Resolution I had a dream again� A beautiful dream� Don�t want to wake up� So real� how can this be fake?� I want it to be real� Like taking the breath out of my life, I come back to reality� Cold and dark� No� reality isn�t cold� is it?� The dream is what I wish was real, But is reality that bad?� This world fills me with� I can't take it anymore. My anger blinds me. God�s voice whispers to me, But He calls upon deaf ears! How can I be happy, when hate and anger, so deep� is consuming� I�m drowning� I� can�t� breathe� I feel God near me� I push Him away� He stands firm, not moving, not leaving me� alone� He opens His arms� I start to fight� I fight out of fear� I can�t even see straight �but then� I stop� I realize� I haven�t been fighting God� I�ve been beating myself down� � Tired and weak I collapse� Exhaustion� Depression� I fall on my face, my knees hit the ground, and I cry out in pain and agony� Where are You now!?! Now, when I need you!?!� � He was still there� He never left my side� I cursed His very existence! I mocked the most sacred of names! � and He still loved me!!! Lord� God� hear this plea� I ask of You, Your Mercy. I deserve what I get� I am sorry� This is my resolution.