08/16/01 1:25PM - AHHH!!! I just won a new car! Yippee!!! To see a picture of me click here. I haven't picked up the car or seen it yet, but i'll try to get a picture of it up ASAP. 08/14/01 10:15PM - Fuck! My dad was refinancing his loan on the house when he discovered that I owe a credit card debt on our joint account. I pay my bills very month, but because of things in the past, and some necessary expenses (that I would rather have foregone) I wasn't able to pay things off in one lump sum. So yeah. He's not a happy camper. I just tell him it's from school and car repairs. He'll buy that, right? In any case, things will be better..eventually... I'll be able to pay things off now that I'm working full time. I've always paid more than the minimum balance (anything I can afford to pay really), and I'll be making 2 payments a month now that my paycheck is larger (at least until I get my student loan info). In any case, if I make the payments I'm panning to make each month, and if I take the extra part time job I'm thinking of taking, things should work out. In the interim, I have to call another credit card comepany (one that I never use) and see about getting a balance transfer to tide me over (so my dad gets off my back)...hmm.. dillemas..dillemas... I saw the most terrrible and disgusting thing the other day. On the way home from an outing with one of my kids' parents , the mom suddenly stopped and said "I have to take a quick look, I think it's what I think it is..." So she makes a 3 point turn and turns into a cul-de-sac loacted off the main road on her route home. To my dismay and shock what we saw (what caused this woman to stop and turn around) was a noose that these people had put on their lawn. They made a wooden frame and hung a noose from it, then had the nerve to display it on their front yard. Apparently the home belongs to some German white supremacists. When the home next to them was up for sale, and a minority couple wanted to purchase the home - they displayed Nazi memorabelia and hung a Swastika flag. *shivers* Apparently the real estae agent who recently sold the house on the corer of their cul-de-sac is colored; and we now wonder if the family moving in is a minority family. In any case I'm just very appalled and shocked someone could make such a blatant display of hatered. The sad thing is that these people will have children, and their children will be taught to hate others based on their parent's prejudices. It's a sad, sad, world we live in. I'm tempted to make a big sign that says "Go back to Germany where you came from." The way I figure is, if you're not able to embrace the American "melting pot" ideology, then you shouldn't be here. In any case, any protests raised will only fail since the noose is located on their privat property, and "freedom of speech" and whatnot. Dammit... On a happy note, i got a surprise call from my freind from Boston, Chad. I always am happy to hear from him. he's a very good friend, living a very good life with his girlfreind in Boston. Life is good. It makes me want to move to the East Coast sooner so we can hang out together more often. He used to come home every summer, but now that his parents moved to Rhode Island, and he has graduated from Boston College - there really is no reason to go back to San Diego. I don't blame him, SD is BORING!!! In any case, hopefully, I'll be able to raise funds to pay off stuff and move out to "the Big Apple" in about 2 years. Wish me luck! 08/10/01 7:00PM - I'm supposed to be typing a quarterly report for one of the cases I'm on, but I really don't feel like doing it right now. Maybe later tonight when I can't sleep I'll do it. I'm such a procrastinator. In the meantime, I am kinda bummed out with one of the parents that i work with. I recently got a case with a high functioning 4 year old boy. I've been on his case for 2 weeks, and it has been quite apparent from day one that they did not like me. I was just told by one of my supervisors today that they have all but requested me off their child's case. In some wasy I'm relieved. I am already working on a few cases where the child's parents are watching over me like a hawk. I'm constantly making sure that I dont my i's and cross my t's. Well these parents are constatnly intruding and hovering over me like vultures waiting for a dead carcass. The reason that they don't like me is because I am new (both to the company and to the case) and they are aversive to any form of change. My supervisor recognizes this and knows that I'm doing my best. In addition, I know that she has my back because she is annoyed with them and not me. =) Horray for that. I'm just more or less bummed out that they aren't really willing to give me a chance and have already passed negative judgement on me based on sessions where I'm only just starting to get to know their child and and know how their child best performs. This treatement has been apparent in my last few session with their child as well as the clinic I attended for that child. The mother was constanlty making a point to say things in kindergarten language for me, and telling me that i should or should not do this and that..yadda..yadda..yadda... In any case, I've been forewarned that I may be taken off this case, but not because it's my fault - or because I'm a bad therapist - but because a child's parents have formed a negative impression of me based on first apprearances, rather than my talents. I'm going to miss that kid. he's cute, and he can pretend! My dad is mad at this. He says it's discrimination, and in a way I can see it is somewhat like discrimination - but I cannot run away from all the cases where the parents don't like me. I have to just trudge on and do my best. On a positive note, I know I have the support of my supervisor. Yippee! So Tuesday and Thursday a senior therapist is going to overlap with me on the case. I totally have to be good that day. Now I have to think of some really good pretend ideas. I think saving the princess from a castle would be a good one. We can also play tag and hide-n go-seek.. stuff like that.... He likes to play cops and robbers, and pirates - but he does that all the time, and I'd really like to do something different for him each time. 08/01/01 6:15PM - I'm going to get a CD player in my car! Yay! The best part about it, is that it's free! Yippee! Perfect for poor little me. =) My friend Cherlyn recently got a new car and her dad took over her old car. Her old car had a CD player installed, but one that didn't have a tape deck. For some obscene reason, her dad wants the tape deck re-installed. So i get to have her CD player. Hey! It works for me. I have no shame. I'll take hand-me-down electronics (and pretty much hand-me-down anything for that matter). I'm poor, I'm cheap - I have come to terms with myself and realize I cannot afford many of the things I want - so I wait for them to come to me for free. =) No more listening to crappy sh*t on the crappy overplayed radio stations here in San Diego. Finally I get to listen to music of my own choosing. You have no idea how exciting this is for me. I am thinking of just ditching my pager and getting a cellurlar phone plan soon. I've been using my phone more and more lately and it seems so redundant to have to pay both a phone and a pager bill each month. I've just renewed my pager for a year, but maybe they can transfer the balance to my cellular phone rates. Hmm.. I'll have to go check that out. I might go do that tomorrow. One of my clients is on vacation, and another one keeps cancelling. Suddenly I find myself with a lot more time on my hands, and i'm using that time to run errands I should have done last month. Wow. I am so productive. 07/17/01 9:00 PM - Hmmm.. What can I say? It's not as if I have had a lack of things to update, or the lack of words; I'm just very lazy. There have been many occasions that I've sat in front of this computer pondering what I sould write, but just never got around to actually typing in the details. Such is the story of my life. Now that i amctaully sitting here, typinf an update, I've forotten all I've had to say. Go fig. I guess you could say that things are going pretty well. I am working full time now at work, and I've had two positive things noted on my record. (I also have one bad thing refer to 06/21/01) Umm.. What else? I graduated, but you guys knew that already. Life didn't change that much after I graduated, but in a way it did. I still have no idea at times what I'm going to do with myself, now that I don't have to go to the library and study all the time. Nowadays I just run around all day like a chicken with it's head cut off - going to clients and meetings. By the time I get home, I just relax. So far I've been reading books, upon books, upon books- for leisure. I am still such a nerd. I'm just hoping in a few years I'll be a sucessful nerd in my field, getting into a good grad school. I feel as if regardless of me graduating, my life will forever be tied to school. I saw the NSync concert yesterday. It was pretty cool. 5 little guys and a REALLY BIG stage. In some ways I think the effects were cool, and they used the area they had really well. On the other hand, they are 5 little guys on a really big stage - they totally wasted their money. I shouldn't exaclty complain though, it WAS a good show. Someday, when I have money to burn, i want a mechanical bull like the one they had, and also the REALLY BIG Patrick the Pup dog from FAO Schwartz. I already have a big Patrick the Pup - but I want the REALLY BIG one too. =) My friend Peter and I hung out the other day,talking about our lives and our relationships. We're similar in some ways, and yet no so. We have similar personalities, and we've both grown up faster and have more responsibilites than most kids our age. However, Peter is able to still balance his personal and social life, meet people,and have a good time. I'm envious of him, but I also admire him for being able to find that balance - besides, he deserves all the happiness and good times life has to offer him. I'm not going to bitch about my social life or lack thereof, I'm going to bitch about my opportunites to meet men. It's been 3 years people! Come on! I need to go out again. I need to find that balance and find myself a new partner. I'm not going to rush it though. I'm not going to settle like I did the first time. My friend Raj once questioned me "How do you know what you want, and what qualities are right for you?" I think I know what I want, and I've always had a strong intuition. It's both a blessing and a curse, but I'm going to have to listen to it from now on, regardless of what my heart may say. I think of my parents and how lucky they are. They met in Jr High, and they are still together and still love eachother. Wow.... I hope to find that someday; but in todays society; where divorce is as common as chewing gum - I'm not holding my breath. This week is going to be a busy one, but on the positive side, my nephew is coming to town! YAY!!! This is all I can think to type about for the moment. |
