The Story of Me
The Story of Me
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At first, I really thought that Bella is in
love with John. 
It seems that most of their quarrel gotta do with me. I was thinking then, that
am I their source of quarrel~? Bella seems
to be very troubled with this. Not only that, whenever she was to go out with
me, she had to lie to John. Although John
gives Bella the kinda freedom Bella
ever wanted, but Bella still
gotta lie. Why~? Simple, because she's going out with me. Who would ever like
your steads to go out with their ex~? Some more I'm someone whom Bella
cares for the most. Thus to avoid unnecessary trouble, Bella
chose to lie to him. But Bella lie to me
too, she always told me that she did tell John
that she's going out with me. Only at the later stage then she confessed to me
that she had been lying all along.
There was once Bella came to look for me at Club 7 where I was with my friends. She wanted to talk, thus we talk outside the pub. It was then she told me everything... Actually Bella had been trying to get over me, but was unsuccessful. And as we started to get closer again each day, she finds it even harder. What's the best thing, John isn't as nice to her anymore. He stopped going out with her. He wasn't as caring anymore too. But the problem is that Bella don't even know if she really loved him. Thus she felt troubled, and she's beginning to choke...
Seeing her in this state hurts me. I finally end up making the choice, I'll leave her...Right there and then, I demanded her to break up with him. Not only that, I also pressured her to change to someone of my expectation. And trust me, I'm really unreasonable with those expectations. Furthermore, those are what Bella can't do too. Why do I do that~? Well, to make her feels that I'm no longer "the one" for her, and thus she can move on in life...
What can I say~? I succeeded. She really left, and I'm out of her life... But
she still stays in me. Indeed that she too finds me unreasonable. At first I'm
still glad about it, but soon I regretted~! 
I begin to think, if someone were to be able to give
the girl I loved everything that she ever wanted, I strongly believed that I can
do it much better. It was then I knew how wrong I was to push away my
loved one, especially when she loved me too.
I was surprised when I found out that Bella was actually leaving in pain that night. Ever since the day that she went steady with John, she had been trying to replace me with him. But so sad that John had been living in my shadows, unable to shake me away. Bella had been acting strong in front of me, she nearly succeeded in making me believed in what she wanted me to believe in. She nearly convinced me that she had found herself "the one". She might had convinced me, but definitely not herself... There's one song that I delicate to her, it's meaning means not to lie to herself. She agrees with it completely. She even said that I'm actually the only person that really understand her. Here's the song...
Well, I finally got to realise why is it that she's always comparing the both of us. In terms of looks, dress sense and character, John & I might seem similar. However there's this tacit bonding between me and Bella that no one can replace. Say, like the things we'll like to do or eat, dress sense, the way we talk and a lot more... Thus no matter how John may be similar with me, he's still not me after all. So Bella thought that by finding someone that looks and behaves like me, can help her to forget about me, she's wrong too. By doing so, I think it's even harder for her to get over me...
Honestly, John did nearly overtook me at 1st. If I didn't exist in this world anymore, then maybe it would have been so... But I'll be really sad if that happens, simply because it was later then I know what kinda jerk he was. I won't go into details on what he had done, be it towards Bella or anyone else, but I guess you can simply judge by the happenings I said so far...
It wasn't really hard to break them up, since Bella don't really love him. All I need to do is to show Bella that John wasn't the guy she wanted, and make her realise that he's not the guy she love too. However, their breakup doesn't mean that Bella & I will get back together... Because we didn't. Although we still love each other, but there're still too many things in the past that we can't just get over with~! Furthermore, we still have a lot of secrets within us that we need to let each other know before we get back together, or else we'll feel guilty. Finally, we manage to have the courage to tell each other... But what will happen to us, after our Final Confession...?