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::: Daily Thoughts [06.26.01] |
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Gosh darnit! I wish I was still at school..."I miss my friends" LoL Thea! But it feels good to be relaxed and not to think about what's due the next day. So much shit has been goin through my mind lately. Just a lot of bullhonkey that's not even something to really worry about. Stupid crap, I guess? For the past few days, (the days I don't kick it), I've been laying on my bed with the window open...looking at pictures and thinking. Thinking about daily girlie teen issues I guess you can say. I look at pictures to reflect back on them...the times and the days my friends and I kicked it in the past. Dances, taking pictures for the freak of it, whatever...I love to think! Thinking is what I do the best...I don't express it to anyone, I just keep it all to myself. Well, I guess I do it on here too...like right now! This little thought page is just something that I can spill out to when no one is around, kinda like my daily journal. I usually don't even tell my friends what's going through my head because I don't want them to think I'm some weirdo or think that I have all these issues flondering through my head. I don't want them to put up with me basically...
I wish I was going somewhere...LIKE RIGHT NOW! out of state...Marissa is already in freakin Cali and won't be back till the 6th! You lucky fucker! haha...I need to get out of here. Sometimes I think about going to college out of state...but NoOOooO! My parents want to "watch over me." What the crap? How can I learn to be independent or actually grow up with them being there? I guess all that is gonna change when I move to our Condo in Bellevue. But its pretty much not the same as "living on your own." It's still under their roof...They say I gotta be home every weekend, but I guess that's okay since I'll mostly be living in Bellevue than Maple Valley. Family is important to me...but I just hate it when they pick the littlest things and make it a big deal, ya know! I mean they're a phone call away, but I don't think I can go on without seeing my parents for a month or so. That's just way too long...plus I don't think my mom will like that either...hee hee...I got strict parents ya know! What am I doing? I need to get my lazy butt off infront of the computer and find my ass a job! Working at a retail store of some kind sounds fun, but the pay...NO WAY! So I'm trying to find one at a hospital...I told myself I would go out and get some applications...but I've been laggin. Errr...Maybe tomorrow? Shizzle... OoOH...I organized my bedroom too! Well not really...just my closet and pictures. It's kinda cool to actually see that I got clothes and shoes! LoL! I've been wondering where some stuff went...hee hee... | |
