October 21st, 2006
T_T it really happened! the sign! they didn't notice! they don't give a damn! :'(
gawd! i could feel my heart breaking and i'm in tears right now.(for the same reason as above and another) oh, how i miss maye! T_T
basically, i am different from my barkada. all of them have their own thing! camille & dawn are now in the swimming varsity team. DeyDey is a natural badminton player. Joan is a natural dancer and a kickball player. where I, only good in my brains and not physically.
remembering all these makes me cry even more. i am sick of being good intellectually. i am sick of people's praises; "Lys, bright ka man!" "Sus, easy lang yan sa'yo, bright ka gyud!" ["lys, you're bright" "it's easy for you, you're bright!"] it makes my ears bleed. keep on saying the same thing! *headdesk*
i don't want to be Eliza the Bright anymore! :'( well, i should take that as a compliment, if i would -- then what? i keep on doing that? well, a bit yes but i should do something that they wouldn't say the same thing again! but how?
gawd! i'm so mixed up right now!
*cries so hard*
~eliza
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October 17th, 2006
ack! i'm really pissed off with someone at the same time i'm feeling hurt because i'm pissed of with this someone. i so want to cry right now!! the deadline for the sign that i've asked for is tomorrow!! and i asked the sign last week! i really want to cry now!!
ok, here is it.. the FOADS have their own journal(which i bought!) and we'll get to write about anything in there; if you're mad at someone within the group and the like.. but only the FOADS can read the inside.. and me and deydey planned this.. and we sticked the theme song of FOADS; which is Never Far Behind by Aly & AJ.. and last week, we took it off because we were mad or pissed or badly hurt by the actions they're treating us.. and we asked for a sign that if they'd notice that we removed the song, it means that they really care for us but if they won't then it means that they don't care.. and deydey set her deadline tomorrow (wednesday) and i set my deadline last friday.. but i extended it until tomorrow.. so, yeah... *grunt*
so want to cry right now!!! :cry:
anyway, i gotta go.. i gotta study for our English Unit Test tomorrow.. wish me luck! :D and.........nevermind
g'nyt!!
~eliza
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October 13th, 2006
well, y'all know i think that i've been keeping my anger to my two friends for the past few months. and just a while ago *shrug* i burst out. here's our conversation (my status message was "cadium, you really love to piss me off.. well, you're doing a great job because i'm freaking pissed! congratulations!):
first friend:
[20:53] friend: whose cadium?
[20:54] darnangel_lys: cadium is the element name of the atomic symbol of Cd
[20:54] darnangel_lys: now you get it
[20:54] darnangel_lys: ?
[20:54] friend: so our mad about cd?
[20:54] friend: whitch means camille and dawn?
[20:54] friend: !
[20:55] darnangel_lys: you know na man pala eh!
[20:55] friend: so why do you have to display it on your stat!!!
[20:55] friend: huh!!!
[20:57] darnangel_lys: BECAUSE WE NICKNAMED THE TWO OF YOU AS CADIUM! BECAUSE IT'S ELEMENT SYMBOL IS Cd
[20:57] darnangel_lys: !
[20:57] darnangel_lys: duh!
[20:58] friend: IM THE MEANING OF PESSED!!!!!!!!!!
[21:00] darnangel_lys: because!
[21:00] friend: WHY are you so ......so...............SOarrrrrrgg gosh darn pissed.....is it because of us always talking about our crushes
[21:00] darnangel_lys: YES!!!!!!!!
[21:00] friend: you could always CHANGE THE TOPIC!!!!!!!
[21:01] darnangel_lys: GAWD! you're malking me even more pissed!
[21:01] friend: im just telling the truth
[21:01] darnangel_lys: what truth!?
[21:01] darnangel_lys: that's it's all my fault that i'm pissed!?
[21:02] friend: you just dont have to sit in one corner and mope about it do something dont be helpless
[21:02] darnangel_lys: that its my fault that i don't want to talk about your crushes!?
[21:02] darnangel_lys: that's the truth!?
[21:02] darnangel_lys: huh!?
[21:02] friend: and lie about being fine...
[21:02] darnangel_lys: that's the truth!?
[21:02] darnangel_lys: ok!
[21:02] darnangel_lys: fine!
[21:02] darnangel_lys: i accpet it!
[21:02] darnangel_lys: i don't fucking care!
[21:03] darnangel_lys: i mope in one corner because if i would talk to you cadium, this happenS!
[21:03] darnangel_lys: and i don't want that to happen in school!
Session Close (friend): Fri Oct 13 21:12:57 2006
second friend:
[21:04] friend: lys...tell me...what did i do again?
[21:04] darnangel_lys: ask dawn!
[21:04] darnangel_lys: she knows!
[21:04] darnangel_lys: i don't want to repeat what i've said!
[21:04] darnangel_lys: cos i'm not a casette tape nor a cd!
[21:05] darnangel_lys: that you just press rewind and it plays what you want to hear!
[21:05] friend: i just wanted to ask..you dont have to get mad about it
Session Close (friend): Fri Oct 13 21:12:57 2006
there. it was world war 3 in trillian that time.. anyway, better get going now..
~eliza
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October 1st, 2006
LMFAO!!!!:
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Colorful and Sexy
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Confident and outrageous, you have the personality to wear a dress that really turns heads.
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:shifty:
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Your True Love Is a Taurus
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Why you'll love a Taurus:
Romantic and sentimental, a Taurus can provide you with the security you need.
And you both share a fondness for the finest things, from great food to luxury vacations.
Why a Taurus will love you:
You have the honesty and direct approach that down to earth Taurus desires.
And enough elegance to show a Taurus a few new decadent delights!
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often times true:
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You Have A Type B+ Personality
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You're a pro at going with the flow
You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer
A total joy to be around, people crave your stability.
While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity.
Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done
You're passionate - just selective about your passions
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weakness is true:
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Your Birthdate: January 15
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You take life as it is, and you find happiness in a variety of things.
You tend to be close to family and friends. But it's hard to get into your inner circle.
Making the little things wonderful is important to you, and you probably have an inviting home.
You seek harmony with others, but occasionally you have a very stubborn streak.
Your strength: Your intense optimism
Your weakness: You shy away from exploring your talents
Your power color: Jade
Your power symbol: Flower
Your power month: June
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hehehe :blush:
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You Are 48% Happy
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You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments.
You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.
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yupyupyup!!
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Your Mood Ring is Blue-Green
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Inner emotions charged
Yet, somewhat relaxed
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*sigh* true true:
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Your World View
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You are a fairly broadminded romantic and reasonably content.
You value kindness and try to live by your ideals.
You have strong need for security, which may be either emotional or material.
You respect truth and are flexible.
You like people, and they can readily make friends with you.
You are not very adventurous, but this does not bother you.
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i'm a kid!:
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Your Inner Child Is Surprised
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You see many things through the eyes of a child.
Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.
You cherish all of the details in life.
Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.
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freaky:
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Your Element Is Air
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You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world.
And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly.
Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.
You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful.
You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.
With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!
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2nd and 3rd line:
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You Are Somewhat Logical
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Ok, so didn't get the majority of questions right
But you did answer some pretty tough questions correctly
Logic may not be your strong point, but you hold your own!
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hahahaha!! i want camille to answer this! XD :
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You Are 50% Weird
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Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it!
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the first two paragraphs hurts my feelings:
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You Are 40% Abnormal
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You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.
You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.
You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.
You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.
You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.
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*big grin plastered on the face*:
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Your Body Image is 16% Unhealthy, 84% Healthy
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You have a great body image. You know that no one looks perfect, and you're happy the way you are.
Also, you don't judge other people on their looks... and it helps them feel better about their own bodies!
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*clears throat*:
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You Are Psyche!
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Eternally in search of purpose and insight.
You're curious and creative with a total sense of wonder.
Totally empathetic, you pick up on other's moods easily.
Just be sure to pamper yourself as well!
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last one, ha! rrrrright..at the moment, i feel like breaking everything i see:<_<
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Your Power Color Is Blue
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Relationships and feelngs are the most important things to you.
You are empathetic and accepting - and good at avoiding conflict.
If someone close to you is in pain, it makes you hurt as well.
You try to heal the ones you love with your kind and open heart.
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~eliza
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October 1st, 2006
well, you guys already know the curse right; that every first of the month (like today, 1st October) i would feel so bad. particularly, because of my barkada
GAWD! i thought it'll be broken today! but no.. i just have to happen it just have to happen! ARGH!
everything was doing great this morning and afternoon. BUT (!) around this 6pm, i just have to argue or rather get exasperated to the same person who was last month's reason. (sorry if that didn't make any sense, i'm just really pissed)
after that incident, i was in between the feeling of destroying anything i see and crying. i cried. seriously.
*sigh* now i don't know how to approach or act around this person tomorrow at school.
GOD, please heal me!
~eliza
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