I visit a few web pages regularly. I have noticed that some of their creators have put up little holiday wish lists from amazon.com. At first I thought it was a cool idea, so I went to the site and picked a bunch of stuff that i thought I really wanted, or I thought would come in handy. Then I realized, "Who is going to guy me all the crap?" I figure, I don't really know the traffic that flows though this page. I doubt my real freinds actually visit, so basically I'm telling random strangers to buy me stuff. It seems a bit odd. I'm not too comfortable with the idea still, but posted it anyway...Just because I already went to the trouble of picking stuff out. What the heck? So long as nobody is expecting anything in return...
Howard made me dinner yesterday. I thought it was rather nice of him. I treated him to ice cream in return. He goes to school with me at UCSD and is 1 year below me. We make fun of the professors we've had. Yesterday he showed me his friend's website, and I must admit - it was a fun and creative website. On it, there was a link that said "I made $12,689,475 in 31 days and so can you." It was a "virtual drug dealer game." Totally hillarious (although personally I don't take drugs, nor do I advocate drug use/sales). I made $643,639. not too shabby.
I was watching MTV today (I was killing time), when Sade's new song came on. What a lovely song it is. I wanted to just rock to the melody of the music. She has a wonderfully thick, and rich voice. I think I could fall asleep listening to her CD's. I remember when "Smooth Operator" came out for the first time. What an awesome song. I was in my little Jazzy phase listening to Basia and thinking I was so hip. =)
Oh when you're cold, I'll be there, hold you tight, to me.
When you're low, I'll be there, by your side, baby. - Sade "By Your Side"
12/13/00 2:16AM - I'm beginning to update obsessively. I always feel as if I have to say something, add a little more; but when I get here I go blank. It's 48 degrees right now in San Diego. BRR! I didn't think it was ever supposed to get this cold here. Oh well. If it's this cold here I can only imagine what NY will be like.
My mom asked me about grad school, graduating, and money today. I think that for the first time in a long time, she realizes that I'm lost as to what my future plans are. At this point all I know is that I want to move away to NY. I'll finish my degree and go back to school eventually, but I can't guarantee it will be for my msaters or pHD in Psychology. I think my mom knew all along I should have been a literature or journalism major. But what can I do with those degrees??? Teach??? Me??? Yeah right! Mother always knows best, doesn't she?
I really need to get to sleep. I'm tired. Suuure... I'll probably still be up for another hour or two,
12/12/00 6:06 AM - Usually I'm not up this early in the morning, but I kept having really bad dreams, and my stomach is killing me! So let me share recent events with you. The "situation" (it is a way to put it, but definately not a way to describe what's going on, nor does it put a value on what's been unraveling) with my friend will, I think, remain unresolved for some time. My friend needs to take a break, and re-evaluate their definition of friendship to find out who their freinds really are. I guess it's something we all eventually have to do at one point or another. I have extended my "olive branch" - all I can do is sit and wait. I have a feeling I know how things are going to turn out. Sometimes I really hate knowing things...
Peter and I hung out for the first time in a really long time. We went shopping, told stories, ran errands. It was cool. We hadn't done that in a while. Usually he has more stories to tell than me, but I can't help the fact I don't have much of a social life. After finding we actually didn't need to purchase anything, Peter offered to get me drunk. Now, getting me drunk has been on the adgenda of all my freinds for quite some time. Since I tured 21, I have yet to do any serious bar hopping (well, at least in SD), nor have I really done any serious drinking. So when the opportunity arose, I took it. I had about 3 pints of cider, a Vodka tonic (straight out nasty), and some fruity mixture the bartender made (weird tasting). By my 3rd pint of cider I was starting to feel dizzy, by my last drink I was not really able to walk straight (I was actually able to walk straight, but it felt funny), nor control my motor skills (and I had to pee a lot!!!! - Cursed small bladder!) . Peter drove me home - I was able to walk up to my door, get myself in the house and get ready for bed. It wasn't until about 1 hour after being dropped off that I was feeling the full effects. I was staggering and stumbling to the bathroom and I was totally dizzy. I dind't puke though! Yippee! It was kind of fun, and funny - but I don't see how people can do this on a regular basis.
I am still kind of feeling the effects of the alcohol. I'm still a little dizzy (I wouldn't call it "hung-over"), and I'm feeling a weird sensation in my stomach. I'll probably just eat some bread and then go back to bed. I just wanted to be sure and share this all with you while I can - you know, before I forget and before my dad needs the computer. I got the proofs from my graduation pictures back yesterday. That was the "Me" update from the night before. I look horrble and fat, but oh well. They're up for your viewing pleasure. Once I get the final copy, I'll post that up in replacement of the proofs. I think this is all for now. I have a lot on my mind I really want to share, but for now I don't think this is the place nor the time. Eventually I'll begin posting my thoughts again, right now I just want to sleep. =)
12/11/00 11:28PM - I'm drunk and I'm trying to type...not good. I updated my "ME" page... I think I'm going to sleep now.... I'll share more tomorrow, I promise!
12/10/00 10:34PM - I hurt a friend today. Usually when people get upset at me, it doesn't bother me all that much because thay don't know me, or they aren't that close to me. This time I'm a bit upset and disturbed. This is a freindship I sincerely treasure. I don't want to go into details. I only hope that if my freind is reading this, they will understand and know that I would never hurt them intentionally. It pains me to know that I have hurt someone I care about so much.....
12/10/00 2:29AM - Why am I up??? I re-did the layout for my pictures and put up pictures from Lan's birthday. There isn't really much to share right now. Perhaps I'll be able to tell you something interesting after I go shopping tomorrow....
12/07/00 7:47 PM - FREE AT LAST!!! FREE AT LAST!!! No more teachers. No more books. No more teacher's dirty looks.... Well at least in theory until January 8th. I got like 2 hours of sleep, read 2 textbooks, and typed what was supposed to be a 5 page paper last night. *WHEW* Needless to say after my thurd and last final today, I raced home and just went to be for like 3 hours. It's so weird. I wasn't really all that sleepy until about 3PM. The whole day I just had the munchies and I felt thirsty all the time. So after snacking on cookies and chips all day, I am finally now just eating a decent meal. My first meal of the day at almost 8PM.
So I was wondering, who comes by and reads the stuff I put up here anyway??? Is it just my freinds, random people? I think it would be cool and yet almost scary to find out. I've been writing again. I'll post them eventually. I have to do a bit of polishing first. 16 days till New York!!! 18 days till X-mas!!! Oh crap! I've got to finish my shopping!
12/06/00 3:10PM - Tomorrow is the day of my finals. I have like 2 textbooks to read and review, along with a 5 pager paper to type. I am so PISSED right now. I was trying to study last night, when all the sudden we had a blackout. From 1:-4AM-5:30AM!!!!!!!! Do you know how much studying I could have done? Also this afternoon, the power has gone out like twice already. I am going to add "flashlight" to my Christmas list. I just hope that one of my freinds reads this and gets me a friggin flashlight before I go crazy! I need one of those Mag-lite type flashlights with a lot of power and REALLY BRIGHT. Needless to say, I'm going to be typing my paper on the laptop tonight. I'll be htting that <Ctrl-S> button after every other paragraph or so. Okay... enought venting for now. I have to get back to my books.
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