Hi all, the following is a poem I wrote about my Grandaddy's death. A friend recently had a death happen in her world and I told her I'd post this here. I dunno if it will help her or not, but this is what I went through when he died. I had a whole range of emotions during that time and this poem encompasses all of them. It was a really rough time for me and I still have days where I feel the stuff in the first few lines of the poem.

Blessings,

Natalie/Em

You Can See

Your time was so short here on earth,

A person full of smiles and mirth…

We are put here in this world for lessons to learn and teach,

Today the lesson I’m supposed to learn from your death is out of my reach.

It seems as if you were torn from my life’s path,

All I can feel right now is grief’s terrible wrath.

I want to shout and ask why you?

With all these feelings, I don’t know what to do.

I know that time is supposed to heal,

Today… well, that’s not how I feel.

Today I regret… so many regrets… too many to name,

I should have… I could have… if only… sigh… so much blame.

There are so many things I wish I could say…

It’s too late, you’re gone… there is no way.

But then in the raging storm of anger within my soul,

There is a quiet… something… a whisper? Trying to gain control.

I hush my thoughts and try to hear,

Just a whisper of a warm glow so far and yet so near.

I sit and silently let it grow and grow,

It’s you! How could I not know?

All those things I wish that I had said or I could be,

They don’t matter now… you know… you can see.

Love transcends our time in this space.

It knows no specific time or place.

You know, you understand, you can see,

I love you and you love me.

Differences do not matter in the grand scheme,

Arguments are part of life’s theme.

~Natalie 2006