| Lust. Yes, that is right boys and girls, recently my mind has turned to the concept of Lust. More specifically... what is the relationship between Love and Lust. There is most certainly a relationship... for me at least, but what is the nature of that relationship? In the past when my eyes fell upon an object of Lust, My Mind would eventually turn to previous relationships where Lust and something else, not Love exactly, were one and the same. This is how I know, that for me Love and Lust are intertwined somewhere. In previous relationships, that were less than fullfilling, I would Lust for those outside the relationship. It was as if Lust was My Minds way of fullfilling the emptyness left in My Heart by the relationship I was in. The neglect and disregard I was experiencing in My Heart, had My Head coming up with ways to fullfill that emptyness even if just fantansy. So I know that Lust resides in the Head. While Love rules the Heart. Now that I am in a relationship that has wed My Heart and My Head, the Man I Love is now the object of Lust as well. Since Frog fullfills my every need emotionally, and mentally, when the fleshly needs arise, My Mind turns to him as well. Lust enters into My Daydream, and it is images of Frog I see. And Lusting after the one you love takes all the negativity out of it. This makes the entire Lusting process all the more enjoyable. Now I know this works for me, but it might not for everyone. Other people might see an attractive individual and start to Lust. For me that doesn't happen anymore. I have been aproached by very attractive men who had Lust for me. But since My Mind is wed now to My Heart, which belongs completey to Frog, it can not even concieve of such a thing. There is no one alive that could fullfill My Fleshy Needs more than he. No one to find more attractive than I find him. He is the Measure of what a Man should be. All others fall short. Perhaps I am hopeless or obsessed, but I just think that I didn't really know what Lust was until I fell in Love... for real. Ironic in a way. I mean, for so many they are at opposite ends of the spectum... and maybe they are... but I propose you can have them both at the same time. I know I do. |
| April 5, 2002 |