Now as a stranger would you have guessed
That these feelings of anger would've regressed?
Cuz there's a hole in my heart, a plague since my birth
That from the very start made me feel less than my worth
I was cursed as a remedy, a cure for your pain
But in the end the loss was more than your gain
Someone such as you defies all definitions
As you embrace all aspects of a degrading remission
So now you're stuck in a desolate room with no doors
To lead out to the future with happier shores
Time and time again you know it's happened before
But you remain thrilled with your negative score.
So now what's done is done, there's no way to fix the past
All that's gone is gone but may continue to clash
At one point hate was all I could feel
But now it's moved on to something even more real
Just one more song to express the shame
One more time to describe my pain
Then it's over and done with and on with the game
I'll move on and live with disrespect for my name
That belongs also to one I should've trusted for life
But brought nothing but anger, tears, disbelief and strife
Now I realize I don't hate for what was done to me
But for errors in chracter the equals insanity
There's no way to forgive, sometimes to forget
All these things that have happened that I know you'll regret
Someday you'll hate this sytem that you've built upon
But by then it'll have been way too long
So I've vented my anger and relinquished my fears
I've determined my future and dried all my tears
I've had so much time in which to hide
Cuz time was all I had on my side
But I'm tired, I'm finished, mourning is gone
But don't think this means I forgive what you've done.
So now to end it I'll close out this song
Here I stay there you go through it all I am storng