INSPIRATION

by: Blue Moogle

                 Many people must wonder why there are such motivations for making such things. This motivation that we call inspiration. And you must ask yourself if there are any inspirations for making a website for the clan that I mostly bet my whole being on. Well it's one of my deepest secrets but I guess it's no secret anymore. For many people have already known what or should I say who is my inspiration. Many of whom are EGF members like myself. But until further up comings, I'd rather keep essential knowledge about this so called inspiration sealed between those people who already know and to myself. Though I cannot say the same for the others. And that's when my fear starts getting to the best of me.

But why did I made this web page anyway if I don't even intend of letting go of my knowledge of what I'm admiring. To tell you the truth, I'd really keep quiet about this subject. However, many people especially my clan mates were curious of why I'm making a website even if I am not asked to and with almost nothing in return. Honestly speaking, I'm not boastful as most people think. I'm not rich as most people think. And most of all, I'm not as retarded and autistic as many people think. I'm just being myself and making something for my friends are one of my best traits, as a person that is. But enough about that, I'm going to tell a small summary of my inspiration in the next stanza.

There are very special things I want to cherish. What can I say, I'm only human. And was born to make mistakes. A lot of mistakes actually. I'm just hoping of not making a mistake of befriending the wrong person. Now this person I'm talking about has already been met by most of my clan mates. Though she may not notice me a lot. But I guess I'd rather leave her of her troubles. It is not merely as simple as having a crush on a girl but as broad as something out of the ordinary. She already knows me. Well... not all of me actually. It's because I haven't shown her what I really feel. Though it sounds silly but it seems that I have absolutely no contact with her and I'm not talking about her celphone number.

Everything of what I am is misunderstood by this person. It's like I'm real enigma. The things that I gave her has real special meaning and somewhat sentimental value engraved within and these things came deep within my sweat and soul. I just wish she notices that. Or maybe I'm just wasting my time and all of my efforts are in vain. There are even times that I'm starting to think for myself that she hates me for what I am. That I am no better than the people who treat her wrong. But most of the time I ask myself what have I done wrong to deserve this dilemma.

To conquer my frustration over this person. I want to make something that would please her. And that goes to all the people I want to meet. As long as she's happy, I don't mind. And for my first task or should I say my second. I made this website with her as my inspiration. And it is her that keeps me motivated. My talents are limited though. Or maybe I'm just doubting myself too much. I know she'll notice that one day. And maybe that day will finally come and she'll know that she's the one I'm talking about. I just hope it's not to late.

As for this project, I dedicate this whole masterpiece to her. For I know that someday my inspiration will not turn out as something simple as an admiration but more on determination to win. You may notice that I haven't said anything about her physical appearance. Well... to tell you guys and gals the truth, I'd rather tell some of what I have known about her these days. From the way she taught me, I can say that she will notice me more than what it is today. Thank you...