Greetings, Jamie hon.

I hope that you are ready to begin our journey together! What I will be doing, is actually typing WHILE I am in a deep meditative state. This is not easy to do - so please bare with me and keep in mind the state that I will be under. Also, I will type all details of each regression in italics - so you will be able to differentiate between "where" I am while talking with you (sometimes it can be rather confusing as to know whether or not a reader is talking about the past life being viewed … or the present - lol). And please remember, like I said in an earlier message to you - most times past life regressions will stir up many different emotions … some of which can be profoundly felt. 

Let's begin shall we? I shall start by entering the first door that is ready to be opened for me - which tells me that this is the LATEST (or newest) of your past lives.

 

I am seeing you and your wife. Yes - you are male and Kory is female. The era feels much like mid-1800's and you have just recently united in marriage. There is a strong sense of familiarity between you and him in this life as well as in the present day. You in this life - you are your ancestors. BOTH of you. Oddly … same last name for you "Cottle." Same maiden name for him, "Smith." I am getting your first name to be Abraham … wife's name begins with a 'J.' Either Jane, Joan, Joanne? Cannot fully hear - but I am leaning more towards Jane. The name has only one syllable.

AM seeing much farmland surrounding you - crops of sort - long grains. Wheat perhaps. Possibly cotton? Country you live in feels much like where you are now … United States. What state grows endless fields of wheat??? There are many I am supposing - but I am getting the general feel here that even to this day the state's main product is wheat and or corn. 

You built your own home for your wife - have hundreds of acres of land. But not all that wealthy. Must constantly work the soil to earn money. Much happiness, however conceiving a child seems to be eluding you both. Time is desperately running short for you both. Getting up in years. The wife feels at times wanting to take her own life, feels that she is unworthy of you if she cannot bring forth a son to raise and pass on the family name to. Has tried three times to take her own life - each time you have caught her and stopped her. Locals are starting to whisper amongst themselves about her. Nervous around her most times - they feel her to be very frail, weak and sensitive. And she is.

Conception of first child does not take place until your wife (Kory) turns 39. Extremely hard pregnancy - often in bed. Maintenance around home and farmland suffers as you are by her bedside most days and nights tending to her. In turn, money also fails as the soil isn't 'being worked.' Horribly no one seems to offer help to till the soil or help out on farm or in the house with her. You must take on all tasks yourself and it is very burdensome. Tired very easily. Early mornings and late nights. 

Labor and delivery of child does not go smoothly. No doctor available. You must deliver baby yourself. But you are prepared and know what to do. Your own mother was a midwife. Going unnoticed by her, as a child you would at times sneak and hide to watch the commotion that is trying to be hidden from you. I am very glad that you did. Everything happens for a reason - even though half the time we don't know what the positive sides to things are or what the reasoning may be. But there is much drama here - panic, screaming, pain and crying.

However  - unfortunately the child does not live through the labor. It was a girl.  Seems the birthing canal was too small for the baby to pass through. You had to reach to pull baby out most of the way. Your wife has passed out - does not know until after she awakens. Much heartache. Tears  of utter sorrow. You cursing the in-town doctor. Swearing for revenge. Should never have happened if he was there. Wife withdraws into herself for some time … this puts you down even lower as well. Alcohol is involved. State of the farm and crops very poor. Money has quickly dwindled. You feel there is nothing left in life. What is the use? No point in trying.

Townspeople and other locals finally come to your aid in news of the recent stillbirth and situation in the home. Many work the soil … look after your farm … help take care of your wife (Kory) … and help take care of you. Things drastically improve and you and your wife both take solace from priest and locals offering their love and support. Spirits are uplifted once more. Life now goes on … start fresh.

Unfortunately, upon examination by the doctor (who of which you did punch him … you found him while you were in a drunken stupor - punched him in the middle of church sermon. This is when people learned of all that had happened) … the doctor gently explains to you and your wife that she is now unable to conceive any more children. Doing so could ultimately end her own life … as well as the unborn child.

Despite all your hardships … the two of you live a wonderful life together - and you both count your blessings. Both live to old-age … She passes on first … followed by yourself roughly 5 years later.
 


Here we shall begin our second journey … into the second past life that is being shown to me at this time (***as a note … by this time if there were more lives together I would have been shown at this point and time. I am not being shown any more doors/lives … so there are in fact only three past lives to review).


Am seeing you and your older brother. You are female - Kory is male. Era feels much like late 1700's … approximately 1780 - 1785. Country of residence has an English/British feel to it. I am not being shown an entire lifespan here. I am only being allowed to see one particular event. But I will now further explain simple family life … before I tell of significant event.

You have four other siblings … all of which are females. Kory is the only male. I am not getting any distinct last names as in the last past life - but I am feeling that it begins with the letter 'S'. It is NOT Smith … but something quite similar to it. I do not see the exact spelling or even pronunciation of it. But it IS similar to "Smith." Kory is the oldest of all the children … with you being the youngest. You are a toddler in this particular time. Very easygoing child, very happy and inquisitive. Favorite blanket goes with you everywhere - you are reminding me much of Linus in Peanuts. You are deeply enthralled with all your older siblings - including older brother Kory. You spend most of your days with Kory … most time is preferred to be with him - even when compared to your own mother and father. You follow him wherever he goes - with your blanket trailing behind you. Kory is roughly 16 - considered in that day and age as pretty much a man in his own right. However he stays home with the parents to help with the land and chores.

Jumping to the event that is in need of being viewed.

Starts out like any other day. Nothing wrong. Nothing is out of the ordinary. Breakfast is eaten. Chores are now beginning. Older sisters are out in the field - gathering what looks to be some sort of vineyard fruit? Looking closer … grapevines? Parents are unseen at this time. Their whereabouts are unknown to me. You are once again following Kory … running as fast as your little legs could carry you. Kory does not know you are behind him. He is leading some sort of cow … not a cow … looks like a cow … oxen? Kory is completely unaware of you. You are running immediately behind this cow … or oxen … 

You trip and fall on your trailing blanket, which in turn makes you fall head first into the back of the cow (oxen). This startles the oxen and Kory begins fighting with it desperately. The oxen backs up … back up … continuously stepping on you. Kory by this time hears your screams of pain and fright … he begins yelling and screaming at the oxen … and screaming for help. Sisters come racing in from gathering. Parents come racing from around the back of the house. With all the screaming and commotion going on all around, this startles the oxen even more … and keeps continuing to stomp and trample all over you. You fall silent. Your father rushes and pushes the oxen out away from you. He picks you up in his arms. Body limp and appearing lifeless. Sisters and mother rush around him and you. Kory stands in disbelief. "I didn't see her. I didn't know she was there." Very upset. Kory begins kicking the oxen in the side … then lets him loose. Just doesn't care what happens to it. Neither does anyone else. All attention turned onto you. 

Body still motionless … no breathing. 

Your family hosted visitations and funeral … your resting place is within a small clearing within the field where your sisters were working (the grape vineyard). This is the "family plot." Your favorite blanket accompanies you … just as in life.

Kory fell ill … mentally ill. Constant torment over your loss. Feels that it was all his fault. Should have been more careful. Should have known that you would have been right behind him. Should have made sure of your whereabouts. He feels completely at fault … he feels he is the one to blame. Within his torment … he awoke in a cold sweat one night … and while all the family sleeps … found the very same cow (or oxen) that trampled you. He killed it with two swipes … with … what looks to be some sort of really large blade. NOT a sword. It is very large … has two handles … and the blade curves. Some sort of farm tool? He took his vengeance on the cow (oxen).

Kory lived to be an old man … wifeless and childless - and very alone. Lived off the very same family land ... the land that he was raised on and helped to keep all those years. Although he had many friends, he kept to himself oftentimes. Kory died peacefully in his sleep in around his 87th year. Friends and relatives buried him alongside your own resting place … in the very same field.

And today … I feel that this field STILL exists … no more vineyard … overgrown … but there are two large trees … oak or maple perhaps??? These two trees shade Kory's and YOUR resting places … and no one else's. These trees grew on their own … no one planted them.




 



This now brings us to the last door … the third lifetime … and which in essence is also the OLDEST lifetime. **Please note … the further back into lifetimes a medium/channeler gets ... unfortunately the less information is received - mainly because much is 'forgotten' by the querient's spirit. But we shall try our best to get about the same amount of information as the last two.  ;)


I am seeing you and your husband … but Kory is not your husband. There is much deception and sneakiness going on here … which is a HORRIBLE taboo for the feeling of this era. Feeling of early to mid-1700's. Kory is your lover. But much more than a lover. You feel that you have united with the wrong man. The husband you are with you feel that he doesn't love you at all … just in it for the money. Your family had money … but so did his own. He was quite well off when you met him. But greed I see is his main game here. The more the better. You hold no true love for this man at all … and daily wish … rather desperately … that you could escape all that has come to you.

Yes - Kory was more than a lover to you. He is everything you wished for in a provider, a husband and father. And the two of you would constantly secretly meet each other … every chance you got. No one caught you … ever … not even when the birth of yours and Kory's son took place.

Yes, you and Kory had a child together … after you united with this other man and had children with him. But your husband - he did not know of Kory at all - therefore he thought he knew that this little baby boy was his own. Really - who was he to doubt? There was no real reason given to him to think otherwise.

You and Kory both lived in torment in being apart from each other and having to sneak around … and you can bet that it was one hundred times worse when your son was born. 

Unfortunately, neither of you ever fulfilled your destinies in being together. Kory had to sit back and watch helplessly as another man raised his only son. You BOTH had to go through much emotional pain in being apart … Your lives were truly unfulfilled. 

Both you and Kory grew old apart (yet together in heart and spirit) and watched your beautiful son blossom into a strong handsome man. He had children of his own - making you and Kory grandparents. 

All the while … you still stayed with this husband that truly never did "meet your expectations of a husband" … and you never did "learn to love" him as he professed you would. 

And unfortunately, this husband outlived you by 7 years to the day … and even more unfortunately was that Kory too had to watch you silently slip away. You never did get to be together as man and woman - husband and wife … and your son … unfortunately never did learn about Kory … never did learn the identity of his real father. To his own ending days, he fully believed that the man that raised him was in fact his father. He never even knew a man like Kory existed. 


 


Well sweetie … that is all that I received … on all three lifetimes.

It is truly amazing at how things seem to "follow you" throughout … and how some things do seem to have a common theme. But my feelings were correct … children WERE in fact involved in these lifetimes … ALL THREE of them!!! I did NOT expect that at all to be quite honest with you.

But in looking back at what I wrote (as I cannot remember what I wrote - lol -) it does seem to shed some light in regards to Kory's current frame of mind … and how devoted he truly is to you … and much more in relation to yourself and him.

There may be much more that makes some sense to you than what I can currently think of at this point. Maybe moreso than what I realize. But I truly think that this will actually help you out quite a bit … I am definitely glad that I did this session for you. It is one of those things that I will not soon forget. I felt very deep emotions here … on all levels … and to be quite honest … it has exhausted me lol. But I am still so very surprised at how "connected" all three of these lifetimes are! It is very rare … and I think I can count on one hand how many times I have actually witnessed such a thing throughout the course of my 17 years as being a professional channeler/medium.

Thank you sweetie for allowing me to take this journey. Yes, it is extremely draining and exhausting for me as a reader … but it never ceases to amaze me. I always jump at the chance to perform a past life reading for someone. I always seem to be experiencing something new or out of the ordinary!


In Love and Light to you ALWAYS,
~Epona~