March 2000
March 1, 2000
Well this has been a nerve racking week. I got into yet another fight with my phone company (Down with Sprint!) so I didn't have a phone for the last five days. I'm still very mad about this so I'm not even going to discuss it
March 2, 2000
Today has been a much better day than yesterday. I'm not so mad at the phone company. LOL. Anyway my brother took a look at this website and said he wasn't shocked. He told me he liked it and it had artistic value. He also was very nice and didn't have anything negative to say. So all in all it went pretty well.
Now the conversation I had with my grandmother didn't go so well. She's the reason I became interested in the occult to begin with but is (sigh) a Christian. She was not happy when we discussed beliefs. I told her how wrong I thought the bible was. She was not happy with that. I pointed out how Jesus didn't write one word of the bible and that it had been rewritten countless times. Anyway, we decided to agree to disagree. Even though she thinks that this is a faze I'm going through. Which totally frustrates me! I didn't however tell her I was on the path to become a witch, I think it's obvious and some things are better left unsaid.
Well that's all for now.
~Blessed Be,
Emeraldmoon
March 6, 2000
Haven't got a whole lot to report right now. Things are pretty quiet on the home front. I did have a very interesting conversation with someone who is very interested in magick last week. Couldn't believe some of the misconceptions that are out there. She's a real nice girl, though. Sent her a copy of the Rede, The Law, and The Law of the Power from my personal book of shadows. I'm hoping it will help her understand things better and not be taken in by some of the weirdos out there.
Speaking of weirdos, my mother in law might be coming up for a visit soon. LOL. She's nuttier than a fruit cake, a very nice lady but has some strange ideas about things. Listen to me, that's like the kettle calling the pot black, isn't it? But she is a little odd. She's a holy rolling Pentacostal minister (yes she's ordained) who believes that if you let a chihuahua sit on your chest it will cure asthma. And I know what you are thinking...... Does she know about me? Sorta, she knows enough not to ask about it. We believe in live and let live. I like her and she likes me and we don't really discuss religion. That I think is the best way to get along with most people. I do the same with most everyone else I come in contact with unless they ask me about it, then of course I'm willing to get as philisophical as they'd like. Another interesting thing happened, I sent my dad a couple of spells. He's not a witch, matter of fact he's not anything if you want to be blunt. But we were talking and I mentioned that I had a spell for success and he said to send it to him. Isn't that unusual? My father would never consider walking this path but is willing to try to use magick. My mother is the same. By the way I have never come out and said I'm a witch to either of them. It seems easier for them if I don't so I probably won't. Anyway, I thought that was interesting. I'm also happy to report that I've had a little more time lately and if you haven't noticed have changed some things around on this site. It has more and better graphics and I've begun to add a few spells to my online Book Of Shadows. It's starting to shape up.
Well, I need to go for now. There is some research I want to do for the fantasy novel I'm working on and if I don't do it now, it will never get done.
Blessed Be
Emeraldmoon
March 7, 2000
Well, I guess I need to eat my words. I talked to my dad this morning, we were just chatting on messanger, and he was asking me about how to use the spell I had given him. Interesting conversation to say the least. Here I thought I was semi in the closet and he informed me that he's known a long time. Go figue. I love being a witch, I've been one for years without actually committing myself to the Lord and Lady. If you really can do that. lol. But anyway, he was very nice about it all and said everyone is entitiled to their beliefs. I guess I can't exactly call myself a witch yet, not till my year and a day is up but I've felt I was one for so many years it's hard to pinpoint when it started. I can remember a catalyst to the search though. When I was in high school, there was a girl in my art class ( I won't give her name but she knows who she is if she ever reads this), I was always called a witch and what not even in high school (among other things some of which include a devil worshipper, I still scoff at that! I don't even belief in the devil and at the time this was going on I went to the Catholic Church). Anyway, she knew all of this stuff and once asked me if I was interested in becoming a Witch. At the time I was battling worse rumors than that one, and high school life was bad enough, plus my grandmother was dragging me to the Catholic Church every Sunday ( which by the way I still love, it's very ritualistic and alot like my own religion in so many ways). So I told her I couldn't ever do that ( I was very young and didn't know that's where I'd ultimately end up or else I would have said yes). She was one and so was her father. She was a very nice girl with a big secret in such a close minded town, she told me she was one and please not ever tell anyone. I admit that I did tell years later when discussing the subject with another friend but this telling could never have hurt her. I wish I could find her again. She moved a year or two from graduation and only came back when our class graduated to see another friend graduate. She was a very nice girl and I catch myself wondering what ever happened to her. The funny thing is her family was well respected in the community and if anyone had known it would have ruined her family. That is so sad! Her parents were Girl Scout leaders, and wonderful people. It's so awful that people do not understand nor do they want to understand about us and our religion. It's a beautiful way to live, and it's not so far from thier religions either. But I think television, books, movies, and propaganda from organized religions have really made it unnecessarily hard for us all. Any how, if she ever reads this she'll know who it is. We were in Art together and she had a huge crush on one of the guys in the class. She learned to throw pots that year. We were in that class with another friend who ended up getting engaged on junior prom night (Who got divorced like three months after the wedding lol). And the friend she went to see graduate got married to a Marine the summer of 97 after her baby had died the previous winter. I'm hoping this is enough info for her to know I mean her should she ever read this. Well I need to end this now before it turns into a book.
Blessed Be,
Emeraldmoon (who is wishing she knew the friend's last name who ended up married in 97 so she could track her other highschool friend down)
March 8, 2000
Merry Meet all! I'm in a wonderful mood this morning. Last night was so wonderful in so many ways. I held my first outside ritual. It's gorgeous here in Missouri right now. And last night it was warm, there was a soft breeze blowing, the night sounds were alive, and the sky! The sky was so beautiful, all those stars! Such a clear night, a beautiful night. It was such a lovely experience, I felt so close to the All. It was almost perfect. I love living out in the country, it's so quiet and peaceful out here at night (except for the sounds of nature of course). I'm feeling very up and happy today, it's a wonderful feeling. Am I annoying you yet? LOL.
After my nighttime ritual I came in and my husband was deleting things off of our hardrive, now that was almost enough to ruin my good mood (almost had a heart attack) .LOL. But I saved my stuff from being trashed. Why can't men understand that we save stuff for a reason? We might need it again some day. LOL. Anyway, he was trying to clear out the junk and get rid of this annoying messaging service from another place (not yahoo, which can also be annoying). Poor man, the creater of that service wanted to make very sure it was hard to get rid of, cause hubby couldn't get rid of it for anything. When I came on this morning hubby had screwed something up and I couldn't get onto the net. Had to go into the nooks and crannies of our programs to fix it and I got rid of that pesky messaging service while I was at it. Don't tell hubby though, I'm going to let him think he conquered the program. LOL. Makes him feel good. And I know your wondering, what happens when he reads this? He won't read it cause he's not interested in it. I love my husband but he's a good ole boy, and to quote him, "I don't read anything that doesn't have pictures in it!" He really does say that. It's not entirely true, he's very intelligent, and quiet. He likes to give people the impression that he's not too bright so that he can turn around and surprise them. And when they think he's not to bright they are less likely to ask him to do anything. LOL. He does that to my uncle all of the time to avoid various projects.
But anyway, dispite having to spend 3 hours this morning fixing my computer (that's how long it took me to find the problem), I'm in a very upbeat mood today. I found several spells yesterday on line that I'm itching to make over and try out. And I joined a club on yahoo about Magickal Cats. I have four cats so I'm nutty about them. I intend to add a page devoted to cats and my own in particular.
Well that's all for now, y'all. See you tomarrow.
Bright Blessings and Happy Early Spring!,
Emeraldmoon
March 9, 2000
Merry Meet all! I'm still in a good mood today, despite having discovered I'm not pregnant again. I've been trying for over a year. I haven't done any spells for this yet, but I do believe I will craft one. pardon the pun. It's time. On another note, I've been studying voraciously various nooks and crannies of the net and have found some very interesting things. There are so many of like mind out there, I never realized! It makes me feel good to know I'm not the only one who feels the way I do or believes the way I do. I also found the most wonerful site about magickal gardens. I can't remember where right now but when I figure out where I will post it on the links page if I ever get around to putting one up. Anyhoo, I've decided to create one myself. I'll keep you posted on it's progress. I've decided to modify the instructions given a litte bit. I'm going to make a permanent cirlce of stones for mine and plant the herbs within. I think it will turn out very pretty. I'll post a pic on a pic's page if I ever get around to putting one up. Anyway, I"m in the middle of yet another deep conversation about my beliefs with someone on messanger so I need to end this.
~Blessed Be
Emeraldmoon
March 10, 2000
Hello all, today has been a very frustrating day. I have company coming tomarrow and I have so much housework to do! I'm really a terrible housekeeper, a mess just seems to follow me wherever I go. I have seven loads of laudry to fold and three more to do, I really hate laundry. I always let it pile up till we are all out of clean clothes to wear (sigh), so it's my own fault I guess. I moved my furniture this morning and vacuumed under it (you wouldn't believe what was under there!). Now I need to sweep and mop, and finish the laundry. I'm taking a break to write this now (actually I'm avoiding work.lol). I do home daycare and the baby I have during the week days has been a royal pain today. I love children but she's been terrible today! It's been almost impossible to get anything done, she wants to be held constantly and I can't do that if I'm gonna get my house work finished. She will scream and scream till I can't listen to it anymore and I pick her up. She's finally gone down for a nap now, so now I have to be quiet. This of course means I probably won't get much accomplished.
On a magickal note. I stayed up till 11 last night working on my fertility spell. Was talking to a friend while doing some research for the spell. It's not totally finished, it needs some fine tuning but the rough draft is done. If it works and I've done a good job on it, I will post it in Useful Spells for any who care to modify it and make it thier own. Well, this is all I have for now. I need to finish folding laundry, since it will probably be an all day job.
Bright Blessings to all and may your house be cleaner than mine!
~Emeraldmoon
