Losing a twin

No one knows how lonely and
lost a twinless twin can feel
until he himself has been there

It was in many ways the end of the story
for the book sellers twins
when my twin ended up dying from cancer
and with me
her brother
ending up feeling like
a shipwrecked soul
washed ashore
on a deserted island
naked
and with a soul so wounded
that it felt hard just to breathe

Ever since our childhood
when our father had died from the same kind of skin cancer
life for both of us had turned into something we had to struggle to survive
a struggle which tied us together in a feeling of friendship
and care for each other
which managed to pull us safe through many a hard time
and of which there were many.

A few months before my beloved Charlotte died
one night she and I went for a walk along our favorite beach
where we in our childhood
spent many a wonderful time


while walking there
I guess we both knew
that our story together
was about to end


Charlotte was so ill then
that it was probably
only a matter of time
and she would no longer be around


while walking there
we didn't talk much
we didn't have to talk to feel close


at one point we had stopped to just stand there
looking at the sea
so beautiful, so peaceful it was that night
with the sun setting over its horizon


I had while standing there put my arms around her
and with her body close to mine
I had felt how her heart was beating
I had felt her fright
and with sadness in my heart
I had felt
how much I cared for her




my twin
my soul sister


my reason to live








In loving memory

Henrik

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