Well, I figured today would be a good day for an accountability entry.  I met my goal for last week and lost two pounds, however have not done so good the last couple of days. I had a big history paper, a test, homework, and a final exam to do (all due today.. ugghh). So I have spent the last couple of days nearly immobile in front of the puter. But the homework, tests, and paper are all done. Yay!

I didn't get my workouts in yesterday or today (wed), because of it. I know it's just an excuse and I should have made time. I could still do one tonight before I go to bed, but the truth is I don't want to cause I took a shower this afternoon before I went to school and I don't wanna have to take another one before I go to bed. It's dadblasted cold in here right now. so I am resolving to double my routine for tomorrow.. sigh.. uggh 6 miles instead of 3.. yay... but Dr. Phil says you need to create consequences for your actions. Told Patrick to please gripe at me to get my work out in, in the morning.

I also fell off of the wagon this week. I did a no-no and skipped dinner on Monday night. We were broke so I couldn't buy dinner and I didn't have time to fix something to take. So by the time I got out of class and Patrick got off of work I was so hungry that my stomach hurt. My hubby, who feels like he's severely suffering from the lack of junk food, was in total agreement about going through the drive through at Wendys'. I got a dollar cheese burger and that's it. Had a few of Patrick's french fries. Which wouldn't be so bad but it was a major violation of the no food after 8 rule, considering it was near 11.  Am having a hard time sticking to that one and don't know what to do about it. I am up late most nights, it just can't be helped right now, with school, etc. I fix dinner at about 5 because my kids go to bed at 7:30 and 8:30. Eating that early is really messing me up. by the time 9 or 10 rolls around I'm starving.

On the plus side I've completely weaned myself off of caffeine. For those of you who know me well, know that was a huge thing. I've done it before but always end up backsliding within a couple of months. Am going to stick to it this time. I won't let Patrick buy any Mountain Dew (the necter of the Gods and my second biggest addiction). Am doing pretty good in the sugar arena, considering where I came from there. All the fruit helps keep me from craving it, but have backslided a couple of times. The day before the picnic I had a chocolate muffin and had to do an extra mile because of it. I had a cupcake today and 4 mini cookies. Another reason to do the 6 miles tomorrow. Plus weights with that..

I bought some five pound weights this week. The one thing I've really stuck to well is the toning exercises I do every night while I'm laying in bed. Patrick complains that it makes him feel guilty cause he isn't exercising.. LOL.. as if he really needs to do much? Anyway, I can honestly swear by the toners... I used to (back in the day when I got real thin) do them every night and I got a flat stomach because of them. I stopped doing them cause my ex complained about it (cause I do in bed), so I stopped. Consequently, when I was with the ex is the first time I gained a major amount of weight. I was about the same size as I am now at my heaviest with him. Depression will do that to ya. Anyway, this time I'm not going to let any amount of complaining stop me this time around. I do them in the bed cause I'm old and decrepit and the floor is no where near as comfortable. Am doing 20 leg lifts (crunches? flattens stomach) side leg lifts (tones inner thigh and butt), 20 side kicks ( upper thigh and butt), 20 scissors (flattens stomach), and some stretching to get better mobility.

Well, that's my report so far. Am not weighing myself every day. Was doing that at first but is depressing when you gain a pound over night and Dr. Phil says you fluctuate through out the week. Weighing yourself every day can ruin your progress. So once a week on Monday is when I'm supposed to do it. I should be doing my accountability on Mondays too then, shouldn't I? Well, I did it now cause I've broken some rules and needed to confess. LOL. So please don't answer and tell me it's ok or calories don't count between friends, etc. That's enabling as those of you who know anything about ALANON know. And the very last thing an addict needs is an enabler.

 And the cold hard truth is that I'm an addict. Food is the worst thing to be addicted to.. sigh.. it's not like you can just stop eating. I think quitting smoking is going to be easier than this. I just want it so bad, but I am my own worst enemy. It's all very depressing. Which of course makes me want chocolate or ice cream. LOL. But since I don't have anything like that in the house, I can resist! *grin*

Blessings,

Natalie