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After a long hiatus, I'm finally back to updating this page. While I don't have a lot to tell about this last month, there are some fairly major things happening. I begin my first quarter at Portland State University next month, and though I didn't get all of the classes I wanted, I am taking care of many basic requirements and still have time for Institute as well (I'll be studying the Old Testament). I'll be keeping Graphic Design as a major, but will probably take a Business minor. In fact, while visiting the campus today, I saw that the School of Business at PSU has a specific minor in Advertising Management which is geared toward Graphic Design majors like me. I'll try to get more information about that tomorrow.
At work, our manager resigned about six weeks ago (maybe more), and his replacement, who just started yesterday, also resigned. The manager at the branch connected to ours went on to a business banking position, two of our lead tellers left and another one leaves in two weeks, and one of our personal bankers is trying to get a position as a service manager at another branch and will probably get it.
Basically, it's chaos.
Funny thing is, this last month, and these last few days especially, I've started to feel stronger than before -- more like I did when I was a missionary. I'm starting to remember what it was like when most of what I said or did was because I felt the Spirit prompting me to do so, and I'm starting to rely on that feeling again. Last night I spent a short time in a room away from everyone else, just pondering over the changes I've made in my life, and the changes I still plan to make. I thought about school, work, and (once again) dating and eventually marrying. I thought a little about what kind of relationship I'll be looking for, and the spiritual feeling that will have to be there. As I did that, I felt a strong, good feeling come over me, full of confidence and peace. I know that I'm on the right path, and that I'm doing what the Lord needs me to do right now. I also had a sense of how utterly futile my efforts in any of these areas are without Him. Just thinking about everything there is to do and how little time there is in each day...I almost panicked. At the same time, I realized that I don't have to do everything, that all I need to do is earnestly seek whatever portion He leaves to my efforts, and perform it to the best of my ability. All of it is His, and the end it will work out exactly as He has purposed. That thought is not only comforting, but very relaxing.
Well, I'm off to bed for tonight; more next week.
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