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11 November 2004
Been quite a long day- class starting at 9:25AM and my last one ending at 6:20PM but I left at 6PM to attend a seminar on Particulate Matter which the mayor would speak at. He was 20 minutes late and didn't stay long after he spoke. His speak wasn't at all impressive or inspiring. Don't think he actually cared about the topic- it's all about publicity and getting re-elected.

A bit mad at my parents, but never mind. It's like they tell me they're leaving the country only today as though it's no big deal. If I weren't in uni, I'd take off for Scotland like it was nothing. Scotland...I MISS YOU!!!

Just watched a show on Paris. France is a brilliant country too.

Anyway, by the time I returned from campus, it was nearly 9PM. Went rowing. I won again of course.

5 boats ahead. 12 minutes. Advanced level. Travelled 3250 meters Burned 101 calories.

Going to do French homework now. I'm way behind.

Just getting over the fact that I was used. No one needed to tell me that; I had the suspicion and I'm glad I got out before I was 100% certain and before it got out of hand. Let me just say the guy was a jerk, a lying bastard and I hope he's damned to hell. Needed to get that out of my system.

14 November
So much has happened, yet there doesn't seem to be much. I suppose it all has to do with my bored state of mind.

Last night, went to the Galleria with my roommate to see an ice skating performance by professionals from Las Vegas. And then the Christmas tree in the rink lit up at the end. It was pretty neat. The only thing I didn't like was this lady who kept pushing her kids to the front. And then one of the kid wanted to leave, so I had to make way for him to get out. And then, the father tells the other kid to come out too. And all this when the pairs were doing these fancy moves with the guy lifting the girl over his head and twirling her this way and that. Parents, when will they get the timing right and have consideration for others? This is what I wonder about. If I become a parent, will I turn ignorant like these ones that annoy me so that I annoy others too in order to get my kids the best that they can get?

I have a very good start on Stats. That's the problem with good starts: you think they're so good that you don't bother completing it until just before the deadline. Well, this assignment isn't due for another 4 days. I don't exactly understand everything, but I understand what formulas to follow. It's all very tedious work and I just don't see the point in it at all.

I'm already done with the Ecology assignment even though it's not due for another 4 days too. There's just the extra credit left, but that's easy.

So, what else?

Ah yes, the one guy who's killing me inside with pure irritation and frustration. I just don't understand that I'm giving up. But he has to call me every week, damn it! He woke me up this afternoon saying he wants a TV. Yeah, so I want a lot of things as well but I don't go to you. I think the reason I maintain this relationship with him is in hopes for him to have someone he knows to drive me to the airport. That's what he said last time, that I didn't need to get a van; I could have called him and he knew people who'd take me to the airport. Unless he's just lying. You really can't trust this guy. But I would never say that to anyone, even to people I don't trust; it's just not nice. When I told him about going to the movies the previous night, he asked why I didn't tell him and I told him he said he didn't care where I went that night he was drunk on vodka. And he denied it and said I said I didn't tell him where I was going because I didn't trust him. So, I don't trust a lot of people but what does that have to do with telling them where I was going and taking them out. And that wasn't even true. I never said I didn't trust him. What kind of a person am I to say a thing like that to a person's face? Jesus f*cking Christ! Then he tells me he was joking when he said he didn't appreciate that afternoon when I took him out. If he was joking, then why did he get to yelling? He was not joking, I'm sure of it, even if he denies it. This guy has no sense of humour even though he says I don't. I can take anything lightly. I mean I was going to the donut shop and he says it was closed and I turn in and it was open and I said yeah, knew not to trust you. I was joking obviously, but he said to just drop it.

He also asked me why I didn't go to this Indian event Dawali or something and I said simply because I wasn't Indian. And he said I didn't have to be and that I totally missed out. Now, if it's missing out on his amazingly annoying clinging behaviour, then that is fine with me.

This guy is starting to drive me crazy. I can't avoid him if he keeps calling and coming over. Really, what is a polite way of saying get lost bastard. I figure if he's using me, then I should use him too. So, I'm hoping he's got friends who can take me to the airport. There was one friend of his who called me yesterday. I was quite surprised when I got the message he was having a gathering and I was welcomed to join. Until I realized he was the one who told him to call me and that the only reason he hadn't gone was because I hadn't gone. He needed the ride. I feel used, but sometimes one feels used by someone who doesn't have a whole lot of resources to do something. I figure, if I were a poor chap like him with nothing but a bike to get from place to place, I would reallly appreciate it if someone took me around, but hope I didn't seem like I was using anyone. And of course, I would make sure I wasn't as annoying and demanding as I could be. And would in fact, try to give something back.

And why is it that I have to tell him what I'm doing every moment and he doesn't tell me what he's doing. He mentioned that he went to someone's place to have the best sandwiches and it's like well, why didn't he call me then. One of these days, I'm going to have to lay it down gently, why he is the selfish arrogant bastard that he is. I suppose it's not fair for me to be complaining if he doesn't know it at all and therefore I'm going to tell him.

So, that is just a bit of rambling on how I'm feeling at this moment.

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