The Story of Me
The Story of Me
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I believed that every men in Singapore know what NS
is all about. My dad always tells me that I'm too young to have a girl friend,
as I have to undergo 3 tests. The 3 tests of life are
Studies, National Service & Career. I don't believe it at all
then, but now... I do~! 
It's really that true... People do changed after they gone thru these 3 tests.
As for relationships, it's up to the bond between the couple.
Training wasn't too tired. Err... I think that I should say, it wasn't tired at all... The physical training wasn't tough, at least for me. I'm not saying that I'm fit or what, it's just that there are too many breaks or rest time in between trainings. And during these free times, my fellow squad mates would take a nap. Err... These naps are unofficial, in fact they are not suppose to be on their beds, not even sitting on the bed is allowed. I hope my officers didn't see this one. Anyway, I never sleep before, until the later stage of the training. I'll go into that later and you'll know why...
For about 5 months I have to stay in camp. Although I got to go back on every
Saturdays lah, oh and alternate Fridays also. But I'll need to go back on Sunday
night. On every Wednesday there'll also be walkout in the evening, but got to
return back to camp in the night also. There's this thing called OB, Orderly
Barrack, which will be rotated evenly between everyone in the squad. This OB
means that you have to stay in the barrack the whole day, and you don't need to
go for any training for the day. However the sad thing is that, if your OB
happens to fall on weekends or holidays, then too bad for you lor. You either
find ways and means to sell them to your fellow squad mates, or you jolly well
do it yourself man~! 
So actually it wasn't really so bad, as Bella
& I still get to meet up often. As for weekend, as per usual lor. I'll go
pick her up after her work, or if she off then even better. As for Wednesday,
I'll go find her at her work place. Even thought just for a short while, I'm
satisfied liao. 
As I said earlier on, physically it wasn't tired. But, this is always a but~!
Mentally, it's so STRESS. There're so many things to study. Apart from that,
freedom seems to be taken away in a moment. You don't even have the freedom to
choose the time you wanted to sleep. Thus forget about eat and play...
Oh, and the food~! Let me tell you something, it really sucks~! It's always
tasteless, although they said it had improved a lot. The menu always repeats.
There's no pork and beef... Chicken~? I used to like them, but now~? No way~! 
The chicken is always skinless. You know how does skinless chicken taste like~?
Sweet Potatoes~! Fish, you said~? I'm someone who seldom eat fish, the ones I
ate are those deep fried. Oh I forgot to tell you that nothing in the menu is
deep fried~! Fish & Chip is served at least once a week. I'll always throw
the whole plate away, not because I'm fussy over it. But let me ask you, how to
eat the fish when I seldom eat them and it further tasted like SHIT~!!? Sorry
for the hush word...
Another factor to be stress for, human relationships... I normally have no problem with that, but due to some reasons, which I'll go into further details on some particular reason in the next chapter, it became a big problem. Every man for himself, it's true~! Not completely though... But there's a lot of back stabbing~! Not just to get the favour of higher officers, but also among ourselves. As there are a lot of different groups in the squad. In fact, I'm one of those loners... Don't worry, I'll let you know in the next chapter, so stop asking ya~! *Duhz*
Thus as you can see, I'm not really doing well in my NS days, and the ones that
can provide me with the greatest support are my love ones. My family had always
been supportive, but not Bella...
Instead, she gave me more headaches and troubles...
She always like to go out till very late, I'm not being possessive here k~! It's only 5 months or so, all I need is that she don't always go out till so late, as in 3am or so... Some more it's quite often lor~! What's worst is that, she normally goes disco or pubs. Every time that she go out, I'll definitely wait for her to reach home. Why~? I'm worried, as her alcohol control is weak.
It's still ok if it's once a week that she go out till so late, but no lor~! It's like a everyday basis to her. It's not only money wasted on cab fares, but it's also quite dangerous or her to go home alone. And I know how she'll dress herself when she goes clubbing, it'll be 'easy access' to molester or rapist. That's why I can't get myself to sleep unless she's safe at home. What's worst~? Sometimes she'll even forget to call or message me~! Then she'll sleep like a pig and will not listen the phone~! Thus I'll end up not sleeping and waiting for her call, while she's already snoring away...
Now put yourself in my shoe... I had to wake up at about 0530hrs in the morning,
and I'm going to have a full day training, both physical and mental. Although it
not a really tough training, but it can be very tiring if there's not enough
sleep~! Now you know why I say that at the later part, I also sleep during
training hours~? Sometime even during classes. I can be charged for that you
know~? And if I were to fail the 6 month course, I'll have to pay a fine,
about S$22,000/-. That's a big sum of money, thus that's STRESS~! Bella
& I had talk about this topic before, but we'll only end up
quarrelling about it. She thinks that I'm trying to tie her up. I felt hurt upon
hearing that. If you are Bella, what will
you do~? Am I too demanding~? All that I hope is that she gives me a peace of
mind for about 5 months, is that really too much~? 
But our relationship didn't tear apart because of this matter. It's the word TRUST. We seems to have too many misunderstandings & incidents that damaged this bond between us. Thus we both knew that we really need to work harder on that. However, Bella seems to continue her lies even though she knew that our trust isn't there.
Our relationship came to an end when there's one incident where I caught her lying. I've been having a very bad day ever since I undergo my NS, yet that night she's still throwing her temper on me, even though she was in the wrong~! I couldn't take it anymore, thus we had our final break up. I find that there's really no point since she never changed. She knew that we're already lack of trust, yet she insisted on lying to me.
That night was unbearable for me~! I kept everything to myself, no one in my squad knew about the break up, not even my buddy. I couldn't sleep that night. As my bed was near to the window, I kept looking at the moon. The moon is my only accompany I've got then. The only ones who could share this moment with me then was the cold wind blowing from the windows. Memories of Bella and I hunted me the whole night. Everyone in the barrack is snoring away, leaving me alone to suffer. The night dragged on till morning, with my tears still flowing...
For every end, there's bound to be another beginning. The end of my relationship with Bella wasn't the end of the world. Guess who came back to my life~? Do read on my story, where I start my life afresh...
