A few words about Me.  I have always been interested in the lifestyle.  My

natural curiosity about people and My ability to watch and listen to their

subtle messages as well as their more brazen ones have brought Me many

enjoyable hours.

 

I, like most people, can trace my interest in bdsm, which you will hear me

refer to as, "the scene" or "the lifestyle" to a very young age.  Which role

I played did not seem to make much difference to Me then.  It wasn't until I

really began to understand the deeper meanings and responsibilities of being

this way that I realized My true yearnings.

 

I also, like most really good Mistresses, spent some time as a submissive. 

You will notice that I did not say "on my knees" because I could never quite

get there.  From time to time a Man I really respected could get me to call

him "Sir" but it was the rare occasion that I was on My knees and even then

it was probably because someone had a hold on My hair and was forcing me

there. (I'm rather vain and was worried about it messing up My pretty

locks).  A former Dom of Mine who is very dear to My heart summed it up

pretty well when he said.... "Well "little one", (a term he uses with Me to

this day, I suspect to piss Me off just because He can) "in addition to the

fact that it was you that added all this gray to My hair, I can probably

safely say that you were just a "sucky" slave."  I laugh and really don't

mind this description because He is right.  What that time DID do for Me was

teach Me to be a really good Mistress.  I rarely ask My property to do

anything that I have not felt or know the "call" for.  I know their fear AND

their hunger.

 

I also take ownership of another very seriously and I do NOT consider it a

gift.  If a slave wants to be Mine, they have to work for it.  I don't chase

down submission and since it IS such a huge responsibility, I don't accept

it unless I feel COMPELLED to do so because, like pets.... for Me... once I

own a slave, they are Mine forever... no matter where they go or whether

they still wear the Steel of My ko'lar or not.

 

Now for a VERY IMPORTANT fact to know about Me...  I'm not a girlfriend

Domme.... I'm a Mistress!

 

There is a huge difference.  A relationship between Me and what is Mine is

all about slave and Owner.  I cherish them because they are Mine and because

they are unique and intrigue Me.  I do love them and can be fierce and

dangerous if I feel they are being hurt or misused in anyway.  But they

belong to ME.. not the other way around and they were not "courted" by Me to

become Mine.  They are usually Mine because they begged so long and stayed

around Me so long I became enamored of them and found that for them NOT to

be there upset Me.  I try My utmost not to let Myself become "upset".  I

find it a distasteful emotion, right up there with jealous or angry.  One

cannot be in control if you are beset with ANY of these emotions and if I

cannot be in "control" how in the world could a slave trust Me to be in

"control" of him or her.

 

I suppose now is a good time to talk a little about the fact that I am

"Gorean".  This topic has really been a hot one, which amuses Me.  I started

out like many people by finding this wonderful online host of people who

were "like ME".  I was amazed to know that I was not the only "perverted"

person in the world.  The first time I walked into a "scene" chat room, I

felt like Dorothy standing on the steps of OZ when they finally swung those

giant doors open and color flooded into Her life.  Life was about to get

"normal" for Me.  I was where I belonged with people that understood Me.  My

vanilla life just wasn't enough anymore and I played and grew there with

people I will cherish always.  Soon I started venturing into real life

meetings and visits and I now have friends on several continents and in many

states.  After a while, I started feeling that I wanted more.... a deeper

fuller more structured environment to play in.  Gor was that for Me.  I

found the need to study it to play there rewarding. It takes a good brain to

play in the Gorean arena.

 

Despite the fact that I am often criticized by others that have never

bothered to get to know Me before deciding to prattle on about Me, I DO

realize Gor is a fantasy world.  But WHAT a wonderful one.  Gor taught Me

how to balance being a Mistress with being a Woman.  It created a realm

which enabled Me to retain that dainty lil girl inside yet wield the Steel

necessary to control another human being.  It also brought a structure that

I found beautiful and that could round out a slave to be the best they can

be.  It gives them something to work towards, a way to please ME which they

are so hungry to do and teaches them a discipline that they can use in all

other aspects of their lives to be successful.  So, I took Gor and put it

under a microscope (just like I do any slave I am interested in or own) and

then poured it into a colander and let the parts I could use real life

filter through.  Those philosophies are the ones I bring home to practice

and put to good use.  So to those who criticize Me and Mine for our Gorean

practices I say, fill your mind with the facts before you let it spew forth

your noble words.

 

One final word of warning about Gor, Gor is not what it used to be.  Beware

of those that SAY they are Gorean.  There are many slaves now walking Gor in

Robes of the Free.

 

I am married to a wonderful Brazilian.  He is younger than I am by several

years but we are well paired.  Now another fact about Me.  I am not a

switch.  This man is Dominant and I needed that in My life.  He grounds Me. 

He keeps Me from being an intolerable vain bossy Bitch.  He is My strength

and My partner.  He reminds Me that I am a Woman and although I have not

been on My knees to Him.. I HAVE been over His lap and probably will again. 

There are times that I JUST don't know when to quit.  When I surpass His

ability to "take" it, that is where I will find Myself.   This amuses my

property and any of them would probably pay HUGE sums of money to witness

this "rarity".   I am very smart and usually know when to "back off" so it's

not a common occurrence.  He knows of My boys and has no jealousy towards

them.  He knows they occupy a different place of my heart.  I don't mind

either if he has a slave.  I don't share what is Mine with Him or vice versa

but if We all want to play together.. well that is fine too.  We have a

"household".  What is Mine and what is His.. are all a part of that

household.

 

A word about Me and Mine.  It is rare for Me to only own one slave.  Gorean

trained slaves understand the "chain".  Those from the realm of D/s usually

do not, having been used to being the favored pet.  To Me, each slave is

unique, bringing to Me something different from the other.  I love to watch

them interact with each other as a family.  Where one boy likes to be

mischievous the other likes to be good and this can make for a very

entertaining time.  When I grow tired of the antics of one I can settle into

the arms of the other with a sigh of relief.  A girl brings a whole new

aspect to the scene or a boy that likes to dress up even furthering the

experience.  Life is an experience and I don't believe in tamping that down.

  There is no reason for there to be jealousy between slaves in My chain

because they all know that there is NO OTHER like them for Me.  They are

special and each one is My precious possession.

 

I also rarely restrict My property from other Dominants as long as I know

them and respect their ability and philosophy to be "responsible" with what

is Mine.  I know there are areas that I don't go to that My property can get

from these Sisters or Brothers of Mine.  Rather than be jealous, I am

relieved that they can play this part to My slave.  This way, they and My

slave find a release and "I", have found a Dominant friend that I can

"share" with.  I try very hard not to cry on the shoulder of My slaves or

whine or bitch about life.  I will share My life with them and I make Myself

available real life to My slaves.  I just don't want their energy going to

"fixing" things for Me.  If I can't hold MY life together, how can I have

influence over theirs?

 

I pretty much see a slave as a slave and if an un-ko'lared slave is brave

enough to want to interact with ME, I enjoy this.  I just enjoy slaves in

general.  I am respectful of their ko'lar if they are owned but do not see

it as an excuse to be obnoxious or a way "out" of correction to hide behind

it.  I feel that if another Dominant doesn't want their slave to "Play" they

should teach them that and train them in what they can and cannot do.  In

what is acceptable to Him or Her for their slave to do with another

Dominant.  IN the on-line arena, it should say "restricted" in their whois

or profile if they are not to play with others.  I do feel sorry for those

slaves that often sit online for hours, waiting for a Mistress or Master to

come online and are not allowed to feed their hunger with others.  I think

it's a cruel thing to do and shows a weakness and insecurity in that

Dominant that demands this of them.

 

Finally, I will say that I like Me.  I am always a work in progress.  I am

always learning and if I were to choose a word that I think is really,

really important it would be TOLERANCE.  It's a discipline I choose and wish

more people did.  If so, our community would not be so demonized.  I try to

continue to learn and be tolerant that others in the community have chosen

forms of it that I may find distasteful but is what they need.

 

So,,,, there you have it…. This is ME… My musings …… take from it what you will.

 

Kytherea