Email Reading for Angela
From Lupercus

Greetings Angela,
I'm honoured to do this reading for you, and I can under stand how you are feeling. 

For there was a time that I was not with my soul mate (Epona), and was wasting my life away with a woman that did not under stand me, and Epona was with another man. We knew that we had a connection to one another, but at the time could do nothing about it. But now we have each other and are very happy. But Hon we had to go through a lot to get to where we are today. We had a lot of life lessons to learn before we could be together.

And Hon you're time will come to you, too.

Some times Hon soul mates are not meant to meet in a lifetime or if they have met, and do not know or realize that they are soul mates. They spend their lifetime going through bad relationships and heartaches. But these are life lessons, and everybody has to go through them - and we carry these learned lesson onto our next life. 

But this is not the case for you Hon. I feel that there are a lot of things to be learned here, and when these lessons are learned that that is when you will see things coming you're way, in the way that you want them, and in the way that you deserve, and this is the case for Thomas too.

Thomas feels the same way you do Hon. He is in turmoil as much as you, and his heart aches as much as yours does. And he too is trying to under stand why he is feeling this way.

When you two met, I feel that you both felt a connection to one another right away, that there was a familiarity between you both. Hon this is the connection that soul mates have. You are definitely soul mates. That is why you both are feeling the way you do, and believe me Hon he is feeling this too - just as strongly. 

I feel that he is a man that does not always show his true feelings, he tries to hide them. (For I do this too) I think that all men do in some way or another. I feel that is where this other woman comes in. He is trying to cover his feelings with her presence. He is trying to conceal them, and he will soon learn that this won't work. The connection that you both have is too strong, and he will realize this in a short time. I'm getting the number one here, so I see one month that this will come to him. I do feel a strong friendship here though, and she will help him in some of his life lessons that he has to learn.

Hon this is where you have to be strong. I see that this will be one of your life lessons. You have to be strong for your self to get you through this, to get you through these hard times that you are experiencing. Hon I know that it can be over whelming at times, and that strength is hard to find some times. But you have to find it within your self - it is essential if you are to ever get through this all in one emotional piece.

But there is also an indication here that much patience is needed … within BOTH of you. I feel that perhaps many things - not just your relationship - have been "forced" - where someone or both of you were trying to "force things to happen." This cannot be hon. You should always try to let things happen as they should … and when they should. If not, that is when things tend to get all fumbled up - and you will get the feeling that you are going nowhere and nowhere fast … or even feel like you are moving backwards. These feelings are a great indication to a person that it is time for them to "let go" of it all … and try to put their faith in God and the Universe … and know that it will indeed happen when it is meant for it to happen.

You mentioned that you received other readings from other psychics - well hon I must be honest and tell you that I don't blame you at all for becoming even more confused by their readings. They left a lot of what I just told you OUT of their own readings. Why … I am not sure. I feel that it is very important for you to know - you I am sure would certainly have understood things much better and a lot sooner if they did talk with you about all this. You are a very intelligent woman (and a lot stronger than what you give yourself credit for). They should not have omitted this very important info from their readings!

I am completely unaware as to what Epona is saying to you right now in her own email reading - but I am very hopeful that the two of us have clarified much more for you and eased your mind. I only wish the very best for you - for all of our clients. And it actually upsets me to know that there are some "readers" out there - that although they meant well for you - they were not completely honest in all that they were seeing for you.

I really feel hon that within a month … he will start to see a lot of his lessons - he will snap out of things. Then … I feel that in about 1 to 1 ½ years from now, you both should be starting out as a serious couple once again. I feel you to be so much closer - both physically as well as emotionally - and the relationship I feel will in fact last for many years. I cannot see how long exactly … which tells me that it is in fact for NUMEROUS years (as my ability to see into the future runs roughly 10 years. After 10 years things become rather "fuzzy" for me. LOL). So with that said hon - you both will be together in the end … and the relationship I think will be one that will indeed follow you into your next lifetime. 

Trust me I know all too well how hard it is to wait and bide your time hon. But unfortunately that is all you can really do at this point. Hang tight - stay strong - and continue on your lifepath. You WILL get to where you wish to be … just ALL IN DUE TIME.

Please take care of yourself - and please keep Epona and I posted. You will indeed have many updates soon - within a month I feel. 

We are here for you at all times, and we both will hold you close to our own hearts and include you in all our prayers. We have been there hon - so you truly do have all our support - and our deepest love. If there is anything else we can do for you - or any further guidance that you may feel you need - please don't hesitate in contacting us.

Brightest of Blessings to you always,

Lupercus…
 

Greetings Angela!

Firstly hon I must sincerely thank you for allowing me to complete this reading for you. There is so much going on - with both of you … but mainly within Thomas - no wonder you are left so confused and lost. I would be too, honey. Honestly.

I must admit to you that all the previous readings you have had - I believe there were 5 or 6 readings in total? - They were all correct. However…  the readers seem to have left out some vital information for you sweetie. And that is just not right. They were trying to spare your feelings - which is very loving of them and they meant no real harm by it - but in the end hon with them doing this it has left you even more confused than anything. There is so much that they didn't talk about with you. But I shall tell you everything that is being revealed to me … I promise you that I will not hide anything nor will I sugarcoat anything for you. It is best to remain open and honest at all times - for your own sake as well as my own.

First I must begin with Thomas … and how he truly feels about you. Thomas I feel isn't really one to talk about true feelings and thoughts with anyone … it doesn't seem to matter who it is - he likes to try and hide all from all.

Thomas ADORES you Angela. He always has you close to his heart and within his mind. He has for quite a long time - even though I feel he doesn't quite show it all that often (as most men are actually like that). Much like yourself he often wonders how he could be with you, wonders if and when he can be with you. Sweetie he holds all the very same thoughts and questions in his mind - you are not really alone in what you are feeling. And I wouldn't take too much to heart in regards to this "other woman" he has recently started to see. As it stands right now hon they are merely friends. There is no real love felt between them at all at this point. There is interest held … but absolutely nothing compared to what he has always felt about you.

I am in fact getting that there is an issue here about distance. Is there a great distance between you - geographically speaking? I feel that there is … and this is greatly connected in what is going on right now WITHIN Thomas.

Now for what the other readers have not told you …

He did in fact meet this new person … but … not for the reasons you may be thinking hon. He is really trying to sort through things within himself … he really wishes to know HOW a relationship can be accomplished between you. He wants to be with you so badly but is just completely unsure at this point as to how to go about getting it done. So this new person … she is MAINLY a DISTRACTION for him. He too is trying to find ways in dealing with this separation from you. However of course he is obviously going about it entirely different from you. His heart is aching just as badly … and this new woman is his childlike way of trying to deal with it. He is actually trying to see if there is any other woman out there that "matches" you (i.e. personality, looks, sex drive, etc. etc.). And this is exactly what he is doing with this other woman. He is somewhat trying to "replace you" - to fill that void that he feels when you and him are apart. But he is ALREADY finding that she is not "adding up" or even coming remotely close as to how he looks at you and thinks you to be. And he will also soon learn that he will not ever find another Angela. There is only one you sweetie … and this is one lesson that he must learn. And no matter how much he keeps saying that he enjoys himself with her and how much "fun" they may have together  - I wouldn't read too much into it hon. He may "enjoy her company" - but that is ALL. He is in a way "in denial" of your soulmate connection as well - but this too he will learn … he cannot ignore it … no matter how hard he tries. It is just so painful for him to be apart from you … and not know HOW to fix it correctly. This is why he is saying and doing all that he is sweetie - but like I said very shortly he will see that it will not work. No matter what he does … he WILL be drawn back to you. The power of your connection is in fact that strong.

This newfound relationship between Thomas and this other woman will NOT last sweetie. It won't be long at all. I am giving them a MAXIMUM of 1-½ months … then that will be IT. Why? Because he will not ever be able to find the happiness he feels when he is with you. He will not be completely fulfilled. He too feels that you are soulmates … and you are. A soulmate is just that … you cannot ever stop being a soulmate … and you cannot ever ignore it.

Thomas has experienced the same as you … when you first met each other … you had the feeling that you knew each other before … but didn't know from what or where. THAT is your spiritual connection hon. That right there tells you that you are in fact soulmates. Now I cannot really go into a detailed Past Life Regression for you at this time (as it is an entirely different reading in itself) … but I am in fact being shown here sweetie that there are at least 2 different lifetimes spent together (three including this present one).

Right now honey Thomas needs to work through all this on his own. I know it is extremely hard … but hon you must try to let him. And he will! I would just continue to be the same with him as what you are right now. Remain a loving and dear friend to him - show him the encouragement and support that he always looks to you for. THAT is what will get him through the most of this sweetie. YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT. And keep as much communication going between you as possible. He really needs to make some solid choices and decisions within himself … and you I feel will play a key part in getting him to that point. I am completely honest with you when I tell you that I do see him returning to you. However … I do not see you and him together … as a couple … for some time yet. I am getting roughly 1 year to the day --- one year FROM TODAY … that is when things will have drastically changed (over the course of the year) … and you WILL be a couple once more (and for good!) by that time. When I say "be a couple" - I am saying hon that you will in fact be together … very close to each other … I am not sure whether you will be living in the same house or within the same area … it is one of the two. There will no longer be any geographical distance between you at all. And you will in fact be in a very serious relationship.

Now - remember earlier I mentioned that there are many things at work here between you both? Well this is where I will talk about it now … as this is just as important sweetie. This I feel is also something that those other readers did not address with you at all. Life lessons are just as important as what emotions and thoughts are sweetie … actually … they can be more important in many cases.

I am being told by Spirit that there are yet many life lessons that must be learned … by BOTH of you … before either one of you can actually take another step forward down the path of your relationship. All of this … all that the two of you are going through … it must happen. Everything happens for a reason sweetie. And it all happens in its own due course and time. Unfortunately sometimes those things are really not what we want … but in the end we are much stronger as people. If none of this were to happen before the two of you got together as a couple sweetie - then there would definitely not be as much appreciation for each other than what there will be.

I too experienced much what you are experiencing right now hon. Truly. I was separated from my soulmate for A LOT LONGER than what you have been (or ever will be) … and I must admit that it is extremely painful. My soulmate (who is Lupercus!) - I had to watch him from afar for many years … him being with another woman … and I with another man … both of us having children with these other people …I will tell you I went through agony for about 16 years!!! Sixteen years I waited to be with my soulmate.  But throughout that time … even though I didn't realize it then (or cared for that matter lol) there were NUMEROUS life lessons that I had to learn and master (i.e. standing up for myself, having more self-respect, sticking to all that I believe in and say, etc.). He too had many lessons. Now … we could not ever be together as a couple until those lessons were learned. You and Thomas remind me so much of Lupercus and myself … it is truly no coincidence that I am now reading for you.

I also wanted to touch upon what you said in your message, "I feel I have lost the best part of me … I feel I have lost my soul and spirit."

You may feel that way sweetie … but when it comes to soulmates … that just doesn't ever happen. You cannot ever "lose" your soulmate. But also … that is just the exact reason WHY you are feeling the way you are … because you ARE in fact soulmates … you ARE connected on many different levels. And that connection is very powerful. It is very painful for one soulmate to try and walk away from another … like I said I have been right in your very position … and it is not easy to go through at all. But honey I really feel that it will all work out for the two of you in the end …but I know … it is just in getting to that point.

Where do you go from here? Sweetie the only thing you really can do is just try to keep going … keep on rolling down your own lifepath - and allow yourself to travel in whichever direction that path may lead you. Do things for yourself … take care of yourself … but also at the same time still be there as you are now for Thomas. Don't ever waver from him in any way. I know that it's hard in trying to stay positive all the time … but you must try at least half of the time - for your own sake and peace of mind. It's hard to watch the one you love try to work through things on their own … especially when there are so many emotions involved when it comes to that person. But this I feel is also another lesson for you … in that you must learn to try to keep patience with things …along with being able to "let go" of a situation in order for it to run its own course (in other words hon don't try forcing things to happen - they happen when they are all meant to happen - many times we don't know why - but there are always reasons or Higher Purposes in why things don't happen in times that WE FEEL they should) … and know that all will be taken care of by the Divine. But I also feel that this is also a lesson for Thomas to learn as well. He too was "forcing" many things to take place … and of course it wasn't working. I have learned … through personal experience … that the more you try to "force" things to happen … whether it be by meditations or visualizations, affirmations, or outright physical actions or suggestions … then the more things will ultimately fail for a person when the timing is completely "off." Things will happen when they are supposed to happen for you - not before or later.

In closing hon - I would also like to talk a little about all the other people within your life … another lesson that I think you have just learned recently. Like I said I can completely relate to you when you say that you feel totally drained (or sucked dry as you put it) from other people. I know - you give them all your love, support … all that you can in any way that you can. But then when it comes time where you yourself are in need … where are they? They seem to disappear! Well sweetie … I will tell you what I learned from that very same lesson (as this is a huge one for you just as much as it was for me): You can only rely on yourself babygirl. Unfortunately you cannot ever really rely on someone else - no matter who they are. EVEN FAMILY. You must learn to "take care of yourself" and " know all your resources for yourself" … in other words you must try to be "self-reliant." But with this also comes the lesson of self-esteem and/or self-worth … I love the feeling I get when I can accomplish something on my own (for example: Everyone "poopooed" me about starting my own professional psychic reading service. They said that it was a stupid idea and that I would never make it - that I would never be as "big" as I professed I would be. Now … after all this time … I have accomplished that … without support of any kind from anyone … anyone that is but myself. And what's more … I am still growing). And also try to take comfort in knowing that eventually … all in due time … each person will inevitably have to answer to their own Karma. All good and bad deeds, thoughts, etc. … that all returns to a person in time. 

Take on the attitude of, "You think I can't do it? I WILL succeed and I WILL prove ALL OF YOU WRONG! I don't need you - I can do it. You just wait and see." Say it to yourself … say it to them if needed. The more you believe in yourself sweetie - the more and more you will see things just literally falling into your lap. All is within your reach hon … it is right there. You have so much coming to you … all of it so wonderful … just as I do … all we have to do is get that "I WILL" attitude and just go for it.

You are truly in all my thoughts and prayers hon. If you ever need anything - I am just an email away. I am here for you always. Things WILL get so much better for you … you just need to hang in there … get tough with everyone else around you … and go for all that you wish for. I don't promise much within this line of business - but I promise you right now that all will work out according to Divine planning. It's just that you and Thomas both need to travel a little bit further down your lifepaths before you are able to finally unite as one once more.



Much Love to you always
~Epona~