Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt to
But what else can we do
I want you to know
I carry your smile in my heart
When those times in my life seem so low
Cause it makes me believe in what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't give at all
But now that you're gone
It seems i can't cry hard enough
For you to hear me now
I just lay here tormented and torn apart
I just wish you could come back and free me from these long lonely nights
I've cried and I've cried
There were nights that I'd died for you Gwendolyn
I tried and I tried to deny it
But your love drives me crazy
I guess I have to try and let go of you a little
Like a child letting go of his kite
Cause I'm going to keep looking back in vain
And keep seeing you standing there
But in reality all that remains is just an empty chair
Now that you've gone to heaven
I'll take every star into account and remember
That none of them could ever shine as bright as you ever will
It all feels like I'm living a shattered dream
You out of everone else loved me
Even though you were miles away
You were still closer than anyone
No matter how cold it grew
I always felt your warmth
No matter how bad things got in our lives
We always felt good together
We loved blindly
Yet saw the greatest love
So many legendary things we shared
Yet in reality
Love denied to manifest itself to bring us face to face in reality
Not to make love under the moon
Or dance the night away
But to simply hold you in my arms
And feel your heart beat next to mines
I just wanted to hold you close under the rain
I wanted to kiss your smile
And feel your pain
For everything is so beautiful when I'm looking at you
Here in my world of lies
You are the truth
I am glad heaven has a hold on you
For i know you'll be happy
And not sad and blue
You'll now be able to spend time with your little one
Kyle, your beloved son
I must admit this
You've set me adrift along a memory bliss
Atleast I knew what it was to love somebody naturally
To love somebody faithfully
To love somebody equally
To love somebody honestly , you can always trust
To love somebody secretly, and never touch
To love somebody tenderly, but even then the tender touch would still be not enough
I�ve always wanted you to know
If ever it doesn�t come easily
One thing you have to believe
Is that you can always have trust in me
Cause my heart will be yours honestly
We loved blindly
And blind love is true
But they say true love is suicide
And I know love hurts sometimes
To bad it had to be when you died
Because this kind of love is not so easy to find
Then again sometimes you�re searching everywhere
Then you turn and swear it�s always been there
And sometimes it feels like it�s everywhere
Standing there , cause it�s always been there
I hope we meet in heaven sometime
I know then I will be happy
Because my life�s a treasure
Full of sunny weather
But lately it�s left me feeling cold
It seems like they all want me to be Jesus
And want me to go down on one knee
All they want me to do is to work up some tricks
With my crucifix
Gwendolyn I feel like I could steal the sun out of the sky
Just to have you here with me
But I guess there are some things in life that couldn�t be
Because right now within my needs I�m lying alone
In this empty space I call my home
If we only had a chance to be
I wouldn�t be breaking down right now
Because right now it feels like the rain can�t wash away the day and heal me
Right now I�m walking around
Just a face in the crowd
Trying to keep myself out the rain
I keep looking for some shelter
With my suitcase full of dreams
I know these days the stars isn�t out of reach
But somehow there isn�t a lot of them on the streets
Everything seems to go so fast
And nothing , not even love seems to last
It�s such a graceless age
Even innocence has seemed to have caught the midnight train
Now as the lights turn out on both of us
I still hold your eternal flame in my heart
Each night ,since you�ve passed away , has felt like 24 hours of midnight
I just wish it was all a dream and someone would take me out of this twilight zone
But one fact would still remain
You left my heart in vertigo
I just wish that you were here to take a look at me now
Cause I feel like an empty space
And I�ll never forget the 2 things you left me
A legacy of love
Filled with a myriad feelings of greatness
You also left me on the boundaries of pain
Where time seemed to have stood still for a moment
Is now an eternity in my heart
Now I leave you these words
Filled with infinite meaning
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn�t see
And no matter how much I�m struggling
Just know that I Love You Gwendolyn
by Emile Joseph
