| 11-11-03 |
| Why do we try to fit ourselves in perfect molds that don't even exist? Sometimes we strive to be something that isn't even worth striving to be. Models, moviestars, music artists, and successful businessmen are the focal points of today's society, and why? Why do we place so much importance on being the most beautiful, or the most successful? We're totally missing the mark. I'm missing the mark. What is the mark? Don't try to be someone else's beautiful. True beauty comes from realizing the beauty you have, the beauty God sees. Don't try to gain someone else's success. Your success should be based on what God asks you to do, and how well you carry out his will for your life.. I get so irritated at myself for thinking otherwise. Who are you listening to anyways? Don't let our society tell you what is beautiful and what is successful, let God. |
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| 11-12-03 |
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| What a day. Sometimes I get in those ruts. You know the ones I'm talking about. The ones where everything around you feels like it's caving in, and you're trying to get as much breath as possible to hold you over when they finally do. I don't know what it is. I'm just so confused about a lot of things, and it feels like this feeling will never go away. If you're where I am, do not despair. Even though we cannot see the sky anymore, we know the creator of the sky, and He loves us. So, fellow buried brother, look up, and pray the dirt being shoveled upon your head doesn't make you go insane, and know that it won't. God will never give you anything you can't handle. Keep the faith. |
| 01-23-04 |
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| Oh boy, was today ever trying. It was good, but yeah, still trying. I'm so glad I have a God who guides my steps. I know I fail Him many times, but I know if I keep my eyes on Him I will triumph in the end. Sometimes I'm so amazed at how awesome and loving God is. He takes this tiny, puny, and weak girl, and uses her to achieve huge, great, and unbelievable things. I don't know about you, but I can't wait until I look back on the days and wonder how I got through them, and then realize it was because of God. Actually, it's already began to happen... looking back... seeing God's hand... and wondering how I ever got through it, when in reality I knew all along. Sigh, God is awesome. |