| This page will house thoughts of a poetic nature. Mine own are in color, others works are in black. |
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| Change I am lost in the see-thru I think you lost yourself too Throughout all of this confusion I hope I somehow get to you I practiced all the things I'd say To tell you how I feel And when I finally get my chance It all seems so surreal 'Cause from the first time I saw you I only thought about you I didn't know you I wanted to hold onto The things you'd never say to me 'Cause you said You can't change the way you feel I could never do that, I could never do that But you can't tell me this ain't real 'Cause this is real And you would see right through that In the end it's all I've got So I'm gonna hold onto that Now you've got me watching your eyes Got me waiting just to see If it goes the way it never will Your eyes are watching me And now you've got me thinking 'bout The first time that I met you Standing in a crowded room But I could only see you And I hope my words will get through 'Cause now I can't forget you I want to tell you If I could only reach you And make you feel this way But you said You can't change the way you feel I could never do that, I could never do that But you can't tell me this ain't real 'Cause this is real And you would see right through that In the end it's all I've got So I'm gonna hold onto that Good Charlotte |
| Going Down in Flames Don't tell me what to think 'Cause I don't care this time Don't tell me what you believe 'Cause you won't be there To catch me when I fall But you'll need me when I'm not here at all Miss me when I'm gone again I'm going down in flames I'm falling into this again Don't tell me how life is 'Cause I don't really even want to know Don't tell me how this game ends 'Cause we'll just see how it goes Catch me when I fall Or you'll need me when I'm not here at all Miss me when I'm gone again I'm going down in flames I'm falling into this again Three Doors Down |
| Sweet Misery Dear sweet misery It turns my life to insanity I lost my mind just the other day I'm waiting 'round to find my way Oh sweet misery Can't you see the way you're treating me It doesn't matter what I pray 'Cause your pain is here to stay My sweet misery Why must you do this to me The price I can't afford to pay What is left for me to say 02-03-04 Desolation Complex So much pain, so much despair Who would have thought one body could Be put through so much And still continue to live on Everyday is a journey Into the desolate depths of Hades Bringing with it more affliction and thoughts Of ending it all and starting anew If a heart knows one way and a brain another Why is there such a lapse in relay Causeing torment, misery, anguish, torture Lasting though the day and into the night 01-27-04 Food! Food is nice Especially with spice Apples, bananas, chocolate and more Food can never be a snore I eat food everyday I eat food in every way Tacos, sausage, bread and cheese Can I have some more food please? How I Feel Inside I will always love you Even though you've changed your mind I wish I could have done better But I guess I was blind I knew exactly how I felt I wish I could have shown you But something kept me from it Of what, I don't have a clue I guess that's why you're tired I guess I have to understand But believe me I don't want to Now I know heartbreak firsthand Why couldn't I have just done more Given you a compliment or played with your hair I've made the biggest mistake of my life By not showing how much I care How I Feel Inside (Part II) I should have said I love you Ten thousand time each day I should have done better To make you want to stay I should have written you poems Explaining how I feel I should have made it my goal To prove my love was real If I could do it all over I'd be your perfect mate I love you more than anything But right now it's me I hate Departure sinking falling emotionless crawling despair longing happiness stalling these are the thoughts which fill my head when will they cease perhaps when im dead Freedom The winds have changed direction I shall change with them It's high time I listen To the little voices inside Attempting to set me free Worries obscure my ever-changing mind As to if I'm making a correct decision But this life is not working And amendments must be made And modifications we shall see |
| Walk Away What do you do when you know something's bad for you and you still can't let go I was naive, your love was like candy Artifically sweet, I was deceived by the wrapping Got caught in your web and I learned how to bleed I was prey in your bed and devoured completely And it hurts my soul cause I can't let go All these walls are cavin' in I can't stop my sufferin' I hate to show I've lost control Cause I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need To walk away from I should have known that I was used for amusement Couldn't see through the smoke, it was all an illusion Now I've been lickin' my wounds but the venom seeps deeper We both can seduce, but darlin' you hold me prisoner Oh I'm about to break I can't stop this ache I'm addicted to your allure and I'm fiendin' for a cure Every step I take leads to one mistake I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need To walk away from I'm about to break and can't stop this ache Getting nothing in return what did I do to deserve The pain of this slow burn and everywhere I turn I keep goin' right back to the one thing that I need To walk away from Every time I try to grasp for air I am smothered in despair It's never over, over Seems I'll never wake from this nighmare I let out a silent prayer let it be over, over Inside I'm screaming, begging, pleading Now what to do my heart has been bruised So sad but it's true each beat reminds me of you It hurts my sould cause I can't let go All these wall are cavin' in I can't stop my sufferin I hate to show that I lost control Cause I keep goin' right back to the one think that I need Oh, I'm about to break and I can't stop this ache I'm addicted to your allure and I'm fiendin' for a cure Every step I take leads to one mistake I keep going right back to the one thing that I need I can't mend this torn state I'm in Getting nothing in return what did I do to deserve The pain of this slow burn and everywhere I turn I keep going back to the one thing that I need To walk away from Christina Aguilera |
| The Dance strong arms enfold scent of musk touch of silk cheek to cheek time stops only two left bodies become one only sweet music emotion in motion colors swirl consumed by desire wanting so much more truth be told all is seen everything is right 03-28-04 Memories spurred by a scent a look, a color feeling a touch reliving a day two, three relishing moments spun to ecstast brings in pain driven to want past days dream nonetheless enchanted 03-28-04 Alone When I want to cry, but can't When I need a hug, but it just doesn't happen When I need to ven, but no one is there When I need to talk, but there's no one to listen When I'm at my end., but no one cares The world sucks, but if it diddn't, we'd all fall off 10 Things I Hate About You I hate you more than anything And how this feels like spite I hate the way you make me cry And weep all though the night I hate the way I scream and yell And want to rip you apart I hate the way you make me feel And the way you broke my heart I hate that you wouldn't retry And now you have withdrawn I ahte that you don't want me now But instead want me gone I hate the way I feel right now And how I want to die I hate the way you left me And didn't say goodbye I hate the way you look at me And the pity in your eyes I hate the way I hate you When the hate is just a disguise How How can I find the words to say when you're always on my mind How can I say how I truly feel when my love makes me blind How can I find the strength to get me through the day How can I find the path that will light my way How can the world go round if we are still apart How can I live this life if I don't have your heart How can I win your heart if I don't have the guts How can I live my life without you and not go completely nuts How can I live my life when you're not by my side How can I go on living knowing I never tried How can I find the words to say when you're always on my mind How can I say how I really feel when my love makes me blind Amanda Thunderstorms never cloud her mind Blue skies are always around Rivers don't flow from her eyes She's like a flower from the ground She loves Christmas And Easter too She loves all of her family For them there's nothing she won't do She loves animals Every different type Cars and houses don't mean much Amanda is never one to gripe |
| I Am Nothing I am nothing Nothing to nobody Nobody's savior Saving not even myself I am nothing Nothing to live for Forgotten by most Mostly alone ???I am nothing Nothing of worth Worthless and forgotten Getting nowhere in life I am nothing Nothing at all Almost gone Going nowhere Falling they start to fall endless streams of them soaking me through its good for you release the pain harboring emotions wont help dont show pain bottle it up dont be so weak i believe no one but yet, they fall in endless streams Decisions destructive denial emotions uncontrolled abundant tears thoughts overwhelming healing inconceivable cancerous nerves open veins memories deceive energy fades quitely lingering untamed anger incessant fears calloused heart knowing pain Untitled VI Feeling so lost Seeming so alone In a big world Full of craziness and insanity To make a decision Or to not do so Why should it be so hard Answers should be easy to find To look above And gain that freedom Eternal sunshine and bliss And maybe a spotless mind Too much to ask, you say Who decides too much What about too little Why not just enough When will it be my turn Where is my parade Forever freedom When will it be Emotions the color of the walls makes me sad the lies in your heart make me mad all of your lies breed deceit and one day someone will conquer and defeat all of the hate in your mind and all the anger she can find i stare emotionlessly out the window open because of the promises made you have broken Life Days and lights and fun Come and go and are Nights and stars and romance Here and close and far Perfection Everyone wants to reach it But no one truly can Lots of people strive for it And it's expected of me I just want you all to know That it's not going to happen You'll just have to get used To the way I really am |