Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static
and put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remembering I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore
A little taste of hypocrisy
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake (slow to react)
Even though you're so close to me
You're still so distant (And I can't bring you back)
It's true the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me
I'm with you
You Now I see keeping everything inside With You You Now I see Even when I close my eyes No matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
freakin' me out you wear a mask called counterfeit, you're freakin' me
out you wear a mask/freakin' me out you wear a mask called counterfeit, you're freakin' me out you were a...fake
I'd never though I'd die alone:I laughed the loudest who'd have known
I traced the cord back to the wall:no wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time:I hurried up
the choice was mine I didn't think enough
I never conquered rarely came
but tomorrow holds such better days
when I can still feel alive
when I can't wait to get outside
the world is wide
the time goes by
the dream is over I've survived
swallowed followed
heavy about everything but my love
swallowed sorrowed
i'm with everyone and yet not
swallowed borrowed
heavy about everything but my love
swallowed hollowed
sharp about everyone but yourself
swallowed oh no
i'm with everyone and yet not
i'm with everyone and yet not
i'm with everyone and you're not
i'm with everyone and yet
piss on self-esteem:forward busted knee
sick head:blackened lungs
and i'm a simple selfish (son)
I dedicate this song to my suicide buddy :)
it's not usually something people smile about...
but looking back I can laugh at the way I was
in my less fortunate days
(I know you understand)
I wish I was
Too dead to cry
The self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochist to which I cater
You don't need to bother
I don't need to breathe
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I'm done
I won't let go till it bleeds
I wish I was
Too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason
My flaws are open season
For this I gave up trying
One good time deserves my dying
You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I wish I died Instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shelf forgotten with it's memories
Dire is left with cryptic entries
And you don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I'm gone
I'll never live down my disease
Lynn...
My gift is my song
And this one's for you
And you can tell everybody
That this is your song
It maybe quite simple
But now that it's done
Hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world
It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all
Across the night
I fell in love with people sleeping
across the night
It was the moon that stole my slumber
It's amazing
how you make your face just like a wall
how you take your heart and turn it off
how I turn my head and lose it all
It's unnerving.
how just one move puts me by myself
there you go just trusting someone else
now I know I put us both thru hell
I fell tired, asleep in a golden ocean
Your eyes perspired, a spike in my fascination
I don't mean to make you cry
But this feeling will run right through the night
And I'll only make you cry with these feelings
Sleepless, untamed without a leash on the light around me
So let us be married and have another baby
Coz I don't wanna be lonely I just wanna be alone
Yeh let's just get married (baby, baby, babies)
"You'll never sleep at all"
But I don't wanna be lonely
Never seen the sunshine
From higher points than sunrise
I don't wanna be lonely
I just wanna be alone
If I could say what I want to say
I wanna blow you... away
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
Yes, I�m wishing my life away
With these things I�ll never say
It don�t do me any good
It�s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What�s on my mind
If ain�t coming out
We�re not going anywhere
So why can�t I just tell you that I care
I got my head but my head is unraveling
cant keep control can't keep track of where it's traveling
I got my heart but my heart's no good
you're the only one that's understood
I come along but I don't know where you're taking me
I shouldn't go but you're wrenching dragging shaking me
turn off the sun pull the stars from the sky
the more I give to you the more I die
and I want you
you are the perfect drugthe perfect drugthe perfect drugthe perfect drug
you make me hard when i'm all soft inside
I see the truth when i'm all stupid-eyed
the arrow goes straight through my heart
without you everything just falls apart
my blood just wants to say hello to you
my fear is warm to get inside of you
my soul is so afraid to realize
how every little bit is left of me
take me with you
without you everything just falls apart
without you
it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces
Ladies and gentlemen
Presenting the outrageous
I�m music without limelight
A guitarist without stages
I�m a Hells Angel without the Harley Davidson
You�re a golden state warrior
Without Antawn Jamison
I�m your last laugh without a punch line
I�m a fistfight in your high school halls at lunchtime
I�m dangerous like car wrecks without the drunk driver
I�m that island that traps you and votes you off like survivor
I�m MacGyver without a red switchblade
I�m man made graffiti on the walls without the aerosol spray
I�m a 30-second delay without the time limit
I�m a shark-infested ocean, I dare you to dive in it
I�m your last bit of oxygen
I�m Waco Texas
I�m a 13-year-old kid stealing your Lexus
I�m a trilogy without the second and third sequels
I�m a crash test dummy without the smashed up vehicle
I�m everything you dream of
I�m life without death
I�m a respirator holding on to your last breath
