A Sprinkle from the Heaven
By : Elia Agusta
Sister: How you say �Love� dek?
Me: Aaaaaa.. Umm, Lo-ve (with Indonesia style)
Sister and Brother: HAHAHAHA� Lev el lev not Lo-ve
It happened when I was 1 grader in elementary school. I went to my older sister�s house which not really far from my house. I just wanted to meet her and played with her but unfortunately she was watching TV at that time and I done it so. When the gossip was break, there was a sentence and they asked me like that dialogue. With a very loud voice they laugh at me directly when I said that word, it made me very embarrassing in front of her family. I just keep silent and look at my little sister. In 5minutes, I directly asked permission from them to went back home. And they said to me that I was embarrassing so then I wanted to go back. But, I didn�t answer it and directly went home.
After arrived at home, I was crying in my bed and didn�t know what to do but in my mind, I just want to work hard to prove that I was not as bad as what they thought. Until now I never tell it to my mother, yeah I am not really close with my mother for this kind of secret. I rarely told this kind of thing except what I have been done in my school and it�s not really secret.
Never Give Up!
Before, I was really afraid with English since in Al-Kautsar my previous elementary school. Even though, we didn�t speak English all the time but, in English lesson we had to be able to do that. And it was a big problem for me. Every English lesson, I always look at my friend�s writing and asked them every single word in my English book because I didn�t know the meaning at all and the way to write that, just like field, chocolate, and strawberry. Until at one day my friend told me �Did you join playgroup?� How could you don�t know the English of �Coklat� and how to write it in English? When I heard that, I was directly hurt deeply and again I got this kind of mock because of my English and again I didn�t tell it to my parents. I tried to keep it as a secret up until now (but I share it with you...)
Not only that, my friends didn�t want to answer all of my question about the meaning of the word in Indonesia anymore. Maybe, they were tired to answer that. Even one day, I ever asked my friend about the meaning of �The�. Usually, in the very first place of the story this word suppose to be there. And my friend said that, there is no meaning of that el, you can�t mean it by each word. English is not as easy as what you think; you have to combine the words to get the answer. Wow, every time people around me mock me indirectly. It�s surely hurt, but I still tried to survive in this situation.
Believe And Do It!
By all those things, I taught that I should do something at least to know the meaning of some word and the pronunciation. Then, when I was 2 and 3 grader I entered to a course in my school. I studied with Ms. Eva, Ms. Sari, and another that I forgot their name. I became a calm person and always keep silent and rarely talk something. It was because I was afraid especially to answer the question from the teacher. Sometimes, my teacher asked me something but I rarely could answer it because I didn�t know what the meaning is.
It already 6 months, I had a speaking, listening, and writing test. Oh My God! I didn�t know what to do but I just try to do my best again and again. When it was speaking, I was not flounce enough cause I really got nervous. And when listening, it was worst because I couldn�t write what Ms. Sari said just like �library� I wrote �laibreri� so bad!
I didn�t think by join this course my English became better and I didn�t continue this course because I was afraid about my parents to paid this course without any improvement from me and It just like kind of wasting money and time.
No one helped me to solve this problem and unfortunately it became bigger. Pak Iswahyudi, as my advisor when I was 6 grades always gives us quiz. And 50% of the question was using English. It made me suffer and started to learn English usage well. English always become my obstacle, to enter Junior High School. I really want to study in SMPN2 Bandar Lampung, as I knew that it is RSBI school which use English as the second language and as the way to deliver the lesson especially science lessons.
My Mother is My Big Power
My mother never sees it as a problem. She never told about this even though she knew actually English was my problem but she pretend to be didn�t know about it. My mother really spirit to register my name there and I realized that it was not supposed to be like that. The one that want to enter the school was me, so then; the one that have to be struggle with this is my self. Fortunately, I realized it and I helped my mother to prepare all the documents. When everything was ready, my mother directly sent it to the school directly. After 3 weeks, I have got the announcement for this first result of selection and I was passed this.
Interview come, I didn�t do any preparation for speaking etc. I just pray and relax; hopefully i could pass this last test. When I came to the room and sit in front of Mrs. Ermaniar Sepulau Raya yeah she is one of the English teacher�s there. She asked me about my personal activity, my family, and my motivation to enter to that school. Then, she asked me to read a story about gymnastic, described about the picture, and answer her question. It was not so hard but I forgot what the meaning of gymnastic is.
I couldn�t do anything, I have tried to do my best and that�s what in my mind is. I didn�t care about the test anymore cause I felt disappointed because I always failed when I have done something related to English. But, I didn�t want to make my mother sad because my mother has not went to school because she companied me to had a test and she leaved all of her works for this!
Fortunately, I passed this selection and I got enter to that school. There, I started my new life with my effort to joined LE course to improve and built by English better. I always become the first rank there and I really proud of that even though it was not really famous course but It was enough for me. I met Ms. Dewi, Ms.Tini, Ms. Helda, Mr. Daniel, Mr. Inton, Ms. Gita and Mr. Adha. They were really nice, care, and funny. We never fell bad mood when we entered to the class.
Because of that, I really attracted with English, I thought that English is really interesting and I wanted to have a good English usage just like all of my teachers. I was really proactive in the classroom, that is why my teachers easier to know me. But, it was not make any changes happened with me, I still done my work and socialize with another people. I was very busy when I was in junior high school and usually I went to LE by Damri Kopri but because it came always late and it influenced it with my course. The course started at 4 o�clock but I usually come at 4.30. but, I still enjoyed it.
Teachers, friends, and the environment motivated me to be a good and successful person in the future later on. Even I released that; English could open my opportunities to be an English teacher or another. But again, my English was not good enough up until now. Proven by my english sroce in UN was so bad. It was only 78 even and made me really underpressure. I just thought about spending much money for joining the course without any improvment in my english. Also, i didn�t join any kind of english competition when i was studying in Junior High School, because i realized that my friends and my junior had a better english rather than me, so that�s why i didn�t really care about this.
My time in Junior High School had limited. I had to think about my plan to go to the Senior High School. I really done my 1000% effort and finally i got into this school. SMAN South Sumatera (Sampoerna Academy). I set all of my plan, because i really want to join National Competition because since i was in 1 grader in Al-Kautsar, i had pass the city level only. Meanwhile, in SMPN 2 Bandar Lampung only the province level.
Unpredictable Moment!
Before, i usually join poem (read and write), drawing, painting, colouring, writing an essay, and scout�s skilled just like PBB and Pioneering. But, after i came tothis school, i challanged my self to join another different club and activities. And i joined english club and became the debate division. Actually, i was not really sure about my choise but, it looks like interesting and i want to improve also test my self.
I really didn�t know how to play and the regulations and but just followed it first. Firstly, there was a debate selection to join UNSRI debate competition. And, luckly i became the choosen to join that debate competition. I was so surprized and i have to improve my life style, attitudes, habbit, and motion. But, i didn�t really use, got the spirit and the willingness. Unfortunately, i didn�t become the winner but i tried to forget it and made it as my first experience.
Secondly, i joined Bahasa Indonesia Debate at BPMIGAS with caca and sinta. Luckly, we got the first winner. I really felt happy, keep it as my pride and made it as my motivation.
Thirdly, i went to UNILA for 3 days to join the debate competition also. We set 1st winner as our target now so we had to bring the thropy to the school. Since that, i had many experience, knowledge, and another people around you that can be your model. I really interest with debat since i got those all happiness. I also went back to my grandma�s house to take a rest. Actually, debate needs face, gessture,eand critical thinking. By debate, i can explore my critical thinking and the big one is that, Debate let me to join Nasional Competition (ALSA UI 2013, pray for me J) and we didn�t got any opportunity of this. I will manage my time and do everything easier, take a bath, religion, and find the motion. By this, i prove that nothing could be everything. In your hand J
When Semi-Final Debate In UNILA
Me and Caca J