to breathe

i write most of my words about a love lost
i vowed to survive death no matter the cost
i live through life with nothing but pain
i welcome it every day, like i'm insane
but that's just it, one thing you don't get
the pain that i've met rolls off me like sweat
i will last forever, my power is infinite
but no more are my days of the innocent
conversations and chatter that i used to make
now everything is destruction in my wake
the things that i've seen, no you wouldn't believe
how hard life made the air for me to breathe