffle outside J�s lab with some guy who seemed Hell bent on beating
the crap out of me and now look where I am. Strapped down to some sort of
hospital table while the goon who brought me here looks on with a smirk. I allow
myself a small smile at the state of his face though. He may have got the better
of me, but I definitely didn�t lie there and play dead.
I remember getting a few good punches in before he slipped the wire round my
neck, almost choking me to death. But no, it looks as though they have other
plans for me. They kept me alive after all. I repress a sigh of frustration as I
glance over at Heero who�s as helpless as I am right now. He�s staring at me
desperately, his expression one of pain as though he�s trying to apologise
without words. It�s okay, Heero, I think. It was me who got us into this
situation and damned if I won�t get us out of it. I try and communicate with my
eyes to him to stay calm and he seems to relax a little.
I�m startled when Doctor J leans over me, blocking my view of Heero and I
manage my usual expressionless mask. �That�s one Hell of a welcome reception you
gave me back there,� I say wryly and he chuckles.
�Our intention was never to make you feel welcome at all, Mr. Barton,� he
tells me, still smiling. �Very soon you�re going to rue the day you were ever
born.�
�Not one to beat about the bush, huh? Straight to the point, I like that,� I
say tonelessly. I�m deliberately antagonising him in the hope that he�ll
concentrate on me and not Heero.
�What a delightfully piquant wit,� the doctor says, rubbing his hands
together. �It�s just a pity that it�ll be put to waste. But, I�m afraid that�s
what happens when you play with property that doesn�t belong to you.�
�Heero�s right here in this room,� I reply, feeling somewhat rankled by the
way this guy talks about him. �He isn�t just a toy you can play with whenever it
suits you, then discard him when you�re done.�
�How incredibly touching,� he replies with a slight smirk. He rests his elbow
on the edge of the table I�m laying on, giving the impression that we�re old
friends having a nice and cosy little chat. I snort inwardly at the thought.
�I�m going to be perfectly frank with you, Mr. Barton. You�ve caused something
of a problem and now it�s up to me to rectify this situation.�
He shifts so that I can see Heero who doesn�t take his eyes off the two of us.
�You see there? Heero Yuy. Not his real name of course, but I suppose you know
that already. As you probably know many things about my boy. Getting to the
point, Heero is a fantastically capable soldier. It took me a long time to train
him to the standard he is now and I don�t appreciate your undoing it all.�
�I know all about your idea of training,� I spit, wanting nothing more than to
punch his wrinkled old face right now.
�Now now, we all have our own ideas of how one is to reach their goals,�
Doctor J continues. �Yours just happens to differ with mine. Try and see it from
my point of view though. I spend years of my life making Heero into the fine
young man he is today and then suddenly, someone appears in his life who makes
him question his upbringing, who teaches him how to feel, how to live...how to
become *human*. As you can imagine, that upset me somewhat. Just try to picture
something you spent your whole life creating only to have someone ruin it and
turn it into a shadow of what it once was.�
�Dammit, stop talking about Heero as if he�s a thing!� I snap, my temper
getting the better of me. �No matter how much you might deny it, he *is* human
and no matter how hard you try, you�ll never be able to completely rid him of
that humanity.�
�Very prettily said,� J tells me. �But if that�s the way you think then you�re
even stupider than I thought.� I keep my gaze focused on the doctor, but I can
see Heero shaking his head at me out of the corner of my eye, trying to get me
to shut up. I won�t though; I refuse to give in to this man. I refuse to let him
destroy Heero.
�I�ve been watching you two,� he says after a while. �I watched your little
courtship from a distance. And even though I see you as my enemy, Mr. Barton, I
have to congratulate you on managing to get Heero to trust you like he does. I
was going to just kill you,� he adds, checking the straps that keep my tied down
while he speaks.
�But I thought about it a little and realised that I could use this
opportunity to my advantage. I�m afraid that my boy will have to be re-trained
so that I can repair the damage that you�ve done. And although I will still end
up killing you, it might just be the very thing that will make Heero wake up and
smell the roses as one would say.�
He leans closer to me again and I fight the urge to turn my face away, instead
watching him carefully to see what he�s going to do. Is he just going to kill me
and be done with it? No, he wants to draw this out as a punishment for both
Heero and myself. I freeze instinctively when his hand moves to my shirt and he
gives a sharp tug, sending the buttons flying and tearing the fabric. Oh God no,
I think as he works the shirt off completely. Anything but this...
�Get your dirty hands off him!� I hear Heero growl and I can see him straining
futilely against his restraints.
�Oh, Heero, my dear boy, I wouldn�t dream of doing that to him,� J laughs.
�That was your business, not mine. My intentions are quite different, I assure
you.�
He walks away and I arch my back, straining against my bonds while my gaze
flits frantically from place to place, seeking any kind of escape. I can�t see
any way out of this and I grunt in exasperation. I can only lie here and wait
for whatever J has planned for me.
He�s quick to come back to my side however and I watch cautiously as he begins
fiddling with the machine by the table. He then attaches something to my chest,
three something�s actually. When I take a closer look, I realise that he�s
sticking electrodes to my chest.
�Great, you�re going to fry me alive,� I remark sarcastically as he secures my
bonds again, then reaches beneath the table for another strap that he pulls over
my waist and cinches tight so that now I can barely move at all.
�Dear God no,� he replies, sounding offended. �I wouldn�t dream of being so
uninventive. But since you�re being so inquisitive, I suppose I may as well let
you in one what I have in store for you.� He points to the machine he�s got me
hooked up to. �I�m just going to give you a few electric shocks is all. I�ll
start off small of course, but we�ll work it up to a higher level as we go
along. And yes, Heero will be watching all the while. I do believe this could be
the one thing that will destroy his humanity completely. Seeing you in such a
state of pain and not being able to do a thing about it will have more of an
effect than any training I could give him.�
�You bastard!� Heero yells, still struggling to get free. �Let Trowa go now,
you don�t want him! Do whatever you want with me, just let him go!�
�I�m afraid it doesn�t work that way, Heero,� Doctor J says sadly, moving away
from where I�m lying, but making sure that Heero can see everything. �Let�s get
this over with, shall we?� He pulls a small remote from the pocket of his lab
coat and I watch as he turns a dial slightly. Immediately I feel something surge
through me, not enough to cause pain, but enough to let me know that he means
business. �Testing, testing, one, two three,� he teases. I don�t even glare back
at this point.
The next time he turns the dial, I grit my teeth and hiss at the pain, my
entire body stiffening for a few seconds until he stops, letting me catch my
breath before he begins again, making the shocks a little stronger every time.
Up until now I�ve managed to keep quiet, trying not to let him see that he�s
hurting me, but my hands are clenched tightly and my brow is damp with sweat,
making my hair stick to my forehead and obscuring my vision.
I can hear Heero yelling out for J to let me go, screaming profanities and
threats, but still the treatment continues. I keep my head turned away from
Heero, not wanting him to see the pain that I�m in, as I know how much this is
tearing him apart. I just wish that J would kill me now so that Heero wouldn�t
have to go through this.
I lose track of time as J toys with me, seeing how much I can take before I
scream. I refuse to let any sound escape from my lips if I can help it though.
This just seems to amuse him however and when he gives me the next shock, it�s
the worst one yet. I can�t help but cry out at how much it hurts and I try to
arch my back in an attempt to relieve the pain, but I�m strapped down so tightly
that I can�t move.
�Oh, I finally managed to get some noise out of you then?� J laughs softly and
thankfully turns the remote off and puts it back in his pocket. �I think that�s
enough for now. Think of that as a taster for tomorrow.� Bastard, I think
viciously. He�s going to give me some recovery time before he begins again. He
can�t just go ahead and let me die; he has to draw it out. *Bastard*! I�m glad
I�m still facing away from Heero when I feel a tear run down my cheek. I�m so
sorry, Heero. I�m sorry that you have to be a part of this.
�I�d say we�re making definite progress,� J announces cheerfully, but I�m not
really listening to him anymore. I try to focus on Heero�s voice and I frown
when I hear how raspy it sounds. He must have been shouting himself hoarse
during my little shock therapy, but I don�t remember hearing much of it. I�m
concerned with how much my sense seem dulled by the pain and I�m surprised when
I feel something heavy coming to rest on top of me. I open my eyes to see that
Doctor J has freed Heero from the bed, but he�s kept him tied up. I�m curious as
to why J has brought him over to me and as if reading my mind, he says to me, �I
thought you might like to spend a little time with Heero before I finally kill
you.�
�Such...a kind...soul,� I manage to get out, the sarcasm not as effective as
it might have been if I weren�t panting for breath, my body still sweating and
wracked with shudders. Doctor J only shakes his head in amusement and it pisses
me off that everything I say only seems to make him laugh.
�I�ll be back to check on you in half an hour,� he tells us, rearranging Heero
so that his wrists are tied down to the bed. �So don�t try anything cute.� Heero
snarls for me since I�m so tired and I just close my eyes in exhaustion. I hear
vague muttering and the sound of the door closing, but I keep my eyes shut. �Are
they gone?� I murmur wearily.
�Yeah, they�re gone,� he whispers. �God, Trowa, are you okay? I can�t believe
what he did to you.�
�It�s okay,� I say softly, still trying to get my breathing under control.
�I�m sorry, Heero.�
�Trowa, you have nothing to be sorry about,� he tells me firmly, but I shake
my head.
�I got us into this mess in the first place. It�s all my fault.�
�Don�t say that!� he says, his voice urgent enough to make me open my eyes and
look at him. His face is only inches from mine and he lowers his head to nuzzle
his cheek against mine. His breath catches when he feels the wetness on my cheek
and he pulls back slightly to see my eyes. �You...you were crying,� he whispers.
I nod, feeling ashamed. He must think me weak. I sigh and shut my eyes again
so that I don�t have to see his expression.
�He made you cry.� I bite my lip at the tone of his voice; it�s dark and
angry. �That bastard made you cry. He�ll pay.�
�Heero?� My voice wavers and I�m unsure of his intentions.
�I�ll kill him, Trowa,� he informs me almost casually.
�No, Heero,� I manage. I don�t want him doing something stupid that could get
him hurt.
�I will kill him,� he repeats firmly. �For you. For me. For us.�
�No,� I whisper weakly, hating the sound of my own voice. �Please, don�t. All
I want is for you to be safe.�
�Like I don�t want that for you?� he says and I sigh.
�Heero, it doesn�t matter about me,� I tell him.
�Don�t talk like that!� he snaps. �I�m sick of this Trowa! I�m sick of you
putting everyone else before yourself. You always jump in the way of danger for
me, but dammit, it�s my turn to protect you! Remember what you said to me? You
belong to me just like I belong to you. I�m not going anywhere without you.�
�I thought you hated me,� I murmur, my voice wavering slightly.
�Whatever gave you that idea?� he asks, genuinely confused.
�Earlier today when you saw Quatre and I kissing,� I tell him miserably. �You
ran off and I assumed that you hated my guts and that you never wanted to speak
to me again.�
�Trowa,� he says firmly. �Trowa, look at me.� I do so reluctantly. �I don�t
care that I saw you and Quatre kissing. Yeah, I was angry and upset as Hell, but
I love you too much to let you go.� He bites his lip for a moment and when he
continues, his voice is shaky. �But if you decide that you love him more than
you love me...well, I won�t get in your way.�
�Heero,� I whisper, nuzzling his nose with mine. �I do love Quatre, but only
as a friend. He doesn�t see it that way though, he told me that he was in love
with me and then he tried to kiss me. Heero, he�s so jealous, but I don�t want
him to stop being my friend. I love you so much and I don�t want to lose you,
but I�m afraid I�ll lose both of you if we can�t work through this and-�
He silences my ramblings with a kiss and I moan in relief. He doesn�t hate me;
he doesn�t want to leave me. He pulls away to rest his forehead against mine as
he speaks again. �Listen to me, Trowa,� he says. �I love you. Don�t ever doubt
that, ever. I�ve never promised anything in my life before, but right now I
promise that I�ll protect you with everything I have. They�ll have to kill me
before they get to you.�
�Heero-� I say, but he cuts me off with another kiss.
�Ssh, don�t talk,� he tells me, nestling his head in the crook of my neck.
�You need to recover your strength and I need to think of a way out of this.�
I sigh and bury my face in his hair, inhaling his scent and drawing strength
from him. I don�t see how we�re going to get out of here. Yeah, I work in the
circus, but my area of expertise is acrobatics, not escapism. The soft sound of
Heero�s voice whispering to me, his lips pressing gentle kisses to my neck lulls
me into a state where I�m almost asleep and I nearly jump out of my skin when
the door flies open. I tense, expecting it to be Doctor J back for more torture,
but I gasp in surprise when I see who the intruder is.
�Quatre!�