Ok, so I got up this morning.. staggered to the bathroom... stopped by Maverick's room and picked him up.. my phone rang.. it was Lisa Jensen (a girl I know from back in highschool who I've recently reconnected with) and hopped on the scale while talking to her.... *does the happy dance*... I weighed 296!!! I hit my goal weight for June.. Can you believe it? May 20th will be one month since I could count how much weight I've lost and it's been... drum roll please.... 17 whole pounds!!!!!! I wonder what I would have weighed had I not had the phone? LOL. Poor Lisa, I screamed in her ear.
Dr. Phil rocks! LOL... I cannot sing his praises enough, and not to mention Walk Away the Pounds. The only workout video I can consistently stick to. I've been trying to do the strip aerobics one, which is easy to follow, but I don't get the weight training with it and my heart rate doesn't get up enough.. I don't think. But is a fun thing to do in the morning since I'm not overly motivated to sweat alot. Sometimes I'll do the strip aerobics one or the one mile walk w/ weights. Am not doing it every day though, am getting old I guess. Am sorry if I let it go more than one day, though. If I wait two days between work outs I wake up in the morning with a sore back. Apparently the WATP is helping my back quite a bit. Have had problems with my back and hips most of my adult life (guess it's due to genetics and being overweight). Am sorta screwed in the genetics department when it comes to my back. Have degenerative disk disease on both sides of my family. Am hoping that this will help strengthen it a bit and it seems to be helping.
Am discovering a down side to losing weight, though. I think my hubby is worried about it. He had a dream last night that I got thin, our kids were older, and I cheated on him with this guy he knows named Doug. I wouldn't touch Doug with a ten foot pole even if I wasn't married and completely nuts about my husband. Patrick's been making comments all day about it though. This is something I never thought I'd have to deal with... Is weird. I'm hoping he won't be too weird about it. He was worried about me going out w/ Amanda, Laura, and May too... He didn't ask me not to go or anything like that. He just made some comments about me dancing with some other guy or something. I hate to admit it, but it makes me feel good to know that Patrick can still get jealous. Of course, I couldn't go out anyway. We are soooooo broke this week I can't even pay attention, Laura D. couldn't go (and I didn't want to go unless she could too, just wouldn't have been the same), and I had some funky dreams myself that I took for a warning not to go. There will be other Wednesdays though, they've had male strippers on Wednesdays for years and years at Cowboys... Still want to do that girls night out, it would be soooo fun. Maybe when my friend Francis comes down for a visit again I can talk her into going, and my friend Lisa Jensen too... lol... we need a big group of us, would be fun.
Got a little accountability to get out of the way here.. sigh... As most of you know I've been trying to quit smoking... It's not going to so well... my dear darling hubby is not real hot to quit. I have absolutely no will power so when he's around I smoke. He's cut back severely, switched to ultra lights, but we are still smoking. I have no idea how Laura R. managed to quit smoking with Micheal smoking, my hat's off to you girl. You have more will power than I do. All I've managed to do is cut my smoking in half. And that's making me want to eat, which makes it double hard. I actually broke out in hives today... That hasn't happened in a while, stress induced hives are the bain of my existence... I swear! I get these itchy welts on my stomach and my back... if it gets real bad it'll creep up my chest and down my arms. ugghhh... So I'm trying to potty train my daughter, diet, lose weight, quit smoking, gave up caffiene, gave up sugar, figure out how we are going to make it through this week with only 20 bucks to our names.... needless to say, I'm stressed. Dunno if I'm going to be able to quit completely at this rate. When I broke out in hives today I started smoking more... had only 5 cigs yesterday.. today it's been more like 15. I got soooo frustrated with Dayanera today and that's when the hives started popping up.
I suck at this potty training thing. Poor kid. I can't do it like my mom says to. I can't make her sit there forever till she goes... She thinks she's being punished.. I have a hard time remembering to sit her down on it every 10 mins cause I'm a busy mom and got stuff to do... I just really suck at it. Why can't they come out potty trained? I always seem to catch her just after she's went in her pull up or let her get up just before she's going to go... She hasn't gone in the potty once... sigh... I wish I could send her to potty training school... LOL... now there's a way someone could make some money... *grin*... I'd pay for it cause I'm lousy at it. Anyway, suggestions would be greatly appreciated... am desperate.
Natalie