Passionate Souls - Confessions to the Father

Confessions to the Father

"father it has been 18 years
      since my last confession"

                          "why so long my child?"
"I hadn't the need"

                            "but surely you have sinned in that time?"

"Yes father of course I have,
     but unless you wanted
to book an entire Sunday
      every Sunday
for the rest of your life
     to hear of
my minor discrepancies
     it would be quite pointless"

                            "and what are those?"

"not the reasons I've come today"

                          "then what is the reason you've come today?"

"I have sinned and I want to confess
       -will you hear my confession Father?"

                           "Yes child I will hear your confession"-
forgive me father
       for I have sinned-

forgive me
    for not binding
        what has grown
in my breast
forgive me
    for the hours
spent
      in longing
    just to lay by his side
where I could
    linger
in the soothing tone
of his
      drumming heart,
breathing in
   his manly
     scent
          so deep,

   to where even God himself
     couldn't wash it from me-

forgive me
    for the moments
stolen
     in quiet
         fantasy
            and loud
       lament,

using the lord's name
in lust-filled vain

          wanting only
   for his hand's
          gentle touch
      and his watery soul
         to wash
              through me
     and bring an end
        to the burning
           hell flames
       dwelling
within-
forgive me
      for loving
         the soul
    of a married man-

forgive me father
for I have confessed
now if only he
         could forgive me.