Tonight was the night,
The night i was supposed to have fun,
The night i was supposed to be accepted,
but It was also the night,
i was supposed to make her happy,
i hope she doesn't feel rejected,
Because tonioght was the night,
i had one of the most intricatly intrigueing dates,
But for her it was prolly hellish,
She would of had fun,
if i only gave more of myself,
insted of asking her questions (im feeling slfish),
Tonight was the night,
i was happy as could be,
but i didn't have the charisma or depth,
and alas i found out,
that only on paper and not in real life,
can i take away a her breath,
i wish i wasn't me,
i wish i was everything,
that girls sought,
affable, funny romantic, and cool,
i wish i was everything,
Everything that im not.
tomorrow,
is a new day,
but my mistakes aren't yet gone,
because today is right now,
and right now hasn't past,
im finding out that im nothing but a con.
I don't blame her,
for being embarrased,
because i can clearly see,
that as embarrassing,
as it is to be my friend,
imagine having to be me,
she tried so hard to make me affable,
but in the end,
i couldn't budge,
and i really sincerely hope,
that she knows its not her fault,
that she couldn't give me the right nudge
im finding out slowly,
how much i screwed up,
and how much i was a bore,
but i just hope,
things can go back,
to the way they were before