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here's just sumthin i wrote recently. was supposed to be recorded as a song but i thought it wud be better left like it this..

It Hurts To Know…

I tried to be patient; I tried not to look,

Somehow my eyes were captured again, you read me like a book.

I’m captivated, can’t seem to put anything above you,

And it hurts to know I can’t say I love you.

While I’m going crazy, I know that you’re not,

And you know that I’m dependant on you, like a loose knot.

I know our wants don’t match, but please listen,

You’re all I want and it’s always you I’ve been missing…

You made me happy, and you made me sad,

But no matter what I felt I still wanted to you bad.

Songs that I wrote, they were all the truth,

And damn it hurts to know, I can’t say I love you.

I see couples holding each other, and we’re doing the same,

But how can I be happy, when we’re not feeling the same.

Whatever it was to you, it was heaven to me,

And when I first kissed you, I was changed emotionally.

I want to forget, but you’re always there everyday,

And damn how I wish you felt the same way.

Your pretty face is always in my head,

And the sexy way that you talk keeps driving me mad.

I’m thinking of you and our memories passed,

And I’m wondering if my feelings for you will ever last.

You broke my heart, when you said what I didn’t want you ever to say,

I wanted to go with the flow, but the river’s not flowing my way.

Now I have to say good bye, even though I don’t want to,

‘Cause baby it hurts to know, I can’t say I love you…

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and here's another one..

She

She holds me, she hugs and she kisses me,

But how come she never says that she misses me.

I’m head over heels, and I’ve been keeping it inside,

Like a prisoner who screams madly whenever there is light.

I want a replacement, but no one can replace she,

If there was another girl, then I would kill to be in place of he.

In front, she would see me smile and laugh,

But the real me is when all of that have left.

It’s so painful, to see her so ignorant of the fact,

That I love her so much that it would make me regret.

But maybe she wasn’t ready, but then so was I,

And what am I to do, when I can’t stop looking into her eyes?

Whenever I look at her, she looks away,

And we’re so distant even though she’s only a phone call away.

I’ve always been blind, of what to see and do,

And why I’m writing all this, I don’t even have a clue.

I can’t let go but I have to,

‘Cause if I loved you more than I did, then it would hurt you.

Our relationship, and myself too.

Why do I have a feeling that this will never work?

When saying things I meant from the heart, now sounds absurd?

But maybe one day…

Maybe you will feel the same way, one day.

If god wanted me to stop hurting, then I would see you,

Telling these words softly and gently to me: “I love you too.”

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Have a nice day =)