"Faith? May I come in?" Kevin knocked on the door and said.
"Yah, the door's not locked..." Faith replied.
Kevin came into her room, grabbed a chair and sat down.
Faith was sitting on her bed reading a book.
"What are you reading?" Kevin asked.
"Err...you know, Jane's book on Nick..."
"Oh..."
"So, why haven't you gone to sleep?" Faith asked.
"I can't sleep and so I decided to come in to chat with you as the lights of your room are still on."
"Faith, do you blame me for always being on the road and neglecting you?"
"No.....but Mum and Big bro miss you a lot...I just went back to Florida last week and Mum had been telling me how much she misses you..."
"It must have been hard on her. But I will be going back to Florida after Christmas to visit them.
Are you coming along?"
Faith just kept silence and stared into space.
'Will I be able to go back again?' she thought.
"Faith? Are you listening?"
"Huh? Oh...sorry, just thinking about something..."
"So are you coming back with me?"
"I wanted to but I'll have to see the tour schedule."
"Tour?" Kevin asked.
"Yah, Denise told us that we'll be touring with Britney Spears and some other artists and the dates aren't confirmed yet...." she said as she suddenly feel a surge of tears threatening to flow down.

"Kev, when are you getting a girlfriend?" she asked, trying to change the topic to a happier one.
"Maybe soon..." Kevin smiled.
"And who may that lucky girl be?" Faith teased him.
"Someone you were close with..."
"Hmm...Mandy?"
"No...She is Nick's girlfriend."
"Leighanne? Kathy?" Kevin kept on shaking his head.
"Don't tell me it's Cindy Collison."
"You guess it." Kevin said as he blushed.
"Woah, I can't believe this...you and Cindy...she still calls herself my best friend, and didn't even tell me..."
"No...She still doesn't know that I like her..."
"What? Aren't you telling her?"
"I am inviting her over tomorrow..."
"Uh...I see...you have a plan..." Faith laughed.
"Stop teasing me...how about you?"
"Me? I am so ugly, who will want me?"
"Hey! Watch what you say. You are Kevin Richardson's sister and there is no way at all that you're ugly."
"Ya ya...Mr. Body Beautiful!!" Faith laughed even harder this time.
"Well, let's be serious. Who do you love? Is it someone who I know?"
"He is someone who you know for years...but a lot younger than you and he is very handsome plus a good voice." Faith said.
"Is that such a perfect man?" Kevin began to tease her back.
"There is and the one and only..."
"Alright, just tell me who he is."
"Nah...He already has a girlfriend...alright, I still have to go to the studio tomorrow..."
she said as she got out from her bed.
She went over to where Kevin was sitting and shoved him out of her room.
"Now you go to sleep or you'll give Cindy a fright tomorrow."
"Alright, alright...since you don't want to tell me, I'll guess myself..."
"Alright, Nite Kev." Faith said as she hugged Kevin.
"Nite Faith, sleep tight." Kevin said as he hugged her back.

Faith then turned off the lights and went to bed.
After 10 minutes, Faith sat up in her bed and started to sob.
She got up and went over to her desk and switched on the table lamp.
She took out her pastel blue colored diary from the drawer.
She stared at the diary for a long time before she finally opened it and started writing.

'Dear Diary,
Things are becoming more and more difficult for me. Now that they have come back, I really don't know how to face them...Anyway, today is the 117th time that I saw Nick hug Mandy. I am so sad but what can I do? Mandy is my best friend, I can't snatch her boyfriend away from her. It seems to me that Nick appears to be a little sad when I snapped at him earlier on today. I did not mean it though...*sigh* Kev just asked me whether will I be going back to visit Mum and Big Bro with him...how can I go back when I can't even...can't even live till then...Why must I get this stupid heart problem? Why is Brian blessed each and every time and I have to die? Why...? I can't believe that I will be leaving them soon...I can't...I guess I can't get my Christmas wish, a visit from Santa and a ride in his sleigh. But all I hope is before I die, Nick will say 'I Love You' to me and hold me in his arms...even if he is lying...