11-13-00 - 11:15PM - I was chatting with a friend and he said that I should try to update my page more often,and to include my thoughts in my journal. One of my main complaints is that my life tends to be tedious and repetitive; since my thoughts are not, it will alleviate some of those issues... At least in theory. First let's begin with events that have happened since the last update. I was supposed to take my senior year pictures, but that appointment got cancelled. You have no idea how pissed I was about that. The photographers didn't even bother to contact people..they just never showed. How much does that suck? Cherlyn's brother had his wedding reception. Congrats to Minh and his wife, Tran! The reception was lovely, and a TON of people came. It was pandemonium, but eventually everything worked out. Other than that it was just the work and school routine.
I felt so sick today after Latin Dance class. I think I'm coming down with something. I had so many errands to run, but had to abandon most of them and rush home. I felt as if I was going to throw up and/or faint. It's kinda scary driving while feeling that way. Eventually I got home, got some rest and ate some food. Now I'm happy again.. back to research. Yippee? As I was eating, my dad said that I literally looked green. He attributes it to lack of sleep. I attribute it to lack of food. Oh well... The situation has passed and it's time to move on. (Now I'm going to get a scolding from all of my freinds who actually read this..." You shoudl take better care of yourself!!!" "You should be eating more!" "You should rest more!" ... I know... I know...)
Lately I've been complacent about school. I'm really not that happy as a psychology major. It was a major which suited my interests..by default. I think I would have been much happier as a chemistry major, but in the end, I doubt that either one of those majors will have a substanial role in my future. What I'll probably end up doing is getting my masters/PHD in psychology. If I get a career in that field which will fulfill me, great! Otherwise I'll probably try to get a small job at some magazine and try to work my way up the ladder. I think writing/communications/entertainment is where I'm headed. At least..that's what I think at this moment.
I'm very apprehensive and scared about grad school. What if I don't get in? I don't really have the passion for my major...What if I fail? I think I'm too determined to let myself fail..but what about the getting in part? I will be taking at least 1 year off after I graduate, to relax, get my bearings...etc.... I hope to go to school in either NYC, Boston or SF. I don't know what schools yet... I just want to go. Probably not a good way to start, huh? Hahah! I'll figure something out. I always do.
The election controversy is still going on. I wonder what the oucome will be. If this race has taught us anything, it is that our vote DOES count. The future of America is in your hands.... Sounds cheezy, but it's true. I better get back to studying. ARGH! When does the torture end? I will definately be loking forward to NY!
BTW.. I saw the Wallflowers cncert the other night. It was okay. Jacob Dylan was a hottie, but skinny as heck. You know how poeple usually like to tell stories at concerts? You know, to entertain the crowd and lead intot he next song? Well Jacob Dylan was very awkward about that sort of stuff. He's babble on about random things that didn't make any sense. Artists..Go fig.
I'm not too sure if I want to get all philosophical or "deep" on my web page yet. I'm not too sure i'm ready to expose myself like that. perhaps it's my lack of confidence, or my insecurities..perhaps I just don't want o give too much away about myself. I dunno. Mystery tends to add charm. So perhaps my entries should be like a short skirt... Just enough content to get your attention, but breif enough to leave the rest up to imagination. However, it does kinda freak me out sometimes that random strangers could be coming onto my site and reading about me and my life. Isn't it amazing how the internet has revolutinized the way people communicate and meet? Ok back to studying... for now...
11-08-00 11:05AM - With the help of my mom, I'm trimming and re-dyeing my hair. I think it's time to go back to my nautral color. My hair has not been normal since I was in high school. Yesterday was the big election date. It's quite scary to think that the two choices for who will be running our country are total and complete idiots. I can only see them as puppets for the party and special interest groups they represent. The again, what politician isn't? I couln't bring myself to vote for either of them. I ended up voting for Nader. Yeah..I know he will lose. Indepentent parties usually do... But I just couln't vote for Gore or Bush. I am the few..The proud..and part of the 4%! =) I wonder when the turning point was, back when Americans still believed in their politicians..when did we all become so disillusioned? BTW.. Remember that paper I was writing a few days ago? (See entry 10/26) I actually got an "A" on that. How kickass!
11-05-00 9:42PM - Last weekend was...errr.. okay. For the most part my Fridays and Saturdays are uneventful since I work, and I really don't want to talk about Sunday. The weekend was pretty much the same, bland, repetitive stuff. Just a lot of work. I was supposed to study with Peter today, but he forgot and flaked on me. Typical. He has always got his mind somewhere else. I'll forgive him though, he's a double major and always has a ton of crap to do.
My sister and I went to see the Mum festival they were having at te San Diego Wild Animal Park. Basically they spread out a bunch or really colorful flowers thoughout the park, and towards the entrance/exit, they had a few topiary scluptures and displays set up. I hadn't been there in ages and forgot about how huge it was. We went on the tram ride and saw a baby rhino that was just born two weeks ago. Those things are tiny when they're babies! It was just like a little grey ball, and very cute.
I'm basically procrastinating again. I have a ton of reading and researching i should do..but I really don't want to do. I feel that this weekend ought to be a relaxing, well deserved break for me and all my hard work this week. I'm really excited though, on 11/09, I'm going to go see the Wallflowers in concert. That should be fun! That Jacob Dylan sure tured out to be WAY cuter than his dad. ;) I still have to figure out where the venue is. oops...
10-26-00 8:45AM - I am supposed to be typing up a 5-page paper on cannibalism in children's fairy tales. So far I have typed up 1 page of BS in 30 min, but that was about 1 hour ago. Thus I have been unproductive for about 1/2 hour, and time is running out. It has been a very frustrating week for me. I've had midterms for the past few weeks, and I have a paper due in one class or another in the following weeks to come. I'm beginning to curse the UC system in int's frivoulous writing and GE requirements. I curse the quarter system even more for trying to squeeze a whole lot of stuff in to very little time. I think either the stress is getting to me or I shouldn't have had Taco Bell last night. I felt really sick and had to sleep instead of working on my paper. My migraine headache is back, but at least the nausea has subsided. I'm still trying to figure out what I want to write about. I have an outline typed up, but I am at a loss as to what I want to say. Wish me luck.. I'll definately need it!
10-10-00 8:15PM - I'm conteplating what my topics will be for 3 research papers I have to write. Sounds like a lot of fun, eh? I'm actaully quite lost. I have absoluely no clue what to write about. That's probably not a good thing, is it? I have turned in some tenative ideas to my professors, hopefully they will be giving me feedback soon (or else I'm SOL).
I drove my sister to the airport today at 5:30AM. She won a trip to Hawaii and I had to go take her lucky ass to the airport. I told her to bring me back a Hawaiian boy as a souvenir. =) Other than that I'm not really up to much. I was hoping I could spend next weekend doing reseach, but I have to work and go to a ballroom dance competition in LA (To watch, not to compete in). I really need to get some rest. I think I'm gettong sick.
A few final things before I leave. Visit The Onion. It's a wonderfully funny magazine/satire. I've picked put a few artices you may enjoy:
1. I make the Best Spaghetti 3. Youthful Tendency Disorder 5. Stupid Shit
2. College Binge Drinking 4. Babies are Stupid