Insecurity
Whats this endlessness that I feel
I'm spending all my time waiting
And still never feeling good enough
I got a boy by my side
But insecurity still seeps through my veins
I could say that I love you 1000 times
But would that change the way I am feeling now?
These storms inside of me keep on breeding
The lifelessness of what I feel on lies are feeding
And I try and make up for all that I lack
My glorious sadness
That shelters the bain of my existance
Is the drink on which I live
Never have I said before to be a junkie
And to hold the knife so close to my throat
I wonder if he'll remember me?
When he's so far away, home free
I'll let my life pass me by
And I'll never begin to remember or begin to cry
Because I feel so insecure, will this feeling ever end?
Bec Spence, 2000
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