Bloody long time since ive even entered into my own website... dont knoe why i bother updating it really. No one akshually bothers enuff to come in and have a look see. I guess its just for the fun of it.. and to look stupid, get laughed at and generally scream. Back in that island of depression once again until december. Fuck you Singapore. Fuck u and your government too. That felt a little better. As usual nuthin much goin on in life for me. But sumthin good and something bad happened recently. Ive been having these crazy outbursts of pure anger once or twice this mth. Over stupid little things like a book i was reading gettin saked to the bone. I was literally shivering with pure anger. Then the good and weird thing thats been happening is that ive been smiling a lot lateley. For no reason. Its not cos im happy abt sumthin but simply because there are so many nice things to see around me. Pretty things.. with pretty thoughts... Ah well... im nutty thats all...
cant promise another update soon.... u shud knoe me by now...
Quote for the day..
"Fuck what u think of me..."
Friday 28th September 2002
Whoa..... long time no see.... or read at least. Nuthin much to add really. I lead a mundane life filled with nothing. I only have dreams endless partying and women out of reach. I have no life, really. I might just die tommora cos im scheduled for a 21km run which no way am i gonna complete...crap. Sadly it doesnt look like its picking up.I sound like an idiot dont i? Talking bout girls all the time.. whining bout shit. I cant help it. Im a loneley little fuckhead with a head thats been mindfucked too many times over. Music soothes even the most savage beast and thankfully for me, crazed deranged little idiots too......................
Friday 7th September 2002
Dont know whats goin on in my life right now. Depressed as hell... nuthin to do....nowhere to go... nothing to see.... I Hate it... hate my life hate myself hate this hate that.... Been gettin pretty violent thoughts lateley... not me at all... and i dont knoe why. Everyday its just up at 7 in the morn... in the office doin paperwork waitin for 5 to go home then come back to camp at 11. Almost everyday... hardly have time for my friends, i miss them alot, but then again, i feel like i need to be alone for a bit. Its about time for another dissapearing act. Dont really knoe tho...not much use anyway.
Knowadays all i feel like doing is just sleeping never wanting to wake up, wishing i never existed. That way i would never be a bother to my friends, never be trouble for my parents.. Never have to feel emotions..never have to BE........
Sunday 25th August 2002
Was at amara last night fer a few hours and got totally drunk... fell asleep alone in some obscure quiet corner woke up at abt 3 in the morn and decided to beat it back home... was fun.... before i slept at least. Been tired the whole week doing decor for some stupid seminar. lets just say that Lethargy + Alcohol = Even more lethargy.....
for me at least. Been dreaming abt a girl i could probly never get... shes hot... thankfully i know that its just a passing fantasy and that im not gonna get shit from it... haha i think im a bit mad but then again who isnt? havent seen me mates the whole week so im guessin theyre wonderin whut the hells been happenin to me. Coudltnt make a few sessions so im also guessin that theyre a little miffed at my absence... *sigh*. Bein a "soldier" takes so much time from u... fuckin govts shit. End........................................
Sunday 18th August 2002
New Webbie new layout new skool new life nusound.....
This is a test run so chill sit back and come back again in a few days.... testin out the links n shit
Some of the pics are up though.... if ure interested that is... oh and the guestbook works fine... its under Writegraffiti and graffiti canvas..... cheers
will update more once i have the time and meanwhile....enjoy