apparently i still care
that's why i'm still breathing
though why anyone
in their right mind
would subject themselves
to this abuse
is beyond me
i'm beyond feeling
but apparently
i still care
i've forgotten my past
left behind those
feelings
that must be why i'm still
grieving
apparently i'm still
getting something
from this life
well that's true, i am
the gift of pain
so graciously give by life
in return i give tears
tears of blood that spill
from my wrist
but apparently
i still care
because i can still
lie to myself
~erika boal