[wasted]

it is�
not for rapture
  not for pleasure
   not for bliss
it�s only a means
to lose himself in
the murky
  disorienting
   chaos�
and hope he�ll never find himself again.

substance�
make his senses dull
  make his vision blur
and hopefully he�ll forget who he is
and pass out
on the floor,
falling into a dark
deep
  dreamless sleep.

drink the libation�
alcohol lets him escape
lets him forget
  numbs the pain of memories.

down�
more
  more
   more
his life is wasted
and so is he.

passing a mirror
on his way out the door
a glimpse of something is caught�
his reflection.
liquid pools of dark green
stare into his�
and exact copy
revealing hatred
  malice
and the overwhelming truth
that he�s been hiding from himself
for so long.
the green orbs stare at him�
so coldly.
they are empty.
they are void.
  they are dead.

shatter�
a fist immolates an image
better off left forgotten.
a perpetual nightmare
in the form of the crystalline broken pieces
  of his reflection.

blood�
flowing freely from his injured hand.
mingling with the glass shards.
staining his clothes.

irony�
while hurting others
he�s only ended up ruining himself

and the broken pieces of his life
are left behind as he walks outside
into the dark alley�
out into the rain
where he runs through the puddles,
fiery hair disheveled,
and emerald eyes frightened

he�s running from himself.

and water mingles with
the crimson blood on his hand�
let it wash away
as if it would also wash away the pain

echoes of his thoughts
are left in the puddle,
whispering
  screaming:
i hate what i�ve become.

--Emerald Eyes
06.03.01.

This was inspired by the Stabbing Westward song, �Wasted.� They really aren�t anything alike, but I guess if you listen to the lyrics and then read my poem you can see some similarities between the two. ^_^
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