this cold life
is all i have known
no love
no friends
no fun
only this cold life
my family
has become
no more than
a faded stain
in my mind
now it seems
i need pain to survive
this cold life
brought me forth
and shall bring me down
so far down
into a pit of hell
yet i cannot fight
for freedom
from this cold life
it's always been
this way
so it shall stay
and i shall suffer
by myself
in this cold life
~erika boal