Well, We have 9 more days to go. I've never been so worried over money in my life. My Grandma is borrowing money to lend to me. It's very scary. sigh. But anyway, I promise I'm feeling a bit more positive than I was. Really. LOL.

I'm bored and lonesome at home. There aren't any other adults to talk to, I'm so used to Patrick being here most of the day and I'm only alone with the kids in the evenings. My Grandma is always gone, so I don't talk to her much either. Now I remember another reason I hate being a stay at home mom, and I hated being married to my ex. lol. There was no one to talk to that was over five feet tall. lol.

That will change this week. Josh and Andrynne and their entire family will be converging on me some time this week. I'm going to have 10 house guests (depending on whether they need to stay with me or not, that's another story). I need to clean house, and not just a few rooms but the entire house. I'm going to have so many people in here I've got to figure out where to put them all.

Anyway, it's way passed time to do some accountability. I weighed 284 this morning. I stayed at 287 all week and then finally this morning it went down. I've stuck to my diet well, except on Tuesday when we went to court. That day we stopped at IHOP for breakfast and it was fast food in the car on the drive back. So one day didn't hurt me much, I don't guess. I haven't been doing my exercise this week though. I stepped on a nail last week and couldn't for a couple of days. Then I did my 3 miles last Sunday and that was the last time I did it. I just haven't felt motivated this week. I really am depressed, which bothers me. I don't think it would be so bad if I could go somewhere or had some company, but am too broke to do anything (I've got five bucks) and everyone else is busy. With the Pate gang coming this week, at least I'll have some company.

I'm still trying to potty train Dayanera, a frustrating experience. I was really hoping to have her potty trained before we went back to Indiana, but it doesn't look like it's going to happen.

I took a new picture of myself last night. I was bored and figured I'd send it to Patrick. Tell me what you think. I decided I liked it better in sepia than in color.

Anyway, just thought I'd update everyone on me for those of you who are interested.

Blessings,

Natalie