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The Light Within by Pamela Lawson
When I think about everyone as a whole, we all have a lot in common that meets the eye. We all seek the same thing within the depths of our hearts and that is the peace, the hope, the faith, the guidance, the support, the courage and the love, which are the main ingredients we need in order to survive all things that come our way. Another thing we have in common is breathing, breathing comes natural to us, and we need to breath in order to stay alive, like breathing comes natural to us so does worrying. I have always been one to worry, automatically when something would go wrong or I saw something that was way beyond my control I would panic. Over the years I have come to realize worrying does more damage than good because it triggers negative thinking within ones mind. Worrying can lead to depression. Worrying itself as it’s own domino affect. Once it gets hold of the mind, it works its way down to the heart, then it triggers uncontrollable emotions and before one knows it they are falling apart at the seam. In our daily walk through life we are bound to be greeted by setbacks, disappointments, anger, resentment, revenge, and a road that will lead one to nothing but excruciating pain that will leave us doubting our faith and our hope that we need to help us over come whatever lands in our path.
When I was little I wanted to be a writer, unsure of what it was I wanted to write about I began experimenting with poetry. I even tried my hand at writing stories for children. In my heart I knew I wanted to bring joy, laughter, peace, faith, hope, and love into the many bleeding hearts that existed within the world. When I was twenty-eight years old I decided to take a course on Writing for Magazines through the Institute of Children’s Literature. I figured I could at least try instead of letting my dream pass me by. It was a one year course that I did out of my home. I was a stay at home Mother raising a special needs child. On June 4, 1998 I received my diploma. The joy I felt within my own heart made me realize being a writer of some sort was what I really wanted to do. It wasn’t until 2001 I began writing poetry again. I would share my poetry with my family and my friends. It was them who gave me the encouragement to put my poetry on the internet. Of course I knew I needed a title in which to call my site. Several names came to mind, but The Light of Love was embedded within the chambers of my heart. Even then I would change the name of my site but something always lead me back to The Light of Love. People from time to time would ask me why The Light of Love and here is what I would say to them. The Light represents stress free, burden free, pain free of what life itself has to offer and of Love represents the love that God has to offer to each and everyone. Regardless of the obstacles one must face, the turmoil’s, the many set backs The Light of Love will always see you through.
I have one goal when it comes to the words in which I write and that is to bring comfort, peace, hope, faith, courage, and most of all love to lift ones fallen spirit, to wipe away ones tears, to give one a sense of direction as they walk in the journey of their life. As long as I touch one heart through the words in which I write and bring to them what it is they need to get them one step closer to allow the healing process to begin in my heart I will know The Light of Love has made a difference in ones life. I have always been one to believe “there isn’t anything one cannot get through as long as one believes.” Five letters come to my mind and it is something I have used to help me get through whatever may come my way G.L.O.A.T; which stands for “God’s Love Overcomes All Things.”
I have also learned when one has been hurt they have two choices, they can either allow the situation to continue to bring them down in the most negative way or they can choose to be in control of the situation, that is the power they need for when one is in control positive thinking comes in to play, positive thinking would restore their faith, their hope, their love which is a source from God. One must believe they do not have to walk alone through whatever may come their way because God’s Love Overcomes All Things. I dedicate my poetry to those who for whatever reason may have lost their way, who do not look forward to the day, who no longer hears the song in which their heart once played. I thank God for choosing me to be able to help others in their time of need. See, when I write my poetry it is as if I escape my inner soul and I place myself in another. When I feel another's pain I want to bring to them some type of comfort so they know they are not alone. I believe if I am meant to be a writer of some sort God will see to it because He is the one who has my life planned. I take one day at a time, I let go and I let God.
Pamela Lawson Feb. 2003 [email protected]