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11/23/01 10:25PM -It's the day after Thanksgiving and I've just come home from a long day of shopping. My Thanksgiving wasn't exactly traditional by any means. I don't think that my family and I have had a traditional Thanksgiving dinner in 7-10 years. Lately it's just been a family lunch (wich consists of varied home-cooked food and fried cornish game hen instead of turkey -since it usually goes to waste), followed by a long nap and a day of vegging out. This year wasn't that much different. We had a fmaily lunch at Hometown Buffet. There I got my fill of turkey, mashed potatoes, mac n'cheese, dessert...etc... at a local all you can eat restaraunt. After that my mom had an itch to go gambling. So while my sister and father ventured home in one car, my mom and I took off in another car to Barona Casino. I hate gambling with a passion and I only go to keep my mom company because I love her and supposedly every time I go with her I bring her luck. I alwys lose money (usually between $20-40), but my mom always manages to come out on top when I go with her. Anyway, since I detest gambling, I usually end up just sitting next to her, staring off into space as she enjoys her time in front of the video slot machines. This usually goes on for 3-9 hours depending on what day it is and what time we get started. Yestaerday I was there from 2:30PM till about 9PM. That's 7 hours of sitting on my ass in a casino, all for the love of my mother. Geez!   My mom better realize what a good daughter I am!!!
Today I woke up at 7:30AM to go shopping with my friends. It was a very painful awakening for me because I have not been sleeping well and have not been sleeping enough for the past few weeks. The scary things is, when I turned on the radio I was hearing that people were already on the road to go shopping, or had already finished shopping for the day. All I have to say to that is "YOU SICKOS!!! Go back to bed!!!" We eventually headed out to Ontario Mills (a giant mall) and arrived there at about 10:30AM and proceeded to shop till about 6PM. Though we were very tired and exhausted - we still hadn't hit all the stores we possibly could have. We quit shopping out of exhaustion and hunger.   After that we headed over to Little Saigon in hopes of finding a decent dinner and also finding some nice jewelry for my friend's X-mas gift. The mall was unfortunatelty closed my the time we got there (delays due to traffic) - so we found a nearby restaraunt, ate, then headed home. I've only been home for a few hours now, but I am simply...tired. I'm going to bed soon, but wanted to share my day. In a cruel twist of fate, My workplace requires me to work tomrrow. So though I may fall asleep soon, and though it is still technically Thanksgiving Break, I will still not be able to get ehough sleep. I will have to wake up at about 7AM tomorrow in order to drive 45 to a client's home and arrive there by 8:30AM to provide therapy for their child. I will work till 2PM and my day will then continue with hanging out with freinds and typing up reports of one of the other kids I work with. "sigh* It never stops.   I cannot wait till Feb. I'm going to NYC again and possibly Boston too. =) I will need the break when it comes.
11/11/01 11:05PM - How is it possible that though I am surrounded by good family, great friends; though I know I am respected, loved, and looked up to - that I feel so terribly lonely and stupid. I've complained about it before, and I think I'll rent about it again. It's tough to be me at times. Everyone has their own problems - I know. One cannot compare the quality of a person's problems against another's because eveyone has their own stories to tell and their own different situations. I am just bummed bacuse I'm tired of being the "mother figure," the "stong one," "the ringleader." I want to just be able to relax and be ignorant of all the chaos around me. I want to not want anything. I also want to be able to talk about my emotioanl dillemas and problems with my freinds without feeling like I'm burdening them or inconveniencing them. I want to be happy and content with the way my lfe is going. But I'm not. I know it. It's time for a change, I'm just still trying to figure out how to go about it.
I went to a hockey game yesterday with a few of my friends. It was a ton of fun! I'd do it again anyday. Perhpas later in the season when the Gulls are playing another home game. I love hockey. Though I'm not certain of all the rules - I enjoy the fast-paced action and the occasional fights and bloodshed. It's a man-sport, right up there with Rugby.
11/05/01 12:45PM - I got into yet another accient the other day, so I've been busy dealing with that shit. I also have been going out on weekends with my freinds. What fun! I'll let you know more details eventually, but i'm too lazy to type. I just re-updated a few things in my web page , but there really isn't any dramatic changes or differences - just a lot of rearranging and consolidation.
11/01/01 10:20PM - About two nights ago, shortly before midnight PST there was a 5.1 earthquake centered right outside Riverside. I always wake up just before an earthquake and I totally felt that one. Funny thing is, I was so sleepy and knocked out that I thought it was a part of my dream. I didn't move or get up from bed - I just fell right back asleep and incorporated it into my dreams. The next day everyone was talking about and earthquake and I had to think to myself - WAS that a real earthquake I felt? DOH! I am such a dork!
10/30/01 8:53PM - I am so sleepy! I have had the fastest weekend ever! For the past week or so I've been getting about 3-4 hours of sleep a night. I'd sleep at 3AM and wake up around 6:30AM. It's amazing I still function under those conditions. Saturday I went to see Les Miserables with a few of my friends. It's the second time for me and the first time for everyone else. The first time for me was at Toronto, Canada when I was in Jr High. I absolutely love that play. It's my favorite of all the play's I've seen. I have to CD and for the first several times I listened to it, I cried every time Eponine died. It's soo bittersweet *sniff, sniff*. Sunday I went out with Emily for a bit of shopping in the afternoon. I was looking for a few X-mas presents for family, freinds, and of course , myself ! ;) I ended up buying a pair of GAP slacks and GAP Pink eau de toilette for my sister. The next day I returned the pants becuase I simply do not need any more clothes. That day I ended up just crashing and going to sleep at 7PM until 6AM the next day.
Monday i decided to go to the Getty museum. So after eating lunch and getting ready I drove a little over 2 hours to find out that the Getty is closed on Monday. Grrr. So I did more shopping instead. I returned a few thngs, I bought a few things - but overall I think it was a productive day for me. This evening I had a holiday party at work. I was a fairy princess. Now this princess needs to get a little beauty rest. I'm totally famished! Goodnight.
10/14/01 12:40AM - So yeah, I know I am lagging on those Europe pictures. But frankly, I doubt many people come look at my website, or could care less about the pictures I put up. So you will all just have to wait. Cuz until I get some derannged fans of my website, banging at my door for those pictures - they're not egtting posted anytime soon. I'm actually waiting for my sister to finish her scrap book of our trip, then I'm going to steal her pictures to scan in. hehehe.
In the interim, I've just been very busy. It's like a whirlwind of event and it's been fun, yet tiring. Eventually Friday, I just had to give up and crash for an evening. I've been working crazy hours for work, and it's been interesting adjusting to my scheduale and trying to find ways to occupy my time. I've been also working on my sister's web page of James pictures. That's coming along quite nicely. The only problem is, I have to consult her for her approval on all the content, and that's a major pain in my rear. Oh well. Yesterday (or the day before- whatever Sat night) a few friends and I went to club Montage (which concidentally is "gay night" that night). We had some freinds that wanted to go, and I had a good time last tiem I went with this freind so I agreed. We met up with a freind of Emiy's roomate and had a total blast! I didn't even get home till 4:30AM! Today I went shopping and bought 2 whole t-shirts. Whoa. How exciting.
In the interim between now and the last update, ny nephew turned 1. So I've been watching his new videos that my sister sent over, and looking at all his pictures. He's totally cute. I'm going to head to bed now. I promise when my sister gets her photo album put together, I'll post those Europe pictures.
09/23/01 7:15PM - So far the pictures from Europe have been developed. I just have to get around to scanning them in. My friend and her longtime boyfreind of two years broke up and I've been helping her deal with the situation. We've been talking about dating, rebound relationships, and guys in general. So here's what I've decided. Guys don't date girls like me. I think I'm destined to be single for the rest of my life. I dunno. I'ts like I'm too self-assured and I am too independent for guys. They get scared off. They want to date "girly-girls" who they can help and who they can be the "manly-man" to. I will probably always be the friend or "chick" on the side they turn to for help and advice. but never to object of their affection. Pretty sad, huh? It's completely irrational, yet it makes so much sense. Why else have I not dated or been asked out in the 3 years of being single? In the 3 weeks of her being single, a handful of guys have already come knocking on her doorstep. It makes me somewhat envious of hr in some ways. It gets lonely after a while. I just need smeone with a level-head who can see past all my barriers and understand that I am just as vulnerableas any other girl on the street on the inside. Blah.   I'm depessed now. I think I'm going to go and have some ice cream. That will make me feel better. =)
09/12/01 9:56PM - I couldn't bring myself to write yesterday. I was just in such a numb state, it would not have been worthwhile for me to write. I've been too tired, lazy and Jet lagged to write about my trip to Europe, but it all doesn't seem to matter as much now. I'll save the Europe uodate for when the pictures are developed, but for now I'm just too stunned and speechless. I think this link and the pictures there prety much sum it all up. The good news is that my sister Roz and her family are safe. She unfortunately had to walk over 4 hours to get home. But she's safe and that's all that matters. Lan was travelling in New York. I would have gone with her, but her travel plans overlapped with my vacation in Europe. She was staying with my freind Jenny not too far from Penn Station and was just in the Wall Street area the day before the Twin Towers were struck (the day before yesterday). Luckly they had left NYC and had gone to jersey the night before to visit some of Jenny's freind. True to Lan's habits, she had been asleep. She's safe and sound with her boyfreind in CT. *phew* I was so worried for several hours. I couln't get though to neither Lan nor my sister all day on their phines and cell phones. They were able to call out, but nobody could seem to call in. Think of it - It's possible I could have been headed towards NYC on the 10th or 11th to join Lan if I didn't have to go to work. It's very eerie and frightening. I'd still want to live there, but i'm not sure it would ever be the sma enow that I know what's happened. You used to be able to see the Empire State building and the Twin Towers from my sister's bedroom window. I wonder that that view will be replaced with in the future.