| You and I Know We By:Melissa Sims You send me out to deal with this world While you stay safe inside the warmth of your own hands You hold in everything you care about Not caring enough to send me out with any real plans So I made myself what I saw fit And you took no credit for what had become Everything that I became was molded from your skin And everything we gained you know I won But you were unconvinced to join me So you kept hiding still in secret From the truth that I was sent to find for you And even after I discovered that you were welcome You still left the world up to me to get through When we both know that you were more equipped And I was never meant to stand alone But you refused to see that you weren�t so different If you would just show up you wouldn�t be on your own So there�s still you and I under one name and in one body Hiding from and facing up to time Thinking hard and speaking out to people Writing for and running from this rhyme. |
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| Little Things By: Melissa Sims Those little things you say that make me want you Those little things you say that keep me here Those little things you say that keep me dangling Those little things you say have disappeared You've led me to this point with all your beauty I've fallen for your words without a thought The simple truth you never meant to lead me And now the truth is quickly pouring out You've killed my expectations and my dreaming All broken naked lying at your door Waiting for the little things to fix them There's no use hanging on them anymore |
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| Vision in the Mist By: Melissa Sims My love hath disappeared into the mist of the sea The cold air and the sand, and a blue moon shines down on his face Pools of emotion fill my eyes blurred, and breathless are my lungs Sharp dagger through my throat drawing your soul out from my heart Come back oh sacred one of the sea Stop the pain and choking you cause Give me back your soul and let it tend to my wounds Fill the hole you have left Bring to me your blessed vows of life and eternity Shine back like the holy being that you are And let me bathe in the splender of your light Basking, relaxing, and refilling the joy that you hath taken with you Bring my beloved vision of the mist And take him back no more. |
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| Love So Secret By:Melissa Sims Love so secret And cool under pressure Not even your friends know You giggle. I'll fool them all, Pause, Including myself. |
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| What You Do By:Melissa Sims So, I'm odd and I apologize And I say funny things But it's hard for me not to act this way. 'Cause I give it all I can And I get so much back from you But there's so little I believe in what you do I'm not used to this attention I'm not used to loving you and I'm not used to someone saying "I love you too" And even worse you say it first Then there is nothing I can say 'Cause I'm not used to having things happen this way You say" I want you to be happy 'Cause when you are then I am too" And you don't know how much I want to believe you. But there is something right inside of me Sayin' "girl this can't be true You better let him go before he can hurt you" I just can't lie to myself And I'm not lying to you I know I mean it And I think that you do too. If you didn't you would tell me You wouldn't kiss me so slow And if you faked what's in your eyes wouldn't I know. So I'm odd And I apologize And I say funny things But it's hard for me not to feel this way 'Cause I give it all I can And I get so much back from you And I am trying to believe in what you do In what you do....In what you do...In what you do... I believe...in what you do. |
| Wooing, After Vile By: Melissa Sims Seek perchance some light from me, you were always idle. Know I give myself to thee, wooing, after vile. We could warrant much with grace, quench my curse'd woe. Would our manner thus make haste, tempting ne'er but so. |
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| You Let Me Go On By: Melissa Sims You let me go on, playing the part of the fool. How well I play your tool. Not so much you led me on as I've led myself here, you let me go on, like there's a reason to go on. So many sweet words I speak to you and all I ever hear is thank you, that's true. I know you don't mean it like, "I know I am," but it only makes you sound so insincere. And all this time I've been checking my back, while I check your pulse. but not so much you led me on, as I've led myself here, but you let me go on, like there's a reason to go on. So I set out to ask you if you've heard a single word. Here's my interest, now where is my return? You say "don't stop, I'm flattered, and I like you" why don't you follow me? Not so much you led me on as I've led myself here, but you let me go on, like there's a reason to go on. Don't get me wrong, I'm not unhappy being here, and even at the risk of never hearing you too, I'm not leaving, I just don't understand. And not so much you led me on, as I've led myself here, but you let me go on, like there's a reason to go on...just give me something to go on, and believe me... I will go on. |
| Melissa's Poetry and Songs |
| By: Melissa Sims I haven't had anything to say to you since you told me what I needed to hear as I plugged my ears. Quietly I hummed this song to make them disappear. But I can read them this time and I could never close my eyes too much of you to see in such a short time. And I knew that time was getting shorter and soon my eyes would be too blurred out with tears to take you in, And when it all came out, my heart drained of its every beat; my ears still humming to drown you out. Could I risk to open my eyes knowing they'd never wanna close. Or maybe they'd see you too far away to read and close with nothing left to look at and never wanna open. But I know you're still there. I may have tuned you out and blinded myself with tears but I can feel you all the while. Feel you like you never left my side. But I can't help but wonder why you didn't just run away and all I come up with is you didn't see the need to. You never really knew why I was there in the first place. You knew I cried out to you but you never knew inside I cried for you... I sold my pride for you and though I've settled the idea in my stomach. You leave me so confused at the sight of your voice and the touch of your sight and the sound of your indifference when I stare at you on both knees Not knowing if I want you to come closer or to leave but begging you don't stand so I can see and just out of my reach. Just far enough to look at me like you don't know who I am. But above all don't smile down on me anymore. You're smile meant too much when you had yourself convinced maybe you could care. You'd invited me in with the same smile you use to call me silly and wash away every part of what I'd tried. You pretend like everything I felt just died and was pushed away and you never said anything outside the realm of hello to the mere acquaintance that is me. And it is just that, that makes me not want to have wanted you in the first place... and maybe I didn't or is that just your version of the story. |
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| Only By: Melissa Sims I only want you when I'm with you I only miss you when you are near I only love you because I have you And when I leave you disappear You're only on my mind when I can see you I only dream your kisses when they're there I only crave to touch you when I can But I can leave you without a care You only love me when you love me You only want me all the time You're only thinking that you've got me The only fault that's here is mine Only soon I will be leaving Only soon I won't come back Only soon I'll lose the feeling The love you thought you had you'll lack |
| Broken By:Melissa Sims I am living a movie where you've been cut and pasted from my life into another. No longer there for me when I need you. No longer at the tip of my tongue to finish my thoughts. I can't say anything without you anymore. You only made me inspired, you only made it worthwhile. You only left. You only make it futile. Only vile things traipse across the memories that left indents in my arms from holding them so tight. I never wanted to let go. But you bruised me just to get away. So now I'm broken and of no use to anyone. No one wants me and if they do I can't let myself have them. 'Cause I'm dirty, and shamed, and cruel... and without you I might never get better. |
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| That Would Be Something By:Melissa Sims I've got nothing to write about but things that used to be... No love life, no life at all. I wish for movie like circumstances to spark something. Something new. I've got nothing to go on when life doesn't even give lemons anymore. I've got water at best and worst. No highs and no lows. I'd take either. Fuck this lack of inspiration. Drowning me in my glass. I wish I were drowning. That would be something. Something new. I never prayed for a normal life...and meant it. Normalcy is more than this mind can take. I'd break if I couldn't think too much and care too much and know heartache too much... but even the break would be something. Something new. So this is worse than having it taken away. This is having it sit on a bench. Neutral like the Swiss. No cares. No joys. No sorrow to occupy my time. I've gone blind and numb... but blind and numb would be something. Something new. And I've got nothing. |
| By: Melissa Sims You're the biggest lie I've ever sold myself...The secret I didn't know 'til now...and somehow I found it out and I can't help but feeling down. This is the worst news you've ever given me..and you never spoke a word but now...somehow I found it out and I can't help but wear this frown. A badge of honor and a battle wound...like I have never known. And I can't come to you for sympathy...'cause I know it can't be shown...to you or any other who might utter it's details... there's too much at stake and too many choices lead to fail...ure...you're so undefined and yet you fit my skin...like I could keep my secrets in your soul and you would never blow my cover...but you'll discover and that is all that is my final woe. |
| By:Melissa Sims Hey, you say you like the way I play with your mind and you never seem to mind that I feast on what I find...Perhaps you're blind to my hunger for the things that you hold, my blood runs cold to think that I may never drink from the cup filled up with your love...it's brimming and in my dreams I'm swimming in you, in over my head, so much that I dread to wake up....but now im up and fed and feeding on your lies, it's no surprise when I rise for the day I may only crave you...but in the happy time of night I may engrave your name into my soul and wholly fill my self up with that which makes me whole. |
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| I�m Not Sad By:Melissa Sims You tell me not to write about Misery But what�s left for me I�m not miserable, you just think I am Anyway, what good is sounding happy Never got me anything. I can�t help the way I think I only write down what�s on my mind Maybe you don�t understand Like everyone else you think I�m sad When I�m just numb this time So I like to feel things Anything, even bad things feel good They keep me alive, or at least remind me I�m living�for real. Not making things up to fit in. Don�t get me wrong at all I like to be happy when it�s true But if it means having nothing As opposed to having misery I�d just assume be sad, if that�s okay with you. |
| Perfect By: Melissa Sims There�s nothing but words falling from my mouth When I see music flowing from your lips The beauty you hold within makes me want to Rip it from your flesh, just so I might steal a bit. How well you wear your head upon your shoulders I don�t wear my scarf nearly as well With you being everything including just slight of perfect How could you expect me not to stare. I want to bottle you to light up my room, like you do For so many others much more deserving of your time They don�t see you for all your while Would never cage your beauty like I plan to do. You see I can, because I�d never want you to keep it I�ve been planning to take it from you all along Cut it from you �cause you�re undeserving Keeping something never earned is wrong. You�d better pack it up to make the change feel easy �Cause I�m coming just the same to repossess I only wish when it�s all done that I could keep it But I know, like you, I�d have to give it up. |
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| Qwerty By:Melissa Sims Fast I�m falling through the blue that clouds my mind cause you have left and now im nothing more than what I see I can no longer compose thoughts and feelings I only believe what is real whatever that is. You know I had it all when I had you an asshole and a love. And you took the love, but I got the rest as a parting gift I guess. How kind of you to think of me in your time of sorrow. Mind if I borrow some of that brand of misery �cause it seems to me to be watered down from all I can tell. But you never gave it free�somehow I buy what you sell�.and I fell for it time after time. No more. I have out lived your long lasting presence. I�ll admit I miss the love and even sometimes you, (pause) I�d never take it back. But now there�s a new color on my mind�and I can do more than just see�I taste and smell and hear and I don�t need anything but faith to believe. |
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| Reversal By: Melissa Sims Fuck you for not loving me like I deserve to be freely without a cost to me, you never understood that you were the one who was lucky �but leave me be cause I want no more of your lies, just get started on your good-byes, never mind forget them I haven�t the time to deal with you anymore and your kind, just sign off and out of anything we share� and I will go bare through the streets if that is what I must do to be free of you. I deserve more than you it just took me some time to see And everything you preached was true You just gave your part to me Remember I left you, or better yet I made you leave cause your services were no longer of any use to me I still cant believe I let myself be lied to as much as I do but no more tears cried for little boys dressed like big men from now on they cry for me and I begin to sit in the thrown and wear the pants and when I shoot my gun its time for you to dance �so boom, you�d better move. And I deserve more than you it just took me some time to see And everything you preached was true You just gave your part to me. |
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| By:Melissa Sims I dont want to die but I dont want to be here. And I dont want to cry but Ive got nothing else to feel here. And I dont want to be alone but theres no one I can call. And I dont want to lose all hope but Ive already lost it all. I dont want to give up trying but theres nothing I can try for. So give me somewhere I can go. And give me something else to feel. And give me someone I can love. And give me someone to love me. I just want something I can strive for. Just want a reason left to care. Just give me something, someone, somewhere. Give me something I can bear. |
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| A Pessimist's Love Song By: Melissa Sims Everything I write about you seems so strained Like I only recognize the harm that you do But you know that I wouldn't still be here loving you day by day If I didn't see more than the shit I'm put through And I write down the pain 'cause it's more real and it's mine And the love's just half shared and much harder to find But it's also much simpler with no need to write it out I've been shouting from the beginning what you mean to me It's the rest of the shit that I'd prefer to whisper It's the rest of the shit that you really don't see So I can tell the harsh truth and make it worse just for spite I'm not used to love poems much too used to the fight So you'll have to except what I do and what I say As a stronger standing testament to what I put on the page When I look in your eyes I'm really saying I love you And when I'm kissing you that love song is really my truth |
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| By: Melissa Sims I loved you more than this heart knew possible but you left me with nothing to feed on. It has no where to grow in the stale-mate you provided. How am I supposed to be in love forever when you don't even, won't even give me the benefit of the doubt? I said I'd go on forever loving you and I will but I can't give it to you anymore. All the love I feel for you I'll keep and I'll store it away and when you realize that you want to play a new game, I'll bring it all pretty and packaged down to the party. We'll play hide and go seek now where I'll hide it and you can look all you want to find it when it hits you that you miss it and maybe then you'll acknowledge that it means something. In this game there is no safety. I think maybe that was the problem with it all. I made it much too comfortable for you. You had no reason to want more from me, I gave it all and you just had to take it. But over time I've grown just a little bit bitter and now I want you begging at my door. And I kind of think I could get you there but if not I guess my frustrations will take care if the disappointment. Maybe then we could call it even. Though it really means you've always been the winner. |
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| By: Melissa Sims So the sun rose and set and over time the �fragile� sticker she wore resembled a half eaten snickers. She awaited final consumption. Inevitable as it were. This only true by her choosing. He placed his jaw about her chocolate only long enough to see what he had done. Asked permission and continued to fondle the wrapper. His soiled self required rain for cleansing. And with the rain came the hollowed sensation of one name replacing another inconspicuously. She let it happen. Nothing could stop her. She had made up her heart. Repositioned now she follied with the blunder she maintained to be her passion. Carried on as if nothing had happened and fell to the floor much too far from the sanctity of hands. They spoke of newfound joys too sweet to make the journey. Though they�d never tried. It was too precious they feared to take the risk. And the messied jaw hobbled after for its just dessert. But the �fragile� sticker now read �right side up.� He remembered her just the same, but the new name, with tasty fruit free for her consumption, called. Though she could not find it, still lost in rain, the stalking mandible seemed merely hungry, ravenous, mean�its cold perplexity and slopping tongue scared her. She wondered if the rain would clear leaving the tree bearing fruit for her taking. And if it did would this tree let her climb it. Its branches calling, she dreamed, faintly hearing it now. |
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| First Kiss By: Melissa Sims I remember my first kiss, burning lips, warm glow...The world all stopped, and the noise all dimmed...Now I'm laying here with you and feeling that first kiss all over again...That buzz that makes you touch your lips to know that it's real...That hush that blocks out all the other things you could feel...And you are left with nothing else but an...Ahh...A moment of reflection...And every moment leading up to this seemed to point in your direction...We all move so fast paced and embrace so little of what we see...That sometimes life just has to slow the whole thing down...And I had gotten to the point where your kisses went unfelt...And I'd forgotten why I cared enough to be where I seem to be...Then I felt one more first kiss...And when it all stopped there was just you and me. |
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| By: Melissa Sims The songs in my life are constantly changing. Rearranging everything in sight. Whiting out the tears that came before hand. Demanding that I put up a stronger fight. Lighting my way through the blackness. Lacking a real since of truth. Soothing my worries with smiles. While I'm grasping to the weeded out roots. Seeker of the ugly left in beauty. Hungry for the chance to proove you wrong. Searching with a pessimistic longing, to find belonging, to the darkness, in your song. Finally running out of things to woe for. Knowing that this time there's only light. Burning at the flesh that keeps me hardened. Leaving me to love you more than I knew. Stripped down, til there's nothing left but me. |