These procrasination
efforts are evil. *sighs* Then again... it's either Rembrant being evil now or
evil in LP and that would be bad.
Title: ?
Author: Mair (I know that one!)
Archive: Hell yes! Lemme know where so I can praise your many virtues!
Genre: Drama
Pairings: 1+2
Warnings: Angst. Slight ooc... maybe...
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There is music pounding
into every inch of my body. I can feel the base throbbing along my backbone
passing through me. People are dancing everywhere, having a good time. They are
enjoying the peace paid for with our bodies.
I don't know why I'm here
still. I came in search of life. I came in search of company. I came in search
of oblivion. I've found nothing.
One night, back durring
the war, we didn't have any missions and some of the students from the school we
were staying at knocked on our door. They told us to get dressed because we were
going out. Well, Duo actually said that. They only came for him and got me as
well.
We came to a place like
this one. The scent of perfume, sweat and seduction almost palatable as we
walked through the door. Later I asked Duo why he went. He said that he needed
to loose himself in the music, forget who he was. He said he needed to feel
alive and not to worry about having anyone die. It made sense at the time.
Now I'm standing off to
the side, watching the crowds of dancing individuals and seeing empty shells
performing automatic functions. I don't see life. I don't see how I can forget
even if I did dance. I don't see how I could have company when no one knows
anyone and no one seems to care.
I came looking to find
Duo. I spoke to Quatre a week ago. He didn't know where he was. Trowa didn't
either. They seemed surprised that I didn't know. I told them how Wufei left and
then how I realized that I needed something to do so I set about enrolling in
school. I ended up having to leave Duo behind. I knew he would make new friends,
ones that wouldn't find him so anoying like I thought I did.
I was wrong. After a
month of being at the school I really began to miss him. I kept expecting him to
waltz into the room and start chattering away. So I went back to the house we
all stayed at but it was empty. I called and didn't get any answers.
Now I'm here, feeling
empty, trying to feel alive and failing. Instead... I feel... alone. The room is
packed with people and I'm alone. I could be out there in the throng and I'd
still be alone.
I hoped he hadn't left
town but apparently he has. He would be here if he was still here. He would be
here, feeling alive and forgetting. I don't want him to forget. Correction. I
don't want him to forget me. He is the only one who makes me human, makes me
feel. If he forgets me then I am truely gone. I need him.
I turn away from the
crowd and head toward the door. He left nothing behind to suggest where he went.
I have to find him. I don't want to be alone anymore.
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Mair: *looks at rembrant
suspiciously* This is starting to look like a series Rem... What are you doing?
Rembrant: *whistles*
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