Natalie/Em's ramblings

Mmmm, interesting

Have been cruising around reading everyone's blog tonight (avoiding those two papers I need to write. LOL). Everyone seems to be pondering the deeper meaning of things at the moment. Do you think it's because it's spring? A time for new beginnings and deeper thought? LOL. Now that is a worthwhile effort.

It seems that this has been the year for new beginnings. Life has changed in so many ways for everyone, not just me. We all have hit crossroads in our lives this year in some way and took on new facets to our lives. Some of us have started school, found new friends, lost friends, contemplated big life changes, made life style changes, lost loved ones through death or career, and yet here we are. We've grown, changed, found new truths, and are forging ahead for bigger and better things.

Today I feel blessed. I feel blessed for having known all of you, for having you all in my life, and for all the plans that I am able to make towards my future because of the experiences I've had with you and because of you. Amazing how the actions of people can profoundly affect another's life, isn't it? We make ripples with everything we say or do. It can give you a head ache if you think about it too much. LOL.

It's true that not every day is a good day and bad things happen, but we survive and forge ahead. Two days ago I was depressed and today I'm feeling blessed. It's the nature of being human I guess. No one can be any one emotion all the time, but today I feel hopeful.

I've been fighting that little feeling of dread I always get at this time of the year.. LOL, those of you who know me well understand why. We are getting ever closer to my birthday and I'm waiting for the bomb to drop (since it's cursed, you know). I used to ignore all that and try to be hopeful that something good would happen or at least that nothing bad would. In the last couple of years I have taken on a defeatest attitude about my birthday because of all the bad stuff that always happens around it. This year as May 12 approaches, I am going to try to be hopeful. What are the odds that this streak will continue into 30?

Yes that's right, I'll be turning 30. It's hard to believe, I never pictured myself 30, but here it is. And you know, I'm not even depressed about getting older. It just means that I've one more year of experience than I had the last year. It's the stuff that always happens around my birthday that has me scared. LOL. I've been half joking lately about hiding in my house for that whole week and not leaving, but that is not a positive way to react, right? So instead I will just be positive and hope for an uneventful week. No trips to Indiana, no fighting, no one is going to die, no one is going to be sent to prison, I am not and neither is anyone I care about going to get hurt. It's only a date on the calendar. It is not cursed. At least I hope not. LOL.

Just in case it is though, *grin* send some positive energy my way.

Blessings,

Natalie

2006-04-20 04:59:29 GMT

Comments (3 total)

Author:gaiachk

that's right, it will only have the power that you allow it to have. 'bout time the day became a day of joyful energy don't ya think? i mean it is your birthday afterall, take it back!!

2006-04-20 11:23:27 GMT

Author:amani76

I agre with Gaian, MAKE it a good day. Tell everyone if they have bad news to keep it to themselves for the week and don't fret. Do what YOU want to do on that day. Even if that means playing hookey and staying home that day. You have cause to celebrate this year. 30 is just a number hun. It's the age on the inside that really counts. We love you hun, and will help with what we can to make YOUR day special once again.

2006-04-20 13:25:56 GMT

Author:moonfayresherbmagick

I remember when I turned thirty. That seems like an eternity ago. I enjoy reading your blogs simply because it allows us the opportunity of sharing your ups and downs with you and we are all able to see the changes you always make. I agree with Amanda, tell everyone not to bother you with any unsetteling news during that week so that you can enjoy the pleasure of reaching the three-zero. I like that you look at it as another year full of experience. Thank you for the poem you left on my blog, it is beautiful and you know emotional me had to cry. Love ya and see you on sunday.

2006-04-21 02:27:14 GMT

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		It's all about.. well.. whatever I feel like it's about that day.

		Mmmm, interesting Have been cruising around reading everyone's blog tonight (avoiding those two papers I need to write. LOL). Everyone seems to be pondering the deeper meaning of things at the moment. Do you think it's because it's spring? A time for new beginnings and deeper thought? LOL. Now that is a worthwhile effort. It seems that this has been the year for new beginnings. Life has changed in so many ways for everyone, not just me. We all have hit crossroads in our lives this year in some way and took on new facets to our lives. Some of us have started school, found new friends, lost friends, contemplated big life changes, made life style changes, lost loved ones through death or career, and yet here we are. We've grown, changed, found new truths, and are forging ahead for bigger and better things. Today I feel blessed. I feel blessed for having known all of you, for having you all in my life, and for all the plans that I am able to make towards my future because of the experiences I've had with you and because of you. Amazing how the actions of people can profoundly affect another's life, isn't it? We make ripples with everything we say or do. It can give you a head ache if you think about it too much. LOL. It's true that not every day is a good day and bad things happen, but we survive and forge ahead. Two days ago I was depressed and today I'm feeling blessed. It's the nature of being human I guess. No one can be any one emotion all the time, but today I feel hopeful. I've been fighting that little feeling of dread I always get at this time of the year.. LOL, those of you who know me well understand why. We are getting ever closer to my birthday and I'm waiting for the bomb to drop (since it's cursed, you know). I used to ignore all that and try to be hopeful that something good would happen or at least that nothing bad would. In the last couple of years I have taken on a defeatest attitude about my birthday because of all the bad stuff that always happens around it. This year as May 12 approaches, I am going to try to be hopeful. What are the odds that this streak will continue into 30? Yes that's right, I'll be turning 30. It's hard to believe, I never pictured myself 30, but here it is. And you know, I'm not even depressed about getting older. It just means that I've one more year of experience than I had the last year. It's the stuff that always happens around my birthday that has me scared. LOL. I've been half joking lately about hiding in my house for that whole week and not leaving, but that is not a positive way to react, right? So instead I will just be positive and hope for an uneventful week. No trips to Indiana, no fighting, no one is going to die, no one is going to be sent to prison, I am not and neither is anyone I care about going to get hurt. It's only a date on the calendar. It is not cursed. At least I hope not. LOL. Just in case it is though, grin send some positive energy my way. Blessings, Natalie 2006-04-20 04:59:29 GMT Comments (3 total) Author:gaiachk that's right, it will only have the power that you allow it to have. 'bout time the day became a day of joyful energy don't ya think? i mean it is your birthday afterall, take it back!! 2006-04-20 11:23:27 GMT Author:amani76 I agre with Gaian, MAKE it a good day. Tell everyone if they have bad news to keep it to themselves for the week and don't fret. Do what YOU want to do on that day. Even if that means playing hookey and staying home that day. You have cause to celebrate this year. 30 is just a number hun. It's the age on the inside that really counts. We love you hun, and will help with what we can to make YOUR day special once again. 2006-04-20 13:25:56 GMT Author:moonfayresherbmagick I remember when I turned thirty. That seems like an eternity ago. I enjoy reading your blogs simply because it allows us the opportunity of sharing your ups and downs with you and we are all able to see the changes you always make. I agree with Amanda, tell everyone not to bother you with any unsetteling news during that week so that you can enjoy the pleasure of reaching the three-zero. I like that you look at it as another year full of experience. Thank you for the poem you left on my blog, it is beautiful and you know emotional me had to cry. Love ya and see you on sunday. 2006-04-21 02:27:14 GMT Site Home